Do the Do: Pen to Paper
I woke up to the fact that I don’t allow myself to write because I don’t think I’ll properly express what I’m trying to say. That somehow, my words and sentences add up to make one jargony, bland long monologue. That idea is completely untrue but my Monkey Mind (the constant negative chatter in our minds also known as the Negativity Bias) is deceptively convincing. I listen, and obediently put my tools away.
Something is truly important to me - using my voice, writing, sharing tools and insights with people, creating a sense of connection and community - and when I go to do it, I freeze.
What would it be like if I was willing to allow myself to write?
It would be like cultivating a flow state of writing, imagining, wording. It would be like crafting a story which is what we are all - storytellers.
It would allow me to explore my thoughts in a new way, perhaps a more conscious and meticulous way.
I could feel successful, by doing what I always say I want to do. Getting around to it immediately, and not procrastinating.
Not too long ago, I arrived at the realization that I tend to make things harder for myself. That means, what I’m listening to for many large or important life choices is M.M. more than my Voice of Wisdom (spirit, soul, higher self, god, God, universe).
When I shift my thoughts from, “I make things harder for myself!” to, “I’m so glad I can clearly see where my focus has been when making big decisions”, I have gained a deeper personal knowing and can access a sense of gratitude.
I am grateful for the series of experiences I chose that made up a pattern I could clearly identify.
Now that I know what conclusion I was parked in front of, I could choose to look at what excites me about writing, and cultivating an ongoing writing practice.
It’s changing the lens from negativity to possibility, clarity, grace, and ease.
And lucky me, I get to choose which conclusion dance with.
