Living with crps for over 7 years and just being able to do the bare minimum to get thru the day my house has suffered . It no longer feels like a home and I do not want anyone to come over . I used to interior design I loved moving furniture around changing the energy flow in my home Fresh flowers candles were always an important staples of my home having being bipolar and diagnosed OCD with cleaning was my superpower my home was my pride and joy and immaculate and organised inside and out my illness no matter the hardship the outcomes gave me joy and I loved having people over entertaining NOW I hide in my room as I can’t see or deal with the mess or the clutter it’s killing me I’m drowning in it when my pain is lower my ocd kicks in and I get so angry I want to kill people (not literally ) but when your home isn’t immaculate then people tend to leave plates in the sink on the bench ect no one tidies after themselves when my pain is high I don’t pay it a thought as much I avoid triggers since my RFN and last procedures my pain is lower I’m seeing everything which then raises my pain levels and I want to fix it I got some help in but physically my body just can’t keep up with my mind I get manic and push boundaries that never end well being in covid lockdowns for months now hasn’t helped I have so much stuff I have to sell or get rid of the clutter and the need for my house to be a home and allow people in again is consuming me I want to scream so loud but i know it won’t help I’m so overwhelmed confused with what I want and where to start it’s flaring my crps . I need help that I know but who I need help from where to go who to ask where to start what to do I have no FFFFFFIIINNGGGG IDEA . All I know is I can’t live like this anymore . My kids can’t even bring people over and haven’t been able to since I’ve had crps SO MANY years lost !!!!!!!
Chronic pain problems •
