#cohv

I always thought being a Shadowhunter meant that I had to approve of what the Clave did. I thought otherwise I wasn't loyal. I made excuses for them. I always have. But I feel whenever we have to fight, we're fighting a war on two fronts. We fight the enemy and we fight the Clave, too. I don't- I just don't know how I feel anymore.

Make yourself more. Or make the others less. But there is nothing here that was not made for me, and if you don't bend to that then I shall find someone who will.

Life becomes difficult when you can't tell the difference between ambition and luck, and some awful third thing that looked like a lab accident but might have been the plan all along. When you've got a built-in expiration date how do you know putting the auto-pistol in your mouth isn't just following the code? There is no free will in Heaven and there's not enough cigarettes on the ship to clear away the fog. And in the end it's all just business, isn't it? You either bleed from the eyes or you bleed from the wallet.