Smile at Challenges
I find myself still acting like a child in so many situations, I want things when I want them and I want them now. Fortunately the woman in myself can control my childish rage for the most part. Being in this wonderful new relationship, with the boy of my past and the Man of my future and for how happy I am you would think that I would know how to act different, better, smarter; something; anything! Yet here I sit, crushed about my actions. My personality is so feisty, wild and has few fucks to give. I’ve been a “single” woman most of my adult life. Finding great power in myself by not being influenced by “my relationship” that was all the child in me really thought I needed. Being super content in life, being a wild spirit and wildly in love with everything and everyone, knowing that our time would be our time. The future to me always looked like me, with my one or two wonderful, wild children. For the longest time all I wanted was me, selfish I know. But I have found out who I am, and still hide from it. Learning to be in a relationship is more of a challenge than I ever expected. Ha, but the thought of that does nothing but bring a smile to my face. I love the challenges we create for each other but even more I love the way we connect after the challenges **In all ways if you know what i’m saying?!*wink**
The Lesson here for me today is, is that we will all, always have to grow up and over come our own personal challenges. Mine is trying to take a calmer approach to most everything. I some times pick on my Mr. Man and that is so not ok (i guess) sometimes it is funny, but it hurts his feelings. I give fucks, I do; just not always in the right ways. I’m not sure how it is for you dear reader, but just when I think i’m all grown up.. I find another childish challenge to overcome.
