#clairegoesskating

OH MY GOSH IM SO SORRY LINK ME PLEASE

is it safe melted in the fridge for a few days? i mean i assume it is but i think ice cream is weird

not well enough haha, i was thinking as i wrote that i need to sleep better and be better about going to bed early etc i'm bad at sleeping patterns i just hate going to bed because usually i feel shit most of the day and then at like 1am i suddenly start feeling ok

nn, well no, there is a sad lack of lesbian teenagers written, particularly ones of color. Hrm. I need to go back to the pool and think some more.

I can try that. I mean, I'm usually the one that goes on about positivity and seeing the good in things and learning from experience and all. No one knows what the future, but our outlook affects a lot. Thanks :3

I know, but well, it really bothers me when I feel like I should have done something and I didn't and the reason I didn't feels like it fluctuates in validity and I can't fix things. If that makes sense.

i like the way it takes noir tropes and punches them squarely in the face to give shotaro the ending he needs and deserves, not the one he thinks he has to have. i like akiko slamming her way into the story and refusing to leave, because she is part of it, by virtue of trying to keep the fate of her father from her, and once she learns what happened, she still doesn't leave, because despite herself she cares about these assholes. i love shotaro, who struggles with loneliness and inferiority and grief and abandonment and self esteem. i love philip, who struggles with self-identity and humanity. i love ryu, who struggles with revenge, and the weight of the past, and with anger. i love akiko, who struggles with being too perfect to be real. i like the way it gives the sonozaki women ugly stories, unpleasant stories, important stories. i like the way shotaro and philip fit badly together and grow into one another. i like the story of sokichi being a really shitty father and still setting shotaro and philip up to be heroes. i like ryu learning to live again. i love wakana's character arc, where her agency is stolen from her again and again until she takes it back in the form of her own sacrifice. i love saeko being a legitimately terrible person, and how her arc and shotaro's mirror each other as children trying to live up to the ideals of their fathers on opposite sides of the same conflict, though saeko has figured out nothing will ever be good enough to impress ryubee (and nothing will ever be good enough for ryubee, tbh) and shotaro thinks that no matter what he does, nothing will be good enough for sokichi's ghost, even though he already is. i like the way the show uses noir as a backdrop and then completely subverts what noir values because those things are unrealistic and impossible, especially for a man like shotaro. i like the humor and the monsters and the side characters. i like everything.

(btw add me on goodreads http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/930246-tombom-p )