#codepdent

I thought it was love, but I think you just idolized me and I was your FP until you met her. And then you wanted an open relationship. It happened so quickly. I was so confused.

The week before we broke up, we were talking about what we would do when we got married later. And how great it was going to be to move in together next year.

How did things change so quickly? And how were you able to immediately start a relationship with her after us? How were you not crushed?

Because I'm crushed and I'm trying to move on but I'm worried I will never feel as intense of a "love" as I did with you.

of when I was your whole world.

I miss the rush of giving you exactly what you wanted

so you would never want again.

And it's the craving for this piece of pleasing

that scares me.

It's still here,

inside my being.