Happy New Year, Clexakru!

My ideal day, hmmmm. Well, I’m pretty sure it’s every day. I wake up with several cats and my wife. I have a cup of coffee, I like my job so there’s that. I run my errands, etc. Yikes, I sound so grown up and boring. What I’m saying is right now things have worked out. I have made it, whatever that means. I know I will always strive to accomplish more or see more places but I have time to do so. Right now is where I am meant to be. I went too deep again but it’s not all rainbows. I get road rage, I am usually grumpy when I wake up before my alarm, I get hangry to the point where my wife carriers around a granola bar just in case. I like my “me” time. Sometimes I talk too much, like right now. I’m not perfect but I’m me. So my ideal day would be to just wake up everyday.

Hmmm how did I get into Clexa. Not going to be short. So I decided to tap into my good old lesbian roots and see if there was anything worth reading out there. I stumbled up on a very angsty book The Paper Dolls on Amazon. It was a long and labor intensive read at times but addicting. Talked about abuse, first love, coming out, etc. The fan girl that I am I stumbled on the authors tumblr page. That’s when I found out about ships and stuff. I had to look this stuff up. I’m not old but unaware. I realized that people created this to see what they wanted reflected in the media they consumed. I always craved for that when I was young. I used to sneak out four towns over to buy video tapes of lesbian movies. I was way in the closest back then. And yes I said video tapes, All Over Me, But I’m a Cheerleader (which was watched so many times I ruined the tape). So there I was, on tumblr and my mind was blown. There were all thes ships so I started to watch the shows. I started with Supergirl, and let me tell you two terrible seasons in I was pissed bc Supercorp didn’t play out. They never and still are not together. Then I understood what a ship was and all the other lingo that comes with it. Back to tumblr, I found out about AO3 and then I was hooked. I kept seeing Clexa this and Clexa that, again watched the show. Never got passed the point where Lexa dies. But back to AO3 I went and bam, thousands of fics to read. It blew me away. So here is my open letter to fic writers:

When you pull apart the story and take ideas that were given and put your own spin on it is amazing. Renders me speechless. You are all so diverse. Each story or trope is described in a delicate way in which a reader can emerge themselves into the playing field. Am I watching it happen? Am I a side character? Am I the main focus? Do I identify with all? I could never put into words what I feel or where a story can go. I can see in my mind played out but there is a block in translation to paper. You all do that. And do it with such tact. I feel the love, the angst, the humor when I read it. There are several mediums that elicit a response from our brain. Whether it is music, performance, or written word. Your writing reflects the response of a favorite song. A performance where you stand and clap. A piece of art that takes your breath away. Never discount what you do as simply fan fic. It is so much more than that. You delve into the depths of each character and give them a voice. So thank you. I am but a humble reader. I don’t pretend to be an expert on this but when you can escape the real world for an hour and be somewhere else to me that tells me you have accomplished far more than you give yourself credit for. You put yourself out there. Not to be judged by us. But to see if you have an impact and I believe you do. Whether it’s a hobby, an escape or a full time job I thank you once more. Never stop. You were born to do it. Some people spend their whole lives wondering if they are good at anything. Please don’t stop the music.

Long story short. I feel in love with Clexa because of the fic writers. My favorite scene would be from some of my favorite writers. @mswarrior @kendrene @raedmagdon @bitterbones87 @sassymajesty @n1ghtwr1ter @commanderlexaofthegrounders @jlaw1105 @sheis-me @thessclexa @effortlesslyopulent @orangeyouglad8 @bdasswarrior @theevangelion @mcwithaminthetardis @blackindiaink @thepaperdollsseries

Stable?!?! Horses? Goats? Chickens? I am jealous. Your cats name is amazing! Also sounds like a neat coffee shop. Yes it was one of those “what am I going to name my cat, tomato? I don’t even like tomatoes.” And it stuck. But she is also called potato and dumb dumb. When she head butts and purrs we refer to it as her giving us sauce. I know, lame. As for your second ask. Hmmmmm what do I do when I’m sad 🤔. Well I know that I am loved by the people around me but sometimes thinking about that doesn’t get me out of a rut. I also know that I have all I could ask for and am striving for the things I want, a house, kids, successful career. When focusing on all that doesn’t help I take a step back and try to get through the day because I know tomorrow could bring more of the same but it will be just the smallest bit better. I grew up understanding that there are ups and downs in life. But the ups wouldn’t be so amazing if I didn’t have anything to climb from. If that makes any sense. Also, did I go to deep or too shallow with that answer? Are you bored yet? Is this post too long? Ohhhhhh I forgot. I will snuggle with one of my cats and that ALWAYS helps.

Yes it is beautiful here when it’s all dressed up. As far as traditions, hmmm.... I buy a new Santa hat every year and am usually the only one who wears it. When we put up the tree we call it “back to nature time” for my cat Tomato. Ohhhhh also, this year we are trying to watch a Christmas themed movie every night. There are very bad ones out there. Like if Lifetime and Hallmark has a baby then you get A Christmas Prince. The WORST movie I have ever seen. And I have watched a lot of B movies. What about your Christmas traditions?

Thank you!!! I’m in the big apple and it is freezing today. I hope you also have a wonderful Sunday.