#changbin ff

The weekend was nearing its end on Monday. You had to go back to Changbin’s and face the embarrassment again. On friday you had called in sick and before Changbin could ask any questions about you or the situation you hung up. You felt bad letting Eunyeong down by, for her, randomly not showing up. But even a kid would know that you can’t help being sick. Both you and Changbin did everything in your power to keep Eunyeong away from the negative situation, which meant you had to go back to normal. But how could you? You had stood there face to face with Changbin and told him that you love both of them, at the same time as he had found out that you were living in your car. 

You had to change your parking spots as you were afraid Changbin might see you in the supermarket again. A part of you wanted to call in sick again for this upcoming work week, but it wouldn’t be worth it. You knew you weren’t coming in for the money anymore, it was about Eunyeong. If it kept on for too long she would soon understand that you weren’t coming back at all. Changbin never mentioned Eunyeong’s mother and where she was, in the house there were no pictures of her and Eunyeong never talked about her either. But what she did mention was that she wasn’t outside a lot, and if she wasn’t in school she felt really lonely. Something inside of you related to that feeling of hers, she had you and you had her. 

Would it really be so bad to go back? Maybe Changbin could look past it, he had tried texting you but you still refused to read any of them. Your mind was filled with messages that didn’t exist, imaginations of what there could be in those messages. Maybe he already fired you over text? Should you really be coming back then? Or was it worth a try to go? 

A part of you wanted to approach Changbin about this. Just tell him everything and explain why things had become how they were. You never doubted that he would understand, in fact, he would probably understand better than anyone else right now. But the embarrassment always took over, and with Eunyeong around you just always seemed to forget about the bad stuff for a while. And now that you had also admitted that you loved him along with Eunyeong, then what more could you do? Feeling like this for someone who also was your employer wasn’t at all right, but deep in your memories you remember what he had said as well. 

“I shouldn’t be feeling like that for you as you help my daughter every day“

Did he really mean it in the way that you had too? Was all of it real? And what did he think of you now? What if running out ruined everything? There were so many questions and you could have your answers if you went back, but you couldn’t. 

Back in his home Changbin felt the same. He didn’t know what to do. His feelings never changed, in fact he longed even more to bring you into his home and make you feel safe. But something right now felt impossible to him. He kept wondering what had happened to you that made you so closed in, who put you in that position? 

“I can’t let someone in again, because he put me in that situation”

The sentence replayed in his head multiple times, wh was this “he” that you were talking about? 

Monday came too fast, here you were once again parked in the same supermarket parking lot, not ready at all but having to drive over to Eunyeong’s school again to pick her up. If you didn’t start driving soon you would end up being late but both your breathing and shaky hands were difficult to control. It was nothing to be nervous about right now. Eunyeong knows nothing about your situation and you could easily be out before Changbin came home. Or all you would have to do was say hi and then go, as you did in the start. 

Or so you thought. The drive with Eunyeong was as it always was, you discussed what she did at school, she showed you a drawing she made and of course asked why you didn’t come see her during Friday even if she knew you were sick. She was mostly curious about how sick you were, but one excuse was done and Eunyeong had already let it pass. When you drove up the familiar driveway your usual spot wasn’t there, because Changbin’s car was already here. Which made Eunyeong ecstatic to see that her dad was home already but you couldn’t move. Your body froze and your ears had closed out Eunyeong’s happy squeals and questions to why you weren’t moving or unlocking the door. 

“Huh what?” you said as you snapped out. Looking to your right and seeing Eunyeong’s confused face. 

“I think my dad is home! See! It’s his car!” she said while pointing to the black SUV in front of you. “Let’s go inside! He is never home now!” she continued while pulling at the car door. 

“Yes… yes Eunyeong we will wait a second” you answered while unbuckling your belt and hers. She was barely out of the seat yet and her first instinct was to open the door and not unbuckle first. 

You understood Eunyeong right now, and she was the most important part of this job. If she says go inside you obviously have to go inside. Even if he was in there waiting for the two of you. Because you knew that this wasn’t a coincidence that he was suddenly home from his work on the first day of this week, the first day you are back from the weekend. After not seeing each other for three days now, you knew that he had probably planned this himself. While unlocking the car door Eunyeong basically flew out the door and ran up the driveway. You followed close behind while trying to control your breathing, it would all be fine and you tried your best to convince yourself that he wouldn’t be mad about this. Even if it was difficult, go in there for Eunyeong and Eunyeong only. Yet your heart was telling you it was also for someone else. 

Your shaky hands slowly went up to unlock the door and once again Eunyeong was already way past you and inside in an instant. And it was like Changbin appeared at the door as soon as it was unlocked, making your breath hitched at the sight of him again. 

“Daaaad!” Eunyeong yelled as she ran inside, shoes and jacket still on, as she jumped into his arms. The sight made your nervous heart disappear, it was warming you a lot that Eunyeong got to see her dad as soon as she came home. Even if it bothered you that he was probably here to talk to you, you couldn’t let your own feelings go over her’s. 

“Hi Yeongie, had a good day at school?” he answered while helping her take off her jacket and shoes, not paying any attention to you so far. 

“Yes! Today I raised my hand and the answer was right! I’m so smart!” she said, having even more energy than she’s ever had before. You could tell it wasn’t often that she got to see her dad immediately after school and tell him what happened. So all you could do was admire the sight as you undressed as well. 

“That you are! Why don’t you run up and wash your hands and then we have a snack in the backyard?” he asked her, making her jump up and down. 

“Really?! Y/N! I get to play in the back!” she turned around and ran up to you, making you smile and giggle with her. 

“I heard! Go wash up quickly then so we can play more?” she only nodded at you and immediately took off upstairs, almost like she could fly as her tiny body disappeared. 

Only silence was left between you and Changbin. You didn’t know where to look as you stood in the narrow hallway with him, it was either looking at him or the roof. So you tried looking at anything but him. But it was also impossible. His eyes were actively searching for yours while yours were doing their best to avoid his. Someone had to say something, but you didn’t know what to start with. You could either address it immediately or pretend like nothing had happened the last time you were here. 

Like he hadn’t seen you at your worst and broken down the last time he looked into your eyes. 

“Y/N, would you please look at me?” he suddenly said, starling you while you closed your eyes out of frustration. 

Your gaze fell down instead as you felt the stress making your eyes water. This was not gonna happen again, you did your best to blink the tears away but nothing could make you look up at him. So instead he had taken the step and walked closer to you. He didn’t do anything, he started by just standing close to you. Then eventually moved his hands up to your shoulders, trying to get you to look at him again. 

“Y/N we don’t have to talk about it now, just please let’s get through this day. I don’t wanna make you uncomfortable, so let’s wait until Eunyeong is asleep and we can talk then. But right now you don’t have to think about it. Just see this as a normal work day” he said, his head close to yours but still not looking at each other. His words took you by surprise, making you slowly raise your head. Hands quickly drying the tears stained on your cheeks. “Please?” he said now that you were looking at each other. And with no words you nodded at his question, making him give you that pretty smile he has always had. 

“Dad! Y/N! I’m done now, let’s eat!” Eunyeong said while running down the stairs, interrupting the two in the hallway. 

Both of them took a deep breath together while moving on with the day as usual. Eunyeong got her snack which consisted of a sandwich and some fruit, yet she seemed more focused on the backyard as she grabbed the snack and immediately ran towards the glass sliding doors at the back of the living room. Nothing in the moment seemed bad between you and Changbin, probably because the moment of Eunyeong being happy took over and it was all the two of you could think about. You could see that this moment meant a lot to Eunyeong, not only because Changbin was home today but because you were here with them. You didn’t know that yourself, but both Changbin and Eunyeong knew that this was more special because you were here with them. And they didn’t wanna change anything about it. 

Eunyeong had fallen asleep in your arms, all her energy was drained from playing outside and her dinner definitely played a part in this too since Changbin had made some meatballs and pasta for her, her favorite. Putting her in her pajamas you tucked her in as usual and as always took in the warm feeling of seeing her once again. Slowly closing the door, trying your best to not wake her up. Changbin was waiting downstairs and you knew this conversation would end up happening at some point now. You just wished you could run away from it. 

As you reached the bottom of the stairs Changbin was already sitting on the couch with two cups of tea in front of him. You tried making yourself as ready as you could be for this conversation, letting your feet drag you into the living room and join Changbin on the couch. You sat on the one in front of him just like you did during your interview and let the heat from the cup spread between your hands. It was just as quiet as before, but now you felt like you could look at him. Now and then hiding behind the cup as you take a sip of your tea. 

“Do you wanna start or should…?” you asked nervously, trying to just get this over with somehow. 

“I just…” he starts, not really knowing where and how he should put it. So you just stay quiet until he knows what to say. “I wondered where I went wrong. Did I push you too far or did I make you uncomfortable?” 

“No, no why would you say that-” 

“Because I felt like I could’ve made you open up more, or maybe if you were more comfortable you would’ve told me…” you could see where this was going, and it wasn’t what you had intended for this to turn into. He was blaming himself. And you understood where he was coming from, because he was never supposed to find out the way that he did.

In the end you had never really planned for him to find out at all, because you never expected for yourself to feel the way you felt about him. His drive to keep you safe, letting you stay here if it was late at night, seeing you as a good nanny for Eunyeong, just seeing you and who you were as a person, everything that he did for you made your heart skip beats that you hadn’t felt before. That the void your ex left in you that led you to being homeless was being filled by someone who wanted to keep you around and never let you go, he happened to be someone who employed you. And now he was blaming himself for what someone else did to you. 

“Changbin please… just listen” you said, looking at him with desperate but sad eyes. And with that he kept quiet, fiddling with his hands, now he was just as nervous as you had been before. “You don’t have to blame yourself at all. None of this is on you and I never really planned for this to even get out. I just needed a job and for you to employ me on such short notice I have never been so grateful in my entire life. But you and Eunyeong have been so lovely towards me that this didn’t feel like a job anymore. You both make me forget that I have a miserable lifestyle outside of this that it never really crossed my mind to tell you. But whenever you asked me to stay here I felt nervous because not only is this your home I’m also…” towards the end you wondered if you should bring up the end of your last conversation. But maybe it was too early… “Embarrassed” you answered instead, which wasn’t a lie either. 

“You know… Eunyeong doesn’t know that much about her mother. It’s been difficult managing everything because it keeps feeling like I let my daughter down” he starts, making you nervous about what actually happened before you came here. “Eunyeong’s mother decided she couldn’t handle the responsibility so she left a little before Eunyeong had her first birthday. Since then I’ve done everything I can to make sure that she has it well and I never knew what the missing piece was… until you showed up. I never asked for you to be her mother, never would I put that on you. But you became someone who saw her and I’ve never admired someone as much as I admire you Y/N” he continued, your heart skipping a beat at how he never forgot to mention that you were special to him. 

You didn’t understand how someone could just leave on them, you weren’t a mother yourself so of course everyone had their reasons. But these two were the best thing that had happened to you and if anything, you only wanted them to stay in your life forever. Yet Changbin wasn’t done, as you didn’t know what to say either, he wasn’t done making sure that you knew how he felt for you. 

“Is it so difficult for you to believe that I do wanna keep you safe? Not only as Eunyeong’s nanny but also as someone I’m interested in?” he asked, making your eyes go big from his sudden confession. “Y/N I know that this is probably very unprofessional of me to say, simply because I employed you. But I also wanna be honest and say that I find you so interesting, and I really wanna get to know you more outside of this. I don’t care if you live in your car, because the only thing I see and think about is the person right in front of me now” he continued, making your eyes water a little bit from his sweet words. “You take such good care of Eunyeong and I’m so grateful that I found you. Not only because of this job, also because I see you, I really do. And I want you to know that when I ask you to stay here it’s because I care, not because I feel sorry for you or feel like you’re any less than anyone. I know that you can work hard on your own, but you work so hard that you don’t see the damage you do to yourself. If someone walks past your car they could easily smash your windows and hurt you and I…” he pauses, not wanting to finish his sentence as he thinks of something. “I don’t know what I would do if you got hurt living like that” 

Right now you can't keep your emotions inside anymore. To think that someone cared for you so much that even the thought of you getting hurt was hurting him, and to think that someone just wanted you to be safe, what a feeling that was. And right now you could only express it through tears, because you didn’t know where to go at all. Changbin reacted immediately as he saw your panicked tear stained face. He was quickly by your side and taking the cup into his hands to place on the table. He placed his hands on either side of your shoulders and like a perfect puzzle piece he brought you into a much needed hug. 

However long you needed he let you cry into his shoulders, tightening his hug around you as he could feel your panicked shaking body. One hand was going up and down your back and he himself wanted to cry as he couldn’t imagine what was going through your head right now. That you must be very overwhelmed and panicked from all of this and all he could do was hug you. 

“Y/N you always have a home here okay? I don’t want you to doubt that, okay?” he asked, not expecting an answer. But against his shoulder he could feel a small nod as your hand gripped the side of his shirt. And that was more than enough of an answer for him.

The next day you woke up in a comfortable bed. A bed that certainly wasn’t yours, but you quickly realized that you were still at Changbin’s place. Checking the time it was in the middle of the day, which made you shoot up and fly out the bedroom door. You had to pick Eunyeong up in an hour yet you were still here and not even properly dressed. When the door opened you were immediately met with Changbin sitting on the couch, same as yesterday. Looking to the couch on the right you saw a pillow and a blanket folded, making you realize he slept out here and you had taken the bed. 

He must’ve seen you puzzle everything together since he quickly walked up to you and stood in the way of you seeing the living room. 

“I know what you’re thinking, and you fell asleep on the couch first. I put you on the bed, it was my decision. So please don’t feel bad about it. I didn’t wanna change your clothes since you were still sleeping but I was gonna start some lunch soon, so feel free to find something of mine to use, okay?” Just like yesterday he ended his sentence with an okay, just to see if you were both okay with the situation but also to not make you doubt his words. He was making sure that you understood that none of this was any pressure and it was all his decision, so nothing was wrong from your side. 

“Okay… but what about Eunyeong? I have to pick her up” 

“Oh it’s all good, I arranged for her to go home with a friend she has in the neighbourhood. Before I thought about having a nanny for her they used to go home together a lot. But I had to hire a nanny because Eunyeong didn’t really like going to their house. So for her request I changed it up, so now it should be fine since she’s coming straight home” 

With everything sorted he explained that you would still be paid for this day, even if money was the least you could think about right now. But he explained that he had to go back to work later in the evening for a few hours so you needed to do your usual routine with Eunyeong. 

While in Changbin’s room again you felt bad to use his clothes, but his “okay” method was working as you also would feel bad to keep using your own now. Since you had actually agreed with him. It somehow made you smile, that he had found his way to make you trust him but also be okay with everything that was happening. So you just grabbed a pair of grey sweatpants and a simple black shirt. When you walked back out again the smell of food met your nose and it almost felt like a home should feel like. 

As Changbin finished up cooking some lunch he looked around and suddenly saw you. And even if your eyes couldn’t read his, there were a million compliments running through his mind right now. To see you make yourself at home in his house, it made him feel a lot of different feelings and his heart was beating rapidly. 

“It smells nice” you said as you leaned against the dinner table. 

He answered with his usual cute smile and plated everything up. You could tell that something inside of him was so happy right now that he got you to use his clothes and let you cook for him. The lunch though had become rather quiet, maybe because you took it slow. Nothing had happened between the two of you, but some type of intimacy was growing. None of you were in denial of what you felt for each other, but it was difficult for both of you to take that next step and confess something more. Changbin had already but you didn’t know how to respond to it. You didn’t want him to feel used for his home, you still only had your car. 

Then suddenly the door opened and Eunyeong was home from school, bringing you both back to the reality of employer and the employed.

Changbin had promised to be back quickly from work, he still wanted to talk about yesterday’s topics but also explore what you two had even more. Eunyeong had been ecstatic to see that you were already at their house and wanted the two of you to start playing immediately. But just like yesterday she fell asleep as all the playing and jumping was tiring her out a lot. So after a quick dinner Eunyeong was soon in bed, leaving you with a quiet home. Changbin had requested you to start using both the TV and his books more as his shelves collected a lot of dust, so today you thought the TV could be worth a try. 

You tried your best to become even more comfortable in his home, but a part of you still stayed scared since you didn’t know how long this could last. You didn’t wanna use it as if you were staying permanently, you were still just working here. But at the same time Changbin seemed upset if you didn’t do that, so you tried as much as you could. 

A sudden ring on the doorbell startled you. Looking at the clock, Changbin would not be home until another 10 minutes, he had sent you a previous text saying he was gonna start driving from work soon which wasn’t too far away. But he also wouldn’t ring the bell if it was his own home. So who could be showing up at this hour? 

You approached the door slowly, trying to think about who it possibly could be. And when your hands unlocked the door and let it open, it definitely wasn’t who you expected it to be. 

“Minsu?!” your ex boyfriend. Not only your ex boyfriend but also the guy who put you in your car from the start. 

“Y/N finally, I’ve been trying to contact you” you didn’t know if he actually meant that, as he was blocked on every platform that he could be blocked on, including his phone number. 

“But how… why are you here?” you asked, panic rising as Eunyeong was upstairs and this was not even your home, so how did he find you? 

“Why are you here? That is my question. You don’t even live here?” and how did he even know that? 

“How do you even know I was here then?” 

“Oh you think just because you moved out I wouldn’t know? Your car is parked at the supermarket down the road, not difficult to figure out. Also those boxes in your car? You don’t even live here do you?” 

All of this was just creeping you out, how could he think that this behaviour was normal? Without answering you closed the door in his face, even with Eunyeong upstairs you thought about how slamming it on him would wake her up. And she would have to see an unfamiliar man at her doorstep. You heard him yell from outside and you never thought this nightmare would come back to you. You didn’t know why he was here or why you would even care. All you cared about was if he left soon. 

The door was locked and he kept yelling stuff through the door, you just kept his words outside of your head, hoping to fade away from this soon. And just like a knight in shining armour you heard another familiar voice outside, Changbin’s voice. 

“Excuse me, who are you?” you heard Changbin ask Minsu outside the door. 

“Minsu. Who are you?”

“I live here, why are you outside of here yelling and bothering my family?” 

Family. What a weird word, yet it felt so comforting and nice hearing Changbin call you that. Or maybe he didn’t wanna tell Minsu you were inside even if he already knew that. But it still puts a small smile on your face to think that Changbin included you in that word. 

“Family? Her?! Yeah sure that girl has never earned anything-”

“That girl has a name and if you don’t get off of my porch soon I will call the cops on you, so please leave” 

And with that there was nothing more to the conversation, indicating that Minsu had left already. As the front door opened, revealing a frustrated Changbin his eyes immediately saw yours peeking out from the kitchen. Making him drop his bag and throw his shoes off to run to you immediately and bring you in for a hug. 

“Hey, did he hurt you? How long has he been out there? Who was he?” all of his questions were filling your mind, but all you could do was try your best to feel safe in his arms. 

Trying to let the time pass you both made sure Minsu had left before you could sit down and talk. You promised him everything was fine but you had to tell him now why things were like they were, whether it was crushing you or not. You knew that you could trust Changbin with this information. So you sat him down at the dinner table to tell him everything. 

“Basically me and Minsu used to date. It was lovely and eventually he moved into my apartment with me. But the longer we lived together the more I saw his bad sides and he eventually decided to…” you started, not really wanting to say it out loud but you had to. Changbin could see it was difficult for you and took your hands into his. “He decided to put his hands on me. And with that he pulled some strings on my work, he somehow got me off my lease to the apartment and with that I had no income and nowhere to live. All because we fought a few times and he had enough, so he hit me. And I had to leave” you said, a single tear leaving your eye.

You weren’t crying because of what happened, it somehow felt good to finally tell someone what happened rather than pushing it away and try to forget about it. The tears came from the relief of finally being able to tell another person what you were going through. And he wasn’t judging you for anything. His thumb was stroking the back of your hand, trying his best to make you feel safe and comforted in his space. And you knew you were, you had not doubted anything at all. 

“Y/N I can’t imagine what all of this must’ve felt like for you. But knowing that he is out there and he knows you’re here. Please… stay here. I want you here with me” 

With me. Those words meant a lot to you. He wasn’t talking about Eunyeong or the work, he was only talking about the two of you. He stood up from his chair, not letting go of your hand and kneeled down in front of the chair you were sitting in. His hopeful eyes looking into your sad ones, you could see in his eyes that he meant everything he said to you, all he wanted was a yes. 

A part of you couldn’t keep your feelings in place anymore, you knew that you wanted to stay here with him. And the ways he wanted you to stay here too only made you even more sure that this was the right decision. But without answering with words you decided to let your feelings guide you instead, so you leaned down and let your lips close the distance between the two of you. He responded immediately, not hesitating to kiss back. Like this was something he had been waiting for forever. Your hands travelled up to the back of his head and his hands fell onto your waist as the two of you stood up, not breaking the kiss. 

It felt perfect, the two of you together just like it was meant to be. If he pulled back to catch his breath he closed the distance immediately after that. He never wanted his lips to leave yours, causing him to bring you in more and make it more heated. 

When you pulled away to catch your breath again your forehead fell on his, hearing his heavier breathing only made his words sound even more desperate. 

“Please Y/N, stay here. Be safe here with me” his hands were still keeping you close to him with a grip on your waist, and your hands brought him closer as they stayed on his neck. 

“Okay…” you whispered against his lips.

“Okay?” he whispered back as a smile formed on his lips. 

“Yeah, I wanna stay with you” you answered, making him kiss your lips again, and then your cheeks and your entire face, making you giggle. 

“You have no idea how long I’ve been waiting for you to say that. You’re safe here with me” he put his head in the crook of your neck and you could still feel his big smile against your shoulder. “I love you so much” 

And just like that you knew that when you went to get your car tomorrow, you didn’t have to go into the backseat to sleep anymore. But to go and pick Eunyeong up from school with Changbin as the three of you became a new family together. 

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It was well past midnight when you found yourself snuggled up next to your boyfriend in the stillness of the night. The world outside seemed to have surrendered to silence, with the moon casting a gentle glow through the curtains that wrapped everything in a serene aura...

At least, that’s how it felt to you as you lay on your side, feeling the warmth of your boyfriend’s strong arms nuzzled in the curves of your body to cradle you... Changbin, however, had a lot more on his mind than you did, and it wasn’t the usual work stress that kept him awake.

In fact, his restlessness had everything to do with you in this moment… the way you purred against his pillow, with your silk nightgown framing your breasts perfectly... even your occasional wiggling against the sheets was driving him wild...

And to make matters worse, the poor guy was doubt how much longer he could hold himself back from acting on the carnal urges bubbling inside him.

The bed was a mess of scattered pillows and fluffy blankets, with the extra layers only irking Changbin further on…

If things were ideal to your boyfriend's standards right now, he’d already have the both of you be completely naked on the mattress, bodies pressed together in a fit of nerves.

Though, to speak honestly, your boyfriend always had an impatient side, and it only became increasingly obvious as he started stirring behind you, seemingly incapable of finding comfort in the nest of white sheets.

“Keep still, baby,” you mumbled within your snooze, and Changbin’s heart could’ve sang choruses of relief at the feeling of your gentle voice vibrating through his chest.

“Sorry, ____… didn’t mean to wake you,” he lied, feeling himself get even hotter now that you had forced his arm back around you with his right hand falling precariously close to your tits, and it’s like favor landed straight into his lap…

Even though you had a tough day before finally getting to bed, you'd expect for Changbin to at least respect your precious moments of fleeting rest… right?

Wrong.

“Binnie, please quit squirming,” your voice came out all muffled again, but clearly more whiny as his movement persisted, and he’s just now realizing that he was softly grinding his bulge against your ass, massaging your boobs in his grasp—

“I’m tryinggg,” he huffed frustratedly, sounding a bit strained, but by time the sentence actually left his mouth, you had already drifted back to sleep again.

He pressed a kiss to your shoulder, feeling a bit hopeless since you weren’t responding to his usual affection. He couldn’t tell if you were doing it on purpose, but all he wanted was for his girlfriend to give him a little attention, even if just for a few minutes… that’s really all he needed...

“C’mon, princess, I just wanna fool around for a bit,” your boyfriend pouted, groaning into your ear as he kissed you there too, pressing against you a bit harder now, “Please baby, just for a little while… I don’t think I’ll get any sleep without it…”

And with that, he shamelessly groped your tits with more pressure now, squeezing them in the flesh of his meaty hand, thrilled that you weren’t wearing a bra, either...

The flesh of your breasts just fit into his hands perfectly, and he couldn’t help but invite his thumbs to toy with your sensitive nipples next, knowing your body would enjoy the extra attention, even if you were still asleep...

“Mmmm,” you moaned against the pillow, and he assumed that it was just a sleepy noise, but of course, he was wrong...

The sound you made turned him on so much that he sat up with just his upper body so he could lean over you.

And like a starved out man, he managed to wiggle one of your boobs from behind the silky night gown before latching his lips around your nipple and sucking it into his mouth, a soft sigh escaping your lips as you settled into his embrace.

“How can you possible be so enticing to me,” he groaned, briefly closing his eyes, “even while sleeping soundly…”

You were still wearing your bedtime eye mask once you felt the warm covers on the bed abandon your body, followed by your front being fused with the mattress as the weight of your boyfriend’s body rested behind you.

Weakly, you turned your head to face him, using a finger to lift your eye mask and take a peek at him from where you were.

But before you could really see him, he caught your wrists in one hand, lifting your arms above your head, only making you whine at the gentle yet firm way he held you down.

“Close your eyes, love,”he whispered, his other hand sliding your dress up over your curves, “don’t let me disturb your beauty rest…”

“But Binnie, I’m already awake now,” you said quietly, not even bothering to wrestle your hands from beneath his given how tired you were feeling, “I wanna see your face, baby…”

“Shhh, not another word, princess,” he went on, already having taken his pants down just enough to get his cock out, and gosh, did it seem bigger than ever tonight, “just let daddy fuck you back to dreamland…”

His cock was always on the thicker side granted, but it felt as if it had grown another inch in girth since the last time you took him, and although your eyes were covered, he was glad to finally set his eyes upon your glistening folds, barely sliding his tip between them before he had you moaning out his name.

As his desperation wore on, As his urgency built, Changbin finally pushed inside you. The initial tightness was intense, but once you lifted your hips to meet him, he sank all the way in, filling you up completely...

Leaning down to rest his head near yours, his lips trailed down to your temple and then to your cheek, leaving soft kisses in their wake as he rutted into you nice and slow.

Your sleepy eyes crinkled in satisfaction, and somehow, being blindfolded made everything feel even more intense.

“Binnie~” you murmured, your voice thick with drowsiness as his breath hitched, “g-go faster... p-please…”

You were surprised how close you felt to finishing even though he just started, a familiar fire swirling in your lower stomach the more and more he fucked his cock into your hole.

Squelching sounds filled the stillness of the room now, layered by the your frequent whimpers and his manly panting, too...

That’s one thing you always adored about your big, whiny boyfriend… his neediness and absolute obsession with being inside you at every chance he got.

“Aww, fuck,” he grunted, slamming his hips into you as you felt his tip brushing against your g-spot, making you writhe against the sheets.

You felt like he was practically fucking you in half at how fast he was going, and you’re surprised his hips even carried that much stamina given the hour of the night.

Sliding his free hand down, his fingers found your burning clit, rubbing it back and forth to which you simply cried out in pleasure.

And he could tell you were getting close just from the way your gummy walls pulsed around him, but even with your eye mask on, he could still see your beautiful face twist with ecstasy each and every time his juicy cock slammed into you.

“It’s okay, baby,” Changbin grunted breathlessly, his shaggy curls clinging to his forehead now given how much he was sweating, “you don’t have to wait… let it out for me…”

Letting your wrists go, his hands found your hips instead, gripping fiercely at your skin as he kept thrusting into your cunt with all his might.

Taking the place of his, you let your own fingers find your clit, rubbing it in the same way he did as your back arched beneath him, deepening the lengths in which his cock was already reaching inside you.

It didn’t take long for you to climax after that, either, and he almost immediately stopped the thrusting of his hips once you started whining into the pillows, not wanting to overstimulate you too much.

He hadn’t reached his own high yet, but he wanted to stay deep inside you regardless, letting himself lay down now as y'all returned to your initial spooning position.

“Hopefully that didn’t excite you to the point where you can't go back to sleep,” he smiled, kissing the crook of your neck before tugging the eye mask off your face, revealing your beautifully love-smitten features...

“Don't worry, baby... I actually feel a bit more relaxed after that,” you returned with a smile, happy in your heart that you could finally see your boyfriend's adorable face, both your gazes earnest and soft.

Holding you close to with his arms, he kissed the crook of your neck, nuzzling his face there before whispering through a smirk, “well, you can go back to sleep now, princess… promise I won’t disturb you again 'til morning…”

And with that, Changbin simply decided to cockwarm you for the rest of the night, hoping that by time the sun rose at dawn, you’d help him out by returning the favor…

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What better place to wear your strawberry frock than to a strawberry field with your boyfriend in his matching polo?

You two arrived at the strawberry field, it wasn't busy since it was only a weekday. There were a couple parents and their kids, teenage friend groups and a few couples like the two of you. A guide handed you both a basket and began telling you interesting facts about strawberries, how to grow the berries and how this field was founded. All interesting knowledge. When she was done she left you and Changbin to go pick some strawberries.

The fields were beautiful, red was literally everywhere you looked. It was your favorite colour. You felt like you were in heaven!

    “You look happy.” Changbin comments with a grin.

    “Because I am. I'm literally surrounded by my favorite fruit right now and I get to wear my strawberry dress in a field of strawberries with my favorite person in the world, how could I not be happy?” You sigh in content and grab your blushing boyfriend's muscular arm and start walking deeper into the field. “We have to get the most perfect strawberries.”

    “Yes ma'am.” He chuckles.

You were on a mission to find the prettiest strawberries ever. You inspected every strawberry carefully, and if you found it fit, you plucked it off the stem and threw it into the basket. Changbin was smiling at your antic while taking cute photos of you on his phone.

    “Binnie! Look how big this strawberry is!” You hold the strawberry up, your lips part and eyes are round with excitement. It almost the size of your palm, way bigger than the strawberries that would you typically buy at the store.

He quickly takes a shot of your expression. Changbin has a huge collection of photos of you, and he keeps adding more. He's like obsessed with you.

    “Is that the only one?”

You look shrug and look around you for a moment, “I don't see any more big ones nearby. Just small ones, itty bitty ones”

    “We're surrounded by cute little strawberries,” He takes note. Pause. “but they're not as cute as my strawberry.”

He smiles as he pinches your cheek. You pout and pull away, face already flushing. It was really nice day to be outside. The sun was shining brightly like it did in the summer. But it wasn't too hot. The sky above was really blue, a very pretty shade. If your favorite color hadn't been red then maybe you would have picked that shade of blue and deem it your favorite. There were hardly any clouds in the sky at this time. With happy smiles, baskets full of red berries and Changbin's photo gallery having new additions, you both make it to the end of the field.

There was a gift shop! You felt like you were in heaven again, surrounded by berry themed things. Everything was screaming at you to buy them. Oh but of course you couldn't buy whole shop, indeed you were a reasonable adult who spent their money wisely— well most of the time. You couldn't choose anything because they were all pretty well until your eyes fell on the jewelry stand and you knew what you wanted to get . You insist that you and Changbin got matching bracelets that had berry charms on them. Changbin couldn't say no to your cute face, however he wouldn't let you pay though. That's one of the only things he'd say no to you for. Changbin also got you a strawberry plushie even though you told him it was fine and that the bracelets were enough. Well you have a new plushie cuddled under your arm now.

You had your berries neatly packaged with a bow by the cashier and you two were ready to go home. You hold onto Changbin's arm with your free hand as you walk to the car. You place a soft kiss onto his bicep that was pushing out of the sleeves to his polo.

    “Thank you for the best date ever, Binnie. I had such a great time,” you say softly.

    “Glad you had a great time, Bunny.” He ruffles your hair.

This was going to be your most treasured date, well after the date he asked you to be his girlfriend of course. There's just something about summer and strawberries that make you want to smile.

    “We have so many strawberries now. Ooh, we could make jam! Oh and shortcake!” you list, happy tone like a child.

    “Whatever you want, Bunny.” He smiles.

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No matter how much food he ate, it never seemed to show on his body. There wasn’t a single part of his body that had excess fat covering the very visible bones. He could never grab a hold of any extra flesh on his body like some of his friends could.

As a teenager, he was always told that it was because he was a “growing boy”, and that he needed a lot of calories in order to grow big and strong. It wasn’t until he was in his early twenties that his stature began to change. He slowly became more muscular, thanks to his countless hours in the gym. Not only that, but he began to notice the faint gain of fat whenever he ate a lot without burning the calories. 

In a way, Changbin had always felt like he was blessed to be naturally slim. It was especially appreciated for someone in his line of work. Even after it became easier for him to gain fat, the company had never considered him “too heavy” for an idol. Muscle mass was a different story, however as time progressed, Changbin was able to build the perfect amount of muscle to satisfy the company as well as his fans. 

In short, Changbin had always liked his body. 

“Time’s up!” Doni called. “Put your markers down.”

Changbin didn’t put his marker down. Giggling like a small child, he avoided the attempts Jisung made at stealing the black marker from his hand, only stopping when the show host called him out on it. 

“Changbin’s naughty, he keeps cheating!” Coni laughed. 

This was what Changbin loved doing. Making a fool out of himself during variety shows, cheating during games with his members, and overall acting like a child whenever he could. 

“We should stop the show right here, Changbin ruined it for everyone.” Doni joked, and Changbin felt Jisung collapse on his back in a fit of laughter, nearly knocking them both off their stools and onto the ground. 

“Okay, let’s start with Felix! Show us your drawing,” Doni called, and Felix flipped the notebook he was holding in his hands around. 

The point of this segment was for the members to draw a portrait of how they perceive another member. 

The entire group as well as Doni, Coni, and a few of the staff members had burst out in laughter at the drawing Felix made of Jeongin. 

“Felix, you forgot eyebrows!” Jeongin whined from his spot. Changbin didn’t even notice the missing eyebrows; he was more focused on the teeth that were twice the size that they should have been. 

The segment continued on like that, and Changbin felt a swell of pride when the whole group laughed at his drawing of Minho, which looked so scrappy that a five year old could do better. Changbin was having fun.

It wasn’t until it was Jisung’s turn to share his drawing that his mood took a shift. 

“And this is my drawing of my lovely Changbinnie-hyung” Jisung giggled from his spot behind his muse. 

Changbin took in the piece of art before him. The hair was scraggly, the eyes were small, and the chin looked more like a “V” than a chin. 

Changbin laughed at the representation of himself. 

“Oh the chin! The chin!” Coni laughed as he made the shape of a “V” with his hands to mock the drawing. Changbin laughed. 

“That is the most accurate drawing so far!” Doni commented as he forcefully took Changbin’s face and traced the edges of his chin with his fingers. “Wow, Han is an artist!” Doni cracked as he high-fived Jisung. Changbin laughed. 

“He captured Changbin’s face so cleverly!” Coni praised, sitting back down on his stool. Changbin faked annoyance at the hosts and at his band mate. And then, he laughed once again. 

His brothers were practically howling at the scene, their voices creating a cacophony of sound ringing in Changbin’s ears. He was happy. He was laughing. So why did it feel as though his stomach was falling through the floor?

For the first time that day, Changbin had to forcefully plaster a smile on his face. He felt the bubbling feeling of embarrassment in his chest for the rest of the filming. 

A little while back, Han Jisung had been given a nickname by his fans. Less than a nickname, it was more of a cute comparison. His cheeks had always been unusually large and soft. Whenever he would eat, he would store food inside of them, making them more accentuated than they were before. It was because of this that fans had begun calling Jisung a squirrel. 

Jisung liked the connection. Contrary to how he presents himself, he had often struggled with accepting and liking his cheeks. He didn’t like the way they made him look younger and more boyish. He wanted to be perceived in a more mature and manly way. 

That was why when fans began to compliment and praise his chubby cheeks, it helped him become more confident in his face. 

Changbin had seen the improvement of Jisung’s spirit. Praise for Jisung’s cheeks from fans had helped him improve his self image a lot, and for that, Changbin’s love for his fans had only grown.

He only wished that he could experience the same reactions to his insecurities. 

Changbin wouldn’t consider himself jealous of Jisung’s full cheeks and round face. It was stupid to compare oneself to another person based off of superficial things like looks, however it didn’t stop Changbin from appreciating the younger boy’s unique features. 

The show aired on it’s planned date with no faults. Changbin watched the program on television, and was fairly proud of the results of the editing process. He had hoped that STAYs would enjoy the hour-long show.

After a few hours, Changbin opened Twitter so that he could get a sense of how his fans appreciated the show. Skimming through fans’ tweets, he noticed a few that stood out to him. 

Most of the comments were about Felix and Jisung’s aegyo, or Hyunjin’s random dance challenge. The deeper he scrolled, the more tweets he found about him. 

Normally, having a lot of tweets aimed at him would be an honour to Changbin. It usually meant that he was charismatic and funny enough to gain fans’ attention. That was why he didn’t understand the embarrassing feeling that came along with the jokes about his face structure. 

That’s all that they were. Jokes. People liked to joke about his chin, so why should he worry? Why did he feel shameful? 

Changbin’s stomach continued to drop with every comment he read about his face. Every time he saw that drawing of him, it was like another pin stabbing his chest. 

That night at dinner, everyone was talking about the show. The members were talking about the comments that they received, the fans reactions, and how they thought it was a really successful show. 

At one point during the meal, Jisung had shoved Changbin in the shoulder and laughed about the drawing that he made and how funny the fans thought it was. Changbin laughed. 

Changbin had always been able to hide his feelings well. Especially as an idol, hiding hardships is mandatory. Changbin was good at laughing. It was a sure fire way to make everybody think that you’re happy, when on the inside, it feels like you’ve swallowed a thousand bees. 

So that night, he laughed. He subjected himself to be the clown, even though it hurt him. Nobody needed to know about how he let his tears fall onto his pillow while they all slept. 

Changbin had thought about how he was working so hard to remain slim and skinny, and how if he were to gain just a little more weight, he could possibly make himself softer and cuter, like his brother Jisung. 

He figured that it was worth a try. Sure he might have to fight the company tooth and nail to gain the weight that he wants, but it was worth it. It was worth it to change how he looked. It was worth it to satisfy his fans. 

For the next few weeks, Changbin had let himself gain weight. He ate more and stopped trying so hard to burn it all off. He still worked out enough to remain healthy, and he was still trying to gain muscle, but whenever he stepped on the scale and saw that he was a pound or two heavier than he had previously been, he felt his heart swell. 

It was an odd thing to want to gain weight. Most idols would kill to be as skinny as Changbin had been, yet here Changbin was, trying to gain weight for the purpose of chubbier cheeks and softer edges. 

Eventually, it began to work. Changbin began to wake up in the morning to see that his face was rounder, fuller, and cuter than it had been before. The whole thing made him elated. 

It had gotten to the point where he was satisfied with his outer appearance. His chin was much less prominent. A less prominent chin meant that there was less for people to make their jokes out of. 

“Hannie, stop!” Chan shrieked just as Jisung smeared a fat glob of vanilla frosting on his cheek. 

All of the members were crowded in their living room, celebrating Bang Chan’s birthday with their fans. The energy level in the room was ecstatic. Some members were getting cake violently rubbed into their skin while others were trying to read comments and make the VLive as normal as possible. 

Changbin was in the middle of answering a question when he felt a tap on his shoulder from behind where he was sitting on the ground in front of the coffee table. Before he thought better of it, his head was turning and he was met with a face full of frosting from Minho. 

“Hey! Minho, get back here!” Changbin screamed, getting up to chase the nuisance around the room. 

Laughter filled the room and lit up Changbin’s heart. He thought that nothing could destroy his mood.

It wasn’t until the next day that Changbin had checked Twitter again. 

He scrolled through a lot of happy birthday wishes for Chan, which made him smile. He read a few of the messages, and saved the ones that he wanted to show to Chan. 

And then, he got to some posts about the live. Most of them were sweet and nice, there were some clips of various parts of the live including the moment that Changbin got his face full of cake. As he scrolled for longer and longer, he got to some comments that were less light-hearted. 

They didn’t like the weight he gained. Of course he noticed the comments from fans who had thought he looked healthier and happier, but no matter how many positive comments he saw, the posts from people calling him fat and saying that he was “letting himself go” were far stronger. The people calling him a pig and a fatass and ugly were too loud. 

Changbin didn’t understand. After everything he did to satisfy the fans, they still made negative comments about him. He once was too skinny, now he is too fat.

He knew that he shouldn’t listen to people who didn’t show their faces, yet to know that people were confidently calling him degrading names stung him deeply. He felt a hopeless feeling bloom inside of him, and it drove him mad. 

Changbin felt the first tear slip down the side of his face as the feeling of his chest collapsing took him over. His phone was thrown across his bedroom, the sound of a screen shattering as it hit the floor being the only identifiable noise in the room. 

He wanted to scream. There was no pleasing them. He hated himself. He hated the way that he looked. He hated himself when he was skinny, and he was beginning to hate himself now that he gained weight. But mostly, he hated the way that he was reacting.

This was the job, wasn’t it? None of this should be surprising to him. He had known about the malicious comments aimed at the other members for various reasons, so why was this so frustrating for him? 

Changbin fisted his hair to ground himself. He tried to count his breaths in his head, but all he heard was the comments ringing around in his ears. 

...He got fat...

...Has he stopped working out?...

Fucking breathe.

...He’s turning into a pig...

...Changbin’s face is so fat...

Letting out his first scream of frustration, Changbin shot up from his bed. If the fans wanted him to be skinnier, then fine. He would get skinnier. 

This was for the good of his career. Nobody liked an ugly idol, and if he is more attractive with a slim stature and a pointy chin, then he would work to achieve it. If he gained the weight, surely he could lose it again. 

The room was small, and it felt like it was getting smaller. 

Wiping the tears from his eyes, he threw open his bedroom door. Changbin grabbed his running shoes from the rack by the entrance, slipped them on, and took off from the dorm that felt like it was suffocating him. 

The night air was refreshing against Changbin’s burning skin as he sprinted down the street. Ten o’clock at night couldn’t be considered too late to go for a run, especially when the moon was shining so beautifully in the otherwise pitch-black sky. 

Changbin didn’t know where he was going, but he didn’t care. His lungs and legs were burning with the unexpected extortion. The sweatpants and t-shirt he was wearing didn’t make for good running clothes, but that didn’t matter to him. 

For a minute, he felt okay. He could even say that he felt good. For a minute, he had forgotten all about the fans and their vendetta against his happiness.

The wind had dried the tears off of his cheeks, and he just became another faceless person in the dark. Changbin didn’t think of himself as an idol, but rather a person who’s tight chest was slowly beginning to take in enough oxygen for his head to stop pounding. 

He didn’t know how long he ran for that night. His mind had cleared completely of thoughts, and he wore himself out. He didn’t even notice the warning signs of exhaustion before he was throwing up in a patch of shrubs. 

Slowly coming back to reality, Changbin realized he needed to get home. He wasn’t too far from the dorms, so once he gathered some strength back, he began walking. 

It was hard to tell how long it took him before he was trudging up the stairs and letting himself through the front door. He tried to be as quiet as possible.

The clock on the stove read 12:24. Changbin knew that if any of the members had realized he was gone, that he would be in a world of trouble. 

He took his running shoes off at the door and made his way to his and Felix’s room, expecting to see the younger boy playing video games or getting ready for bed. What he was not expecting was to see Felix sitting on Changbin’s own bed, frowning at the phone in his hands. 

Felix’s eyes darted up like a meerkat, relief flooding his features when Changbin entered the room.

“Where the fuck have you been!” Felix sighed, jumping up from the bed to pull the older boy into a hug, “I came out of the shower to see you were gone, you weren’t answering your damn phone, I was fucking worried you asshole!” 

Changbin repressed a smile as he pushed Felix away. “I’m fine, don’t worry.” 

Felix scanned Changbin, his eyes narrowing into suspicious slits. “Did you go for a run?” 

“Yeah,” Changbin answered.

“In... your sweats?” Felix fingered at the pockets of Changbin’s sweatpants, and the older boy swatted his fingers away. 

Changbin nodded and flopped down onto his bed. 

“Why didn’t you take your phone with you? I’ve been trying to call you,” Felix ran a hand through his hair, “Fucking hell,” he sighed. 

“I don’t know, Lixie.” As soon as Changbin’s head hit the pillows beneath him, he felt the exhaustion from his midnight run catch up to him. “You should watch your language, by the way.” he mumbled, cracking a small grin. 

“Changbin, seriously,” Felix climbed up beside him, “You’re fucking lucky! I was two seconds away from telling Chan, I swear to god.” 

Changbin looked up and saw the lines of genuine concern stretch across the boy’s face.

Felix had always been a caring person. He was always dependable, and he was really a true friend. It didn’t matter if Changbin was older, because he knew that Felix would always be there to protect him. 

Wordlessly, Changbin grabbed Felix by the arm and pulled him to lay down beside him. A fond smile graced his face. 

“Thank you for worrying,” Changbin whispered, “but I’m fine.”

Felix sighed. There was a beat of silence where Felix closed his eyes, and Changbin had started to think he fell asleep. But then, “Are you okay?” 

Changbin was stunned and confused for a second. “Yeah... why?” 

“You don’t usually go for runs. Especially not late at night.” Felix whispered. 

Changbin snaked an arm around Felix’s torso. “I was just having a bad day.” 

Felix was fidgeting slightly. It looked like he was fighting some sort of internal battle about whether or not he should say what he wanted to say. 

Changbin smiled at the nervousness. “What?” he encouraged. 

Felix’s gaze caught Changbin’s eyes. “Was it the comments? About your weight gain?” he asked in a small voice. 

Silence. There was no sound coming from anywhere in the dorm as Changbin processed the question. The smile that rested on his face immediately slipped away. 

“I... I saw them on Twitter, and they pissed me off, so...” Felix trailed off, lowering his gaze, “I mean you haven’t even gained that much...”

“I gained the weight on purpose,” Changbin said when he zoned back in on Felix.

“Oh...” Felix’s eyebrows furrowed in confusion, “Why? I mean, not that you don’t look good, but like... Why did you want to gain weight?” 

Changbin thought about why he wanted to gain weight. He thought about Jisung’s drawing, the “V” face comments, the constant embarrassment around his appearance, and his own insecurities. 

“It’s stupid.” Changbin dismissed, but of course, Felix kept digging. 

“It’s not stupid. It’s just me, you can tell me.” he eased. 

Changbin sighed. “You know... how people had been making jokes about my face? And my chin?” 

Felix nodded, confusion showing again. 

“I hated those comments.” he whispered. “I just got so insecure about my looks after people began to make those jokes, and I just... wanted to fix them.”

When Changbin looked at Felix, he saw that the confusion was still etched onto his features. “But...” Felix started, “you always laugh at those jokes.” 

Changbin felt like shit for unloading this onto Felix, yet he continued to explain. “I’m good at laughing.” 

The boys sat in silence for another minute. Felix seemed to be mulling over what he had been told, and Changbin watched the look of confusion melt into one of realization, and then sadness. 

“I’m so sorry,” Felix breathed, “I... I didn’t know you felt like that. I would have never made those jokes.”

Changbin felt his heart crack. Felix almost sounded heartbroken, and it killed Changbin inside. 

“But hyung...” Felix said, “you know that you don’t have to fix anything, right? You’re perfect. Don’t let them get to you.” 

Teardrops were threatening to fall from Changbin’s eyes for the second time that night, except instead of being born out of pain, these tears were brought on by the overwhelming feeling of being loved. 

“Okay...” was all Changbin could muster the strength to whisper. He didn’t trust his voice, so instead, he leaned forward and planted a soft kiss on his best friend’s forehead. 

“You know what, hyung?” 

Changbin hummed.

“I have dealt with so much hate because of so many things,” Felix sniffled away his own tears, “first they were upset because I wasn’t fluent in Korean, then they didn’t like my freckles, then it was my voice, and I thought that there was just no winning with them.” Felix closed his eyes. 

Changbin didn’t even think about that. If any member was no stranger to criticism from online fans, it would be Felix. 

The thought was crazy to Changbin. Why would anybody go out of their way to hurt somebody as sweet and perfect as Felix? The thought of somebody actually hating Felix for his mess of pretty freckles still amazed Changbin. 

“But you know what I realized?” Felix continued, snapping Changbin out of his own thoughts, “It’s not my job to please everyone.” 

“What do you mean, Lixie?” Changbin asked. 

Felix opened his eyes again, “Like... I’m doing music for me, right? If people don’t like the way that I look or who I am, then that’s their problem, not mine. Get it?” 

Changbin was amazed. 

“How are you so young and yet more wise than half of the industry?” Changbin saw the light in Felix’s eyes, and it made him smile, too.

“I mean it still hurts sometimes, but... less now.”

Changbin agreed. He couldn’t see how reading vicious comments like that could ever end up getting easier. 

“But now that I know you get comments and stuff that hurt you too, maybe we could... help each other. When it hurts a lot, you know?” 

“Like you mean... I come to you when it hurts, and you come to me?” Changbin asked. It made him feel special to know that Felix trusted him enough to want to go to him for comfort. It made him feel like he wasn’t the only one that got happiness out of their relationship. 

“Yeah, something like that,” he answered. 

Changbin’s smile returned full force. 

Felix was like sunshine, Changbin thought. This issue that seemed so horrible and painful to Changbin, now seems less than half as terrible since Felix was there for him. Since now, Felix was there to comfort him. 

He didn’t care if it made him weak or less of a man, because he didn’t feel like he had to be strong when he was with Felix. Felix had always been comfortable in his emotions, and Changbin admired that about him. 

“If you’re happy with the way that you look right now, you should keep it this way,” Felix encouraged him, “because for the record, I think you look better like this. You look happier.” 

“I am happier,” Changbin whispered. 

Shortly after that, the two boys fell asleep in Changbin’s bed, happy to have the support of their best friend. 

Although it was hard at first, Changbin slowly became more confident in himself and his appearance to not care about how other people wanted him to look. Even when he slipped up, Felix always caught him with a hug, a smile, and a shoulder for him to rest his head. 

For a while, Changbin had to fake his happiness during videos and variety shows. No matter how much he repressed it, the worry of how his fans would react to his appearance was always dangling in the back of his mind like an itch that he couldn’t scratch. 

But it got better. Changbin found himself worrying less and less about what his fans thought, and more about what he thought. Over time, he didn’t have to fake his happiness. The fans had even noticed how Changbin’s growing confidence affected him.