#con going

I fucking hate having to advocate for myself!! I need to pre seat for panels because standing in a line would mean I get to see 1 panel a day and then spend the rest of the day resting in my hotel room. I keep on going up to the person at the door, holding out my badge with the TINY gold accessibility sticker and being like, "Hey, can I preseat please?". Only for them to be like "No, wtf 🤨". At which point I have to be like "I have an accessibility badge, I thought that was something I could do?". And then their face drops, horrified and they're just like "😨 Oh my gosh I'm so sorry go right ahead!!". I fucking hate feeling like I'm asking too much when I go and ask for something I was told by the con I was allowed to do!

At one point I was in a crowded panel and got picked to go up for a game. It was hot and the panel runner wanted to run things early. I had my cane and was moving slowly as I always do. I didn't hear him but apparently he was like "Can we hurry it up please?!" as I was coming up. The moment he saw my cane his face dropped and he started apologizing saying he would never have said that if he had known. I hadn't even heard him, so I didn't think much of it at the time, but it really stuck with me going forward.

I had fun but I was also in a lot of pain for most of it! I had to rest so much more than everyone I went with. When I woke up day 2 the elevators in my hotel had "out of order" signs and I had to rethink my entire day because of the extra strain the stairs were going to cause.

Then went to the doll shopping in japan panel and the guy running it was super cool, i loved the slideshow, and i answered a question correctly and won a starbucks giftcard hehehe

(these are the dolls that where on display at the panel)

It Doesn’t Feel the Same: Looking at the Attempts at Virtual Conventions

I have been going to conventions for over 10 years and paneling for 8 of those years. I started 2020 excited to turn 30 and begin a new decade of cosplay, conventions, panels and memories. 

What I got was a pandemic. 

Now, some conventions tried to let the band play on even as cases continued to mount. Many shuttered before they even began. Even more decided to “go virtual” as a way to sate…

Going to a convention today with one of my best friends from school.

She has her own mental issues and I have mine. Her mom is a complete angel of a woman.

The whole time we are getting ready to leave, my friend is slowly stressing and over thinking things. She is snapping at her mother and its bothering the fuck out of me.

My mom is down in florida and didn't/doesn't put forth the amount of care that her mother does. So hearing it stresses me to bits because this woman is like my second mother.

And my friend getting worked up so much over something small is getting me anxious. I grew up around people constantly getting mad and bad things happening. I don't want to have the day ruined because I'm overwhelmed by her reactions.