#chaoticmonki

Ok so I GENUINELY didn't see any of that shit back then. Like I didn't keep up with the stuff surrounding him on tumblr? Is there MORE he didn't mention? :// obviously I'm no longer a fan in light of him admitting what he did and seeing Chey and one of his other victims speak up.

I got you my guy, I got you. 

So I’m just legit gonna copy and paste cause I made this post back then so I won’t have to type it all out again:

Cry has hurt a lot of people. Back in the day, he would flirt with MULTIPLE people, ranging from 16 year old girls in the tag, to his best friend’s girlfriend, and literally ANYBODY.

Cry also flirted and interacted with a few girls he “felt sorry for”. Like legit, I won’t drop names, but one of my friends that used to be close to Cry told me he only play flirted with another friend of mine because HE FELT SORRY FOR HER. He said that he “Thought she was lonely and gave her something to do”. With one of those cases (where he flirted with girls that he felt sorry for) that person doesn’t even like the thought of Cry anymore BECAUSE of that. 

Another girl, who was 16 at the time, told him to get some sleep because there was a 24 hour stream and to take a bath and unwind. His response? “I swear, I think you’re coming onto me at some points~”.  HE SAID THAT TO A 16 YEAR OLD GIRL?? Literally because she told him to rest and unwind after a long stream.

Also, back then, he was talking and flirting with a mod who was under the age of 18. Of course, when he found out they was under 18, he said he wouldn’t want to talk to them again, but, of course, he didn’t stay away.

One old artist from the fandom can’t even think about Cry because they literally, LITERALLY have panic attacks. They cut ties with Cry and blocked all sorts of contact because of what happened between them.

Also the fact is Cheyenne was 16 years old when they got together. Why would a 22/23 year old be with a 16 year old????

Past mods have said “Don’t talk to me about that man, I don’t need him in my life again”. Past crew members have been wronged by him. Fans aren’t the only ones that have been hurt. Cry’s been a bad guy and nobody believes it because the wool is over their eyes.

Like legit, he’s done so much more and there have been allegations of so much more. This is just the most I know.

Like dont get me wrong, I love both to the moon and back, and will continue to support them both as much as I can.. but something about it just puts me off a bit?

I have a feeling it has to due with the fact I don't know why Dream and Cry ended up becoming so similar? Was there some sort of influence on one of their parts? I mean crys twitter name is CryWasTaken, is this some sort of really odd coincidence or something? And they both have little blobby like creatures around too. It's just so weird to me how similar the two are.

And in a way even how they 'started' is the same. Of course not compleatly but some of the things that tipped people off onto liking each person are quite similar. They both had a male friend who screams alot who they did videos with. Aka GeorgeNotFound and Pewdiepie. And them and this friend ended up geting shipped together and did fan service together.

So Dream could run

like most that is, or was, in the fanbase, i... admittedly have been such a huge fan of cry for years, been watching his videos since 2011/2012. 

when i say that i’m devastated, i actually am. not to the extent of his victims, but as someone who found comfort in his channel, who supported him for so long... it hurts.

his recent upload in his youtube channel absolutely caught me off guard.

the first time i watched it, i was too sleepy to even comprehend the words he was saying and actually thanked him for being open to us, his viewers, about the topic. because, oF cOurSe, to me, it was cryaotic, the one who could do no wrong.

to me, it was cry, whom i found comfort in. who was one of the people i drew strength from to accept myself for my sexual identity.

it changed when earlier this morning, i watched it again, and finally finally understood.

and i was absolutely disgusted. took down my comment.

i’ve loved his videos since elementary school, and had the BIGGEST admiration for him. my most favorite Youtuber and gamer, literally the only one i stuck with. i had so much love and admiration for him, so hearing this? seeing all the tweets and comments and knowing how young i was watching his videos and adoring him so much? 

i just feel so weird and disgusted and actually sick to my stomach when i realized the gravity of the actions he’s did, even if it is online. online or not, these are real people who suffer from real damages.

every bit of me is saying “you grew up idolizing him, it’s difficult being presented with a new fact that completely destroys your perception of who you thought cry would be.”

nine-year-old me was so entranced by his voice and his personality and his laugh and was really convinced that this has to be the most gentlemanly, kind-hearted, big brother-esque person ever, for years and suddenly slapped in the face with cruel reality that cryaotic was not.

cryaotic deadass admitted to cheating on his underaged girlfriend by being in relations with minors-- doesn’t matter if it’s online, it’s still grooming. it’s not an excuse that you weren't aware of them being minors, it’s your responsibility to know.

you do not groom someone because you have “low-self esteem”, it doesn’t happen bc you’re “immature”.

grooming a child isn’t a mistake, it’s a crime.

i’m absolutely dumbfounded at the amount of people that think this is forgivable and coddling him in the comment section.

i grew up watching his videos, actually idolized the man.

you don't have the right to "forgive" him unless you were one of the victims.

big part of my childhood or not, he has to be held accountable for his crime.

miss me with that "he sounds regretful" bullshit, ever heard of voice acting?

"he at least came forward about it." in that video, he didn’t give the full truth about the situation. lying by omission is still lying.

he gave a half-assed apology video that was four minutes long.

seeing all those people defending him and excusing his behaviour is just as disgusting. stop this blind love and adoration you have for him. he groomed underage fans, used his position in youtube to manipulate and mentally abuse them. you people can’t just sit there and be like “dOnt wOrrY wE fOrGive You” or “wOw yoU’re sOooOOo bRaVe FoR teLLinG uS tHiS.”

because he’s not brave.

he’s doing the bare fucking minimum of admitting his wrongs.

...could you even call it admitting? he mentioned it like once in the video, and then proceeded to give out excuses.

the ones who are actually brave? the girls he manipulated and hurt. they’re the real brave ones. 

what he did was horrible and disgusting, he needs to be held fucking accountable for his crime. understand what he did and understand just how fucking terrible it was. he. needs. to. be. held. accountable. stop blindly defending and forgiving him.

yes, cry got me through literally the toughest years of my life. and as a fan [ex-fan], the worst part of this whole situation is feeling conflicted, because as many good memories i have of him, all of that is tainted now. i've been watching him for around eight years at this point and i was YOUNG when i started watching him. of course this hurts for everyone, but not as much as it does for his victims.

the only way anyone could convince me that he's changed is that if he takes action and turns himself in.

After the whole Cryaotic situation died down, I feel like it’s now my time for me to release everything I felt during it. I waited so long to explicitly reveal these emotions and opinions so I could be rational. 

First off, let’s get some context. Cryaotic, AKA ChaoticMonki, is a let’s player on Youtube and Twitch. He has millions of subscribers with his popularity peaking during the mid 2010s. He typically streams weekly with his group, The Late Night Crew. 

About a month ago, his most recent video became alarming for his fandom after someone accuses him of grooming her. He confessed to cheating on his ex-girlfriend with underage girls; he had a manic tone in his voice while speaking in the short video. 

After the release of the video, more people came out from either being manipulated or groomed by him. Friends start to turn on him due to the difference of morality and the hurt from betrayal. 

Now back to my thoughts!

Honestly, I just feel betrayed. He played a big role in my childhood, and that came crashing down as soon as he released the video. I began questioning anyone or anything I looked up to. I gave him the benefit of the doubt, but that only lasted a couple seconds. 

What he did was inexcusable. His ex-girlfriend, someone who I’m not a big fan of, doesn’t deserve that. Her actions confuses me with all the things that are on the internet about her. Yet it is clear that she was manipulated by him one way or another. Also, what makes it worse that there are multiple victims to this mess. Having one, while it isn’t great, is better than multiple people coming out of the manipulation before they were of legal age. 

The worst is his friend he betrayed. The guy has gone through shit and had to deal with it to survive. He’s stuck in a predicament in deciding on pride or survival. I feel like, other than the victims, he has been hit the worst from the mess. 

watched his shitty “manic apology”video, what the fuck. couldn’t even get through his unlisted stream video of him crying about all his wrong doings and that he’s changed or wants to change or whatever. what the absolute fuck. and I haven’t even seen Russ’ stream explaining his side of it all. ffs.

2020 is pulling all the monsters out of the woodworks.