#cloudauditorefair

sadly, no links, but my top boyfriend candidate is honestly jacob. i’m sure someone else can get more creative than that. i am a simple writer of simple pleasures.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I sometimes look back on the early chapters of bloodshed and just go “wow where did it all go wrong???????????????” 

Whew. This uh. This might be it. Okay nah you know what, it's gonna be. The past few years have been ROUGH for me but here we are. I've missed writing for so long and missed my passion for the same time and I'm tired of not having either.

I've got embers and that will be enough.

2020 is a bitch but so am I, okay. Damn.

Here we go:

Black Star: Yes I probably could've updated by now. But you know what? I would've robbed the both of us. The writing wouldn't have had the same care, the characterizations and events would've been bitter and inconsistent. Looking at getting a printer to have a physical copy of that mountain of words so I can edit and rework it and continue it how it deserves to be done.

But I Miss You: Something I started in an emotionally and mentally dark part of my life 10/17 or 10/18, Idk anymore, but tbh it's a beautiful Bellice fix full of hurt and comfort and self-recovery. (Bit of an analysis on how we can isolate ourselves from things we want/are for fear of losing them and the inherent idiocy of it.) There's only tidbits of the 20k I have of it up because I really want to only post it when it's completed. I am rereading it and actively working on it. My priority rn.

FAQS:

Will you keep writing/posting xyz? But I Miss You might be the last new thing I start for Twilight. We'll see. But that said I want to finish everything I have up, I do believe. I really want to work on some of my original stuff and can't do that in good conscience with so much unfinished.

Are you changing Black Star? What's posted already, no not really. Part of what stalled the writing was a bit of a crisis on writing (lmao) and what I wanted to be doing and I was debating how long I wanted to let the story be. So some things I originally planned to have happen have changed but the core of it is still the same. That said, I may add scenes. Contrary to my concerns about the sheer word count of this fucking story, my good god.

What other fandom will you write in? God Idk. I still have a Mass Effect story I want to tell but Idk. We'll find out.

I can't find your ao3! That's because I don't have one. I intend to but it currently feels pointless since I'm not posting again yet. Will have one when I am ready to post But I Miss You and have some chapters of Black Star reworked.

Update schedule? I want, key word, want to get myself together and get into biweekly updates once I get back to it but that will take time because I'll have to have chapters in advance just in case and be patient enough not to hurl one out the moment I have it lmao which is hard after such a long time of not posting. So tbh no promises, we take what we are given.

Hey Jake can you tag your nsfw stuff, that is just so far out there