#cha writes

kidd rarely becomes sweet. he's so shy about it he mostly goes tsundere on you when you tease him about it. even during intimate times, kidd always go rough, far from sweet. but not enough to hurt you though. you'll always have bruises and hand and bite marks across the surface of your skin each time you two finish. he's always proud of it, not that you mind it anyways. as a matter of fact, you love it.

so it baffled you, froze up your nerves from head to toe as kidd latched onto you with the sole need of warmth and cuddles in the middle of the day.

it happened one sunny afternoon, the heat was slowly becoming unbearable as the clock approached three. you were in the middle of a conversation with one of the girls since kidd and the boys went out for a drink. yes, they do this often in the middle of the day.

it didn't occur to you that they had already returned, not before kidd crashed by the couch and grumbled on your skin as he pulled you closer in an abruptly it elicited a squeal from you, cutting you off midsentence.

"missed you." he mumbled on your skin, almost sounding unintelligible as he slurred from the liquor that wafted from his mouth. "you smell nice, really nice." he gave your shoulder a peck, nuzzling his nose deep at the your collarbones where your perfume was most concentrated.

you guys were left alone by the crewmates you were initially talking to, sensing the possible escalation of events. heat rose up to your cheeks and you tried fighting the sudden spiking of your heart rate, but his firm grip on you only made your situation worse.

"what's up, kidd? are you... did you have too much to drink?" you tried looking down to search and meet his eyes. he looked at you with a half-lidded gaze, pools of amber saturating his irises yet not a speck of soberness evident.

"somethin' wrong with snugglin'?" he cocked a brow, a pout following after. "thoughtcha like the part where i cuddle and shit. well, you're in luck, bonnie. i'm cravin' one and i don't plan on lettin' go."

where's your lover and who possessed his body at this moment? kidd would NEVER say this even at gunpoint. he always says those soft lovey dovey shit you bring up is not his thing, but he never deprives you of it of course. he just doesn't initiate it on his own. which led you to believe that he was indeed not the romantic type.

"drank this thing- 's new and the barista recommended it. 's the kind you always order so i figured tryin' it. a gin and tonic, strawberry flavoured. too tame for me at first, walked here fine. but as soon as i saw you, think it kicked in." he narrated languidly, sometimes slurring.

you snorted, from the flow of his speech and the absurdity of his claimed cause for his behavior.

"so a strawberry gin and tonic made you act all cuddly?" you asked, stifling a smile and laugh.

"not only that, dove." his flesh hand stroked the bare skin of your thigh, riding up under your skirt until it teased the thin fabric of your panties. "'s not only the cuddles i want."

spit got stuck on your throat and you coughed a bit. feeling his fingers poke at the top of your cunt made you sweat a little bit.

"w-we shouldn't-" you tried standing up, but he held you securely on your place.

"why?" his voice was gentle, sincerely curious with a genuine glint of begging in his eyes. "'s my ship. i'm the captain. you're my wife. my sweet, angel wife. anythin' wrong messin' around in 'ere?" his hands dug deeper to palm your cunt, one of his fingers poking in with the cloth rubbing inside you mildly. "you look extra nice today so wipe that frown of your face, aye? or else i will." his kisses peppered your arm down to your shoulder.

"what's gotten into you? you're suddenly so... clingy and sweet." you squirmed under his touch, furiously stifling the moan that pleads to come out of you. the pace of your heart was also parallel with the rapid thoughts in your brain. puzzling questions that were prompted by kidd's sloppy kisses down to your forearm and onto your hand, especially close to your ring finger.

kidd reached over to your ear and whispered, "somethin' in me is screamin', it's beggin' to just come out to bend you over and fuck you here in front of the crew. but at the same time, i also can't let you go because i'm dyin' for you. you're drivin' me crazy, bonnie. when your hair is tied up like that, with your damn perfume's extra pungent, and your clothes fittin' a little too tight. it is all too much for me. and maybe you're right, i had too damn much of that gin and tonic i'm starting to get real dizzy." he pinched his temples, the gruffness of his voice mediated the beat of your heart into a much faster pace as the red in your cheeks into a darker hue of red. "but i know that as a matter of fuckin' fact, i am mad for you and your body. i want to keep touchin' and playin' the hell out of it. i feel different and you have somethin' to do with it. i'm most definitely not lettin' you go."

you took a deep breath as the symptoms somehow correlate with the town's special you saw on one of the banners by the docks. "this is quite possibly the craziest thing to ever happen, but did you drink an aphrodisiac?"

"why does it matter?"

"an aphrodisiac heightens sexual desires, kidd. fucking hell, did you not even ask the bartender?" you latched off away from him, trying to sober him up. but you know damn well that's not gonna cut it. you need to fuck it out of him.

"that must be why i'm rock hard right now, or is it the way you're beratin' me?" he reached for your hand once more, stroking your knuckles down to your nails before placing a kiss on it.

you sighed heavily, running fingers through your hair. now you have to deal with his state of heat. not that you hate it.

"aaah don't go angry on me now, aye? why don't we bond a little? lately, we've got our own shit going on. 'bout time we catch up, whatcha say?" he snakes his hand around your waist, gripping firmly as he rested his head on your mounds. "maybe this aphrobullshit finally brings us together so help me out here, hm?" he dragged your hand atop the tent of his pants, his boner painfully growing big and suffocating at the restriction of his clothing.

"since when do you fucking speak like that? you're acting...kind. i'm anxious." it's a joke, but it really does unsettle you. and intrigues you.

"am i?" a smile gradually curved up his lips, studying your face as he inched closer. grinning as he found you adorable at your dubious expression. "what are you thinkin'?"

"i gotta deal with your bullshit again, huh?"

kidd chuckled as a response, scooping you up in a bridal carry towards your shared quarters. not minding the lingering and following glances that comes your way. moreso the scandalous remarks on his menacing boner he didn't give a fuck how obscene it looked as he marched across the deck. all he wanted was to gaze at your shy and laughing state.

he sat down at the edge of the bed before settling you on his lap, something different and foreignly gentle for him. he trailed kisses by the curve of your jaw, sucked softly on your pulse, and warmed his cold hands on your body under your shirt.

you recoiled a little from feeling ticklish at his light touches, if it weren't for his support on your back, you would've fell.

in hopes of servicing him too, you started grinding atop his length. but he stopped mid kiss to stop you.

"mm-mm, no need for that, bonnie. you can stay put." he started. "i want you to keep it nice and steady. keep it between your folds, aye? ain't it more intimate?"

"intimacy, huh? i didn't think you'd have any romance in you. usually, i gotta force it into you."

"hm? think you can handle it now?" he tucked your hair at the back of your ear before having a steady hold on your jaw and cheek as he connected lips with you, smiling as he did so.

sex with kidd will always be fast paced and eager. clothes don't even act as a barrier, he WILL fuck you even in it. but right now, he did everything slowly as he took his time unbuttoning your shirt. he felt your skin up, detaching his lips away from you just to plant kisses on your chest and arms.

tossing the garment away, he worked his hands up to the hooks of your bra. he clicked them off skillfully, with months or even years of practice from your past intercourses. as your breasts came unrestrained, he held each one and sucked on the bundle of nerves one after the other.

you swallowed hardly, pressing his head further in your chest. the sound and feel of his kisses messed with your mind. he was carnal yet calm, he had you under a firm grip yet his touch and movements were soft. he didn't bite you as hard as he usually does and instead focused on making you feel good.

he stood up and turned around while still carrying you in a stable manner, his lips still glued on peppering your chest. he then placed you down the mattress; yes, placed you down gently at that. as oppose to what he usually does, which is throw you down the bed. not that you mind that bit, adds a bit of spiciness in your bedroom adventures. but his tenderness has somehow tinged at the way your heart beats.

"you're a little too gentle now, it's scaring me." you remarked, giggling a little at the way he smiled back. "part of me thought all you knew was to slam me down the bed."

"seems like you miscalculated. enjoy it while it lasts, aye?" he carried on giving service to you as he lets his kisses cascade down your abdomen, pinching your skin a little at the squishy parts.

kidd slid your skirt off along with your soaked panties. kissing your ankles up to your shin, and your thighs in such a soft, baby touch. his fingertips gliding smoothly down your lower extremities as he grazes his lacquered nails gingerly down your sides. as if he's exploring your body the first time.

"i-it tickles!" you squealed a little, knees folding as his touch scratched a laugh out of you.

he smiled against your skin while he neared your cunt. he placed his hands on your groin and started kissing your sopping core vertically. he closed his eyes, soaking in the flavor of you. you threw your head back and shut your eyes, tugging on his hair as he retained his relaxed pace in drinking you up.

but his hands kept grazing tenderly across your body. he can't get enough of touching you it seems. until he finally lost his patience, not even letting you cum. he stood up and gave his length a few pumps, spitting on it to lube it up.

"really? missionary?" you asked, panting as you try to recover from your high and brace yourself from what's about to come. "you never do this, baby. it's fine. i don't know what craziness that gin and tonic filled you up with but i know you won't want this position to satisfy that painful boner."

"somethin' wrong with doing your favorite position? and hey, we did this plenty of times! on our honeymoon and...on your birthday..." he looked away, embarrassed at his conclusion. kidd really is an ass man after all, why else would he want to not see his favorite part of you during sexy times? much more when he's craving it tenfold?

"look, the aphrodisiac won't go away if you don't cum. or even relieved of that sexual fever you have. we can do reverse or doggy, it's oka-"

"enough yappin'. i may not see that blessed ass of yours, i can cum very well enough if i just see you whorin' over my cock, aye?" he grinned, it's like the old kidd was back all over again. except his voice was somewhat kinder, devoid of that gruff and coarse tone he always holds during sex coated with commands.

and so he began. as the first stretch came, both of you took a deep breath. no matter how much you two do it, it still drives you to the ends of the earth at how incredible he stretches you out. he settled until the head of his cock touches your cervix, making you squirm a little; a habit of his. grinning at you as he did so, proud of what he did to you.

he propped himself up with his arms so he could be close to you and you wrap your legs around his waist, pressing him deeper in you. he even choked at the feeling with his cock getting squeezed inside.

"ready?"

"since when does eustass kidd ever ask?"

then it felt like your honeymoon again. or the night you two first fucked. when he first slides it in and you two share an exhale at the impact, same as now. he made sure to press foreheads with you, looking you deep in the eye as your agape lips barely touch and brush against each other periodically.

"y-you are so fuckin' tight, we oughta do missionary often, aye?" he fisted the sheets beside your head.

"that's on you, you'd rather see my ass." you choked out, rolling your eyes as he tried adjusting himself and your walls started tightening around him. "so s-shut up and start moving."

he laughed a little, linking fingers with you before finally pacing back and forth. he took his time sliding in and out of you, not enough to cause friction at his pace nor overstimulate you. he wanted it to be slow, to look deep in your eyes as he watched you drift into that state where you go completely stupid over how good he fills you up.

"all it took was a damn drug to make you go sweet, is that it?" you smiled, fingers latching off of his grip to reach over and hold his face between your hands.

he blushed more than usual, his eyes are a little glassy, his ears are redder, and his movements stuttered. after all, his length was throbbing a little too hard in you.

"hey, i'm sweet." he got defensive. furrowing his brows as he inched back a little, seeming to be offended at your remark. "i-i'll take you out tomorrow, dinner. maybe watch somethin'. buy you those shoes you want, or a nice dress. then we'll take a bath by the tub, buy some wine and tulips or somethin'." he looked away, hiding his face and the way he's beet red right now.

"oh my god. i'm about to get a whole barrel of that gin and tonic, kidd!"

"you're shivering," xiao aptly points out, awkwardly running his hands down your arms, “should i turn the air off? that’s weird, i’m pretty sure this is the same temperature as your old room? ah but the drugs might still be in your system-”

the chill that roused you receded as his arms robotically moved around you. your "old" room is identical to the one xiao has placed you in; you still couldn't stop your body from shaking. was it fear? you weren't sure. xiao's grip on you tightened,

"but you don't need to worry about that, i'm sure i can keep you warm. just leave everything to me please."

you sit awkwardly as he pulls you close, and while your trembles slow down your mind speeds up. 

what does he want?

you’ve seen him before ; several times at the dingy 7/11 you work at

you’ve briefly talked with him ; in the intro compsci class you had to take last year 

you don’t have money ; with the scholarship you’ve been so desperately trying to maintain, your financial status is apparent

as if understanding your thoughts xiao murmured something in your ear.

“why are you so confused? you told me we were going to move in together,”

bewildered you turn to look him in his eyes. he looked like a kicked puppy, his gaze shifting up and down your body. the way he stared at you, the way his eyes blazed, it was too much. unconsciously you flinch, xiao notices.

“i just, i love you so much!! it’s our first year anniversary today but it looks like you forgot,” he pouts, an expression you’d never imagine seeing on the ever so stoic xiao, “but don’t worry i’m sure we’ll have many more ahead of us!”

“wait what?” you couldn’t figure it out. you’ve never has an actual conversation with xiao, a year from today? “xiao i don’t ev-”

he doesn’t let you finish that thought, pulling you in for a kiss. 

his pretty (name) is here, in his arms. they’re so soft and warm xiao feels like he’s melting into them. his hands push down as if he’s trying to stay afloat. they squirming a little, were they always this ticklish?

it’s their first kiss, so why don’t they look happy? it’s okay! (name) is just a little shy, they’ve always been. 

even when he’d walk them home or take pictures, they were always so nervous.

he was so happy when they wanted to move in with him, it took a while to make everything perfect - the sheets, the furniture, even the lighting - but it would all be worth it; they’d never want to leave him now!

not that he’d let them of course 

“i’m so excited for our first time (name)!!” xiao exclaimed feverishly, his cold hands roaming your body, “i’ve been waiting so long for this, i’ve always thought of you when i jerked off. to have you here feels like a dream!”

this does not feel like a dream

you’ve realized that nothing you say reaches his ears. despite him being so thin, his grip was bruising; when you tried to move away or push him back, xiao would overpower you regardless. you now laid paralyzed as he placed kisses all over your neck and mouth. they were so soft and hesitant at first yet they felt borderline painful now.

your breath hitched as his teeth were those fangs? grazed over your neck, you could see him looking up at you, almost as if asking for permission. xiao must have found whatever sign he was looking for as he sunk his teeth into your jugular.

you couldn’t tell if you screamed or not, but you could feel blood trickling down your neck. tears welled up in you eyes - you couldn’t bear to look xiao in the eyes.

“i-i’m so sorry (name) i didn’t mean to,” he seemed to snap out of whatever trance he was in, “here i’ll clean it up for you.”

you could feel his tongue lapping up the excess blood, the soft kisses he placed on the wound, and his hands caressing you sides. xiao’s tongue moved further down and,

when did he take off your shirt?

“i don’t have any experience but i’m sure i can make you feel good!” you could hear him mumble into your torso, “i’ve read enough doujins so i’m sure you’d like this”

“what? what kind of-”

without warning his teeth gently bite your nipple, eliciting a shriek out of your mouth. xiao must have seen this as a sign of approval, as his fingers moved to tweak the other one. “do you think i could make you cum from playing with these alone? just like that one hentai i saw? they kinda reminded me of you too.”

you didn’t want to tell him that’s probably not possible, but the pain mixing in with how fervently xiao was sucking on your chest felt overwhelmingly good. out of shame you covered your mouth; you didn’t want to make any noises least he think you’re enjoying this. 

“you’ve gotten so quiet what-” xiao looks up at you again, his eyes shone with anger upon seeing your hands. scared, you moved your hands away, should you apologize? for what? “-don’t do that again. please” that puppy dog face makes it hard for you to say no, 

“i promise” you find yourself saying, the words not even registering in your brain. a happy xiao is not a cruel xiao. you think you can deal with a happy xiao.

xiao’s eyes smile with his mouth; his hands interlock with yours as his head goes back down to lick your nipples. 

time felt stagnant as you weren’t sure how much time had passed. you could vaguely feel xiao trying to stimulate your clit, his tongue sloppily lapping up your fluids. you had stopped paying attention by the time he pulled down you pants, dulled out the sound of his voice, all of the “are you feeling good?” “you look so pretty like this” “you’re mine right?” flew over your head. you couldn’t hear it, you didn’t want to hear it.

the sound of his belt unbuckling snapped you back; you had a realization.

you can’t deal with a happy xiao.

“please xiao, just stop this,” your voice sounded so thin you could only hope he heard you, “i don’t want this. i never wanted to move in with you, i’ve never even spoken to you. can i please just go home?”

and just as you snapped, he did as well.

“i’m not letting you leave me,” the way his tone dropped sent shivers down your spine, “i don’t know if you’re just being shy or nervous but you don’t need to be. you know i love you.”

“this isn’t love xiao, you’re just being delusional” you screamed, pushing him away from you, “i don’t love you.”

“take that back right now,” his grip on you tightened as he shoved you back down, “i’m sure you don’t mean that, i know you don’t mean that.”

before you could even protest you felt a painful stretch, looking down sent you reeling. xiao hadn’t even gone in all the way, yet your cunt could hardly fit him. the tip of his cock pushed against your cervix and you let out another choked scream. 

“i’m not sure if i’m big enough for you to feel good but i’m going to try my best!” his angered expression faded as soon as he bottomed out; you could see his ears flush up, light pink dusting his cheeks.

“xiao you’re too bi-” the words stopped in your throat as he started thrusting. xiao pounded into you like an animal, his hands pulled your hips down whenever you tried to squirm away. it was all too much, you didn’t want to look. xiao's lust filled eyes met yours, his pretty golden irises swirled with madness. 

“you feel so good around me right now (name), are you feeling good too?” he exclaimed, experimentally rutting his hips upward - hitting a spot that made you see stars, “oh you’ve tightened up on me. it must be here it then.” 

your senses dulled out again as your pussy clamped down on his dick. you could vaguely hear xiao’s soft moans, your muffled whimpers. you could feel his dick ram into your cervix, feel the knot growing in your stomach. as if noticing the lack of response xiao started kissing you again, clumsily moving his hand down to stimulate your clit. xiao’s breath kept hitching with each thrust, you could feel him linking your fingers together.

“what if we came together? wouldn’t that be romantic?” he managed to say between moans, “i’m close (name), i know you are too.” 

you saw white; the knot in your stomach undid itself as xiao’s hips buckled into yours for the last time. you could hear your name coming out of his mouth in a choked whisper as he fell down onto your chest.

you could feel his seed pooling between your thighs, his soft length slowly pulling out, and the aftershocks of your climax leaving your body shaking. 

you were shivering again

“happy one year (name),” xiao murmurs possessively, placing a chaste kiss on your forehead, “i love you so much.”

"i should probably go." you mumbled to kidd, tearing your bare frame away from his embrace. you sat at the edge of the bed to hurriedly gather your clothes and slide them back on your body.

kidd sat up, the satin comforter falling off his chiseled torso down to his lower half. "it's the middle of the goddamn night, nobody will fuckin' know." he rustled his hair, irritated at your inclination to always rush out of his quarters.

"all the more reason to leave, right?" you smiled a little. "good night, captain." you gave your garments one final pat down before waving goodbye at him and shutting the door.

the quiet sound of the waves and the subtle rocking of the ship mirrored the mundane void you left in your wake. but you two agreed to have it that way, no feelings attached. act as usual as you two could be. even after spending the night skin to skin against each other while sharing empty kisses and hickeys.

having the same needs and desire for each other, it began on a night where liquor loosened both of your restraints and the pooling warmth and lust it brought was enough for kidd to bring you to his quarters. until it became a regular thing. one look from across the hall, between the members that composed of the kidd pirates, you two would easily excuse yourself to a covert corridor so you could sneak in a quickie.

even with the presence of clothes, the scorching heat of the sun, the dampness of the rain, and the possibility of crew members catching you two; it never mattered to the both of you so long as you two satiated each other.

kidd would shamelessly pull you away just so he could feel your warmth around his length, shoving and fucking you deep by the walls of his ship. consequently, you would instigate a quickie by sitting close to him, rubbing thighs and touching knees. sometimes discreetly sitting on his lap for a moment while flashing him your undies or cleavage as you move closer.

it went on for a while. when a few weeks passed, the crew already knew that you two were kicking it off. you two could be heard during the night and they mostly see you exiting his quarters in the middle of the night and waking up some of the ladies at the dorms when you sneak back in late. but they had all agreed to act oblivous, out of fear and respect for the both of you.

moreover, you and kidd vehemently agreed to keep it a secret. the first time you two did it, you two kind of freaked out. wondering how the crew would take it and the image of reputation of kidd and you.

but you were mostly the first one to always leave. on your end, you weren't embarrased or anything. you just respect kidd so much, you'd rather not get caught whoring for him. you also don't want to catch feelings that could ruin whatever's going on with the two of you. you admire him that much.

even though you already did catch feelings, you just don't realize it. caring too much about what he thinks is already enough. that's why you always left, to flush it all down. because kidd would never catch feelings, right? he just wants sex with you that's it.

little did you know, your aversion started to bother kidd after some time. it never occurred to you because he was never really in touch with his emotions with you. he just fucked you and that's it. and it's all it ever meant to you, he always thought to himself. sure there's admiration and respect, but that's given enough that you're under his charge.

but it did made him quite worried when it happens frequently. kidd wasn't one to overthink, nor be self-conscious. but when you always hurriedly leave like that, acting like he kicked you out or something, he starts to think if you didn't enjoy it. even though he has a clear image of you reaching your climax a few minutes ago.

it started with that. then it extended into his concern as he gradually started caring what you think for some reason. it usually started during sex; whether you enjoyed the act or if you slept nicely. then it extended to the little things on the daily; if he made you laugh, where you usually are, if you're eating well, has he done something harsh, and whatnot. it makes him wonder why you leave so fast so often, if he was doing a perfect job of satisfying you.

kidd was interested in you. you were one a of a kind. someone so rare that he was lucky enough to stumble upon. a gem that piqued his interest. it's one of the main reasons why he instigated on having a fuck buddy relationship.

he liked how you measure up to him despite your size difference, how brave you look in the battlefield, he adored how you smiled along with how your eyes shine, how he loves hearing you laugh, how you fit in his arms after the deed, how he never ran out of things to talk with you, how you listen to him ramble as he either brags about his achievements or his nerdy obssession with tinkering.

he truly noticed how beautiful you are when he's in you, when he takes in the full glory of you as you were bare under him. when he thinks about these stuff; it's making him daydream and spiral deeper into you. he hated it.

he hated how it made him think how much of a fool he was. it was just about the sex. that's why you leave immediately, he deduced. he thought that maybe, you were scared or ashamed of what you two are having.

so what's the fucking point of continuing if he started catching feelings? the past kidd wouldn't care about shit like this. and it irritated him how much he cares about it now.

that's why the next day, when you tried to insinuate a quickie, he brushed you off. and he never brushes you off. so you knew something was up.

"woke up on the wrong side of the bed, captain? the hell?" you snarked when he tsked as you sat close to him and rubbed your chest on his arm. he'd usually put an arm around you discreetly but this time, he just rolled his eyes.

"i'm tired." he growled, scooting away from you a little to reach a can of beer by the table.

"hmm, need a massage? we can do a quick one, crew seems busy." you said in an inviting tone, shifting closer as you rubbed on his arm.

"just...fuckin' do whatever you need to. quit bein' all over me for a bit, alright?" he asked in an exasperated tone, standing up and stomping towards his quarters. not even sparing you a glance.

that was your last conversation for the day and you didn't come to his quarters that night. you decided to let him be, you thought that maybe he's conflicted with something and decided to leave him alone.

until days passed and he was still acting different. he wasn't looking your way anymore. he sat at the other end of the table during meals, neither near or facing you. you don't catch him looking behind to check on you. although he still talks to you, he became cold. he answers short sentences and dismisses it. he always ignored and brushed off your advances. and it was starting to hurt.

so during the night, you visited him on his quarters.

"i didn't say anyone could come in-" he was angry while responding until he caught sight of you.

"did i do something wrong, kidd? it's been several days and... you've been distant." you rubbed your shoulders in apprehension, desperately finding meaning in his eyes curtained by scrunched up brows.

"you're fine. it's late, you should get some rest." he dismissed immediately, turning his back on you.

"what about you? are you stressed? you're doing okay lately?" you inquired, walking closer in hopes of instilling something cordial.

"quit worryin' about me." he snarked, back still turned on you.

you sighed. and tried one more time. you sat at the edge of the bed next to him. he exhaled heavily feeling the mattress sink at your presence.

"kidd, talk to me." you expected, looking up at him. growing anxious at his decline.

"just go, name. i'm tired and i need some damn rest. why are you even so persistent about something so fuckin' trivial? why does it concern you, huh? do you want to fuck so bad? fine! get fuckin' naked, jesus christ." he stood up on his feet as his voice gradually increased volume.

that's when your vision narrowed, your cheeks burned, and your eyes stung. "n-no, sorry. i-i'm gonna go." you swallowed, leaving his room at once.

"that's all you ever do, you just fuckin' go, aye? can i blame you, though? feelings aren't supposed to come into question. we're just fuckin', damn it." kidd silently told himself, sitting back down as he ran fingers through his hair. "i just really have to start catching feelings, huh? what a goddamn idiot." he plopped himself to the bed, spreading into a starfish position as he closed his eyes.

so you ran away from his room, away from the victoria. you sat by the port far from where the ship was docked, where you were met with seagulls playing by the sea. you needed a new breather.

but kidd was at war with his head. he surprisingly felt bad. and he was itchy in his position; he wanted to move, to stand up and run after you and tell you how he feels. but with his hulking pride? it won't be so easy.

more days passed after your encounter and you two were distant with each other. killer and the others noticed it but didn't bother prying. they know they're on thin ice if they so much as ask about your situation with kidd.

what would pull kidd's head out of his ass was when he saw you out the pub, getting overly friendly with other men. in your defense, you were sitting by the sofa alone and they came to join you.

he, killer, heat, and wire were sitting by the barstools a few tables ahead of you. kidd was constantly looking over his shoulder and saw you enjoying yourself. the sight of you with other men rubbed him the wrong way. it prompted him to drink more than he usually does.

"hey boss, you okay? you seem... paranoid?" wire started, looking around to see what was wrong.

"shut up." kidd replied in a heartbeat, chugging his rum as he tore his eyes off the freak show that is you with other men.

but you don't catch kidd's eyes so you didn't realize something was wrong with him. why would it even bother him anyway?

until kidd got super drunk after stuffing himself with rum and roasted meat. he heard the men laughing a little too loud along with yours. he couldn't take it anymore.

and all in a blink of an eye, a fight broke out in the pub.

kidd started it with the man who sat next to you, rubbing a little too close and too often at you. he grabbed his collar and punched him flat on the ground. the other men tried retaliating but killer, heat, and wire were already taking care of them. they had no choice, their captain started it.

you sat there in absolute shock with a hand over your mouth which soon traveled onto pinching your temples.

"hey! guys, fucking stop it! will you please fucking leave it?! the pub owner already called the stationed marines!" you physically got in between all of them, tearing away your crew mates from the knocked out men. poor men who got innocently involved in your captain's fury.

"leave it, kidd! for fuck's sake, just listen to me for fucking once!" you tugged on kidd's arm, which was threatening to land a feral punch on the knocked out bloody man lying on the ground.

he let go and let you drag him out the pub. you all ran in a secluded alley, somewhere far from the pub.

"what the fuck was that?! can someone tell me what the fuck happened?! were the guys jeering at y'all or some shit?!"

"we just backed up, boss." heat shrugged, wiping off blood from his busted lip. so your gaze landed on kidd, who got off with bloody knuckles and a bruise on the cheek.

"they were all over you, you think nothing's wrong with that?!" he pointed over to the pub, adamant on his cause.

"am i not allowed to socialize with other people now?! they were accompanying me because i sat alone! i sat fucking alone! they were not all over me. as a matter of fact, they helped changed my mood. is it so wrong to have fun with them?!"

"and you couldn't even be bothered if they were takin' advantage of you? tryna bed you or some fuckin' shit." kidd crossed his arms, avoiding your gaze.

"and what if i do agree, huh? what if i want to sleep with them? how is that any of your fucking problem? when you won't even bother looking my damn way these past few days. does it concern you who i fucking sleep with?" you shouted with blood rushing to your face, your heart was beating so fast and your head was pounding. your eyes were stinging with the precarious tears coming your way.

"yes! it fuckin' does, name!" he answered almost immediately, his eyes teary and bloodshot.

"because i wanna be with you! i want to sleep in the same bed all night with you! not see you kick yourself out each night we do it just because you don't want them seeing you leave my quarters. like it fuckin' matters! i'm the captain of my own damn ship! who the hell cares if you leave my quarters by morning, aye?!" he wiped off the falling tears and sniffed as his nose got stuffy. "i want us to go on goddamn dates, take you out to eat on fucking restaurants, buy you shit you like. i want to know what goes on in your mind. if you feel the same way or i'm just fuckin' kiddin' myself." he laughed bitterly. "i want to spend more time with you, get to know you other than the times you got naked in front of me."

right there, killer and the others almost lost air. wire even coughed up a little blood stuck on his throat. they all excused themselves silently and left you two be.

"but who am i kiddin'? we're in this shit for the fuck, aye? sure enough, why the hell would you settle for a brute like me?! a foul, vicious, selfish, and prideful jerk like me? i sure as fuckin' hell wouldn't." he sat by the asphalt in defeat, running his hand through his locks. ashamed of himself really. confessing shit like that even though he thought you'd fold first. he thinks of himself as a joke.

but you, you were stunned. you didn't even know you were crying. all you could do was kneel before him and pull him in a hug.

kidd's eyes widened and he stiffened up. you really smelled nice, you felt warm. it was all that ran through his head. his embarrassment from his confession was now long gone. you somehow corrupted his thoughts yet again.

"for the record, i had the biggest crush on you." you said to him and he pulled away so he could see your face if you're screwing with him. "really. one of the reasons, if not all, why i joined."

kidd immediately flushed red. he looked away to avoid your gaze.

"this all happened because your dumbass couldn't talk about your feelings." you gave him a flick on the forehead. "so, what if we have that 'date' you wanna have and sort this all out?" you placed your hand on his jaw, fingers spreading across the sides of his cheeks to cup his face. "it's not fair that you're the only one who gets to confess."

"you can stop being cheeky now, it's annoying."

"hm? but your red cheeks says otherwise."

you soon took him back to the ship, you told him to wait by his quarters since you'll fetch the ice pack. when you came back the room was empty, you looked around only to see his bathroom door ajar with a little amount of steam escaping.

you tsked to yourself, sighing as you waited on the edge of the bed. when he finally emerged from the bathroom, you were ready to berate him. only to see him fully naked, without so much as a towel hanging around his hips.

"w-why the fuck are you-"

"hm? ain't the first time you see me naked. why bother coverin' up?" he crossed his arms, smirking. he clearly knows what he's doing. now he's all haughty. has he cleared his head in the bath? or did the evident blush on your cheeks rubbed his ego?

"i told you to wait here and i'll get you an ice pack, you look like a fucked up fruit." you placed your hands on your hips, fighting the urge to look down.

yet all he did was march closer to you but you kept your front steady, maintaing eye contact. and he was quiet and smug. he fetched a towel on the way to wrap around his hips and sat down on the edge of the bed.

"honestly, when will you listen?" you sighed placing the clothed ice pack up to his cheek. he placed his hand over yours, goosebumps spreading across your skin with his touch.

"i got it." he said sparing you a cheeky glance, you yanked your hand away in return.

"why'd you take a bath? you wanna rile me up, huh? by not listening to me?" you crossed your arms.

"i just felt fuckin' dirty and i'm all bloody, do you give a fuck now if i shower or not?"

this is pretty much how your normal conversation goes. you snark at him, kidd snarks back even harsher. that's why talking seriously wasn't in your bucketlist with him. he has an insufferable temper and you don't plan on submitting to his anger. really now, one of the things you have in common is being stubborn.

"it's just that... we're going out later in the day and... i don't want to go around smelling like absolute dogshit when i'm around you."

"ah you don't, huh?" you took in his flustered state, scowling face with red ears and pressed lips. avoiding your gaze firmly. "well, i guess i'd better get ready myself. gotta doll myself up too. keep that ice pack on your cheek, okay? don't make me tape that shit."

you saw yourself out, fighting your smile as you exited the door. kidd lied down flat on his bed, clutching his chest as he bathed in the foreign feeling of love beating in his chest. while you ran towards the ladies' dorm in full speed just to scream in your pillow in excitement.

the night went on with you two enjoying yourself at a diner. telling each other how crazy you felt for each other. it later turned into stupid things like how he broke the spoon or how you keep on downing a glass of wine (it's cuz you were nervous).

you and kidd decided to spend the night in a motel, to have the time and space to yourselves. because you two are going to be making your way to your room kissing like rabbits in heat.

kidd would have you in his hands, carrying you by your bum while you wrap your arms around his neck for support while you tug on his locks. he would slam you against the door while you turn the knob open.

once inside, he'd be keen on taking your clothes off first. discarding them on the floor while you get busy on taking off his goggles, fur coat, and shirt. but there was no hurry, he walked slowly you could take your time.

kidd would sit by the edge of the bed while his lips were still connected to you, sucking aggressively as if it's his last. his hand grabbing your bum and kneading it with much fervor. his lipstick stains would mark your cheeks and neck, an obvious obssession with those parts of you.

surprisingly enough, you two spent the past hours entangled in each other's limbs. you were lying down on his torso while he had his arm secured around you, pinching your skin playfully or just tracing circles across the surface. his mechanical arm already discarded. both of your clothes scattered across the wooden floors. it was just your bare body against his.

there was something different about the way he kisses you now, his lips lingered more rather than the usual hungry kisses that pried your mouth open. his touch was gentle as opposed to the usually firmly vulgar grip he has on you just so he could force his length in you and fuck you stupid. his moans in your lips were heard and warm, as if he wasn't trying to usually stifle it.

he tuck strands of hair behind your ear while he returns your kisses, his hand soon settled on the back of your head protectively. your one hand was combing deep through his voluminous, red locks while the other cups his face. it was such a foreign sight, where you two weren't in a hurry. not too impatient in taking your clothes off, reaching your climax, or leaving first thing after fucking. it was like the restraints were off, the weight you two were bearing was now off your shoulders, and all the time in the world stopped for both of you.

"now, how does that feel?" kidd broke out, pulling away from your kisses but his voice was raspy and low. almost a whisper. "how does it feel to not rush and take your time? good, aye?" he nuzzled his nose on your neck, flesh hand angling your head upward from his grip on the juncture of your nape and head.

"since when did you care about that? being romantic and all." you giggled a little as his breath came into contact with your skin.

"since you started becomin' the bane of my existence." he pressed wet kisses on your jaw upto your cheek, and now he's finally eye to eye with you.

"oh shut up, you love me."

"aye, unfortunately."

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thank you so much for the request anon! i hope this somehow aligned with your expectations :DDD this request was so perfect for this trope 🥰 it was fate that the reel came across my feed LMAOAAHSJHSHSHS

it was 12 in the midnight and kidd still hadn't got home, he said he'll just be quick to drink with the boys to let loose and relieve some stress. he had been gone for a couple of hours and you were uncharacteristically worried.

but that all changed when the door swung open and he walked a little lopsidedly. he seems to still have a shred of composure, because he somehow still got a smile in him when he saw you.

he motioned for you to come close, carrying you by your bum when you clung onto him as you hug him. "missed me, aye?" he placed sloppy kisses on the side of your face down to your neck.

"seems like you missed me." you giggled, his lips tickling you. "welcome home." you combed your fingers through his crimson locks.

he hummed, placing you down the mattress as he unbuttoned your shirt. "a-ah, kidd are we..." you felt weak under his lips and touch, undressing you as he freed your breasts from your bra by just lowering the pads, not even bothering to take the whole thing off.

"fuckin'? mhm." he nibbled on the bundle of nerves in the middle of your breasts. "all flustered and shit now that i'm here, aye?" he did that thing where he sucked on your sides because he knew that it tickles you.

you broke into fits of giggles, telling him to stop but your laughter always interrupted your protests. and kidd was smiling as he did so, reveling in your reaction.

"i wanna do somethin' different tonight." he latched his lips off of your skin stained from his lipstick. he looked deeply into your tear-stained eyes from laughing too much before tucking a strand of hair behind your ear.

"yeah? you're acting totally different right now. what's the matter with you?" you held his face in your hands.

he took one of your hands and planted a kiss on your knuckles, close to where your marriage ring resides–one he made himself. "figured i don't make love to you that much."

"huh? but we just fucked earlier." you laughed, puzzled at his demeanor.

"yeah, the dirty and disgustin' sex. don't get me wrong, i love it, aye? 's just, the booze got me thinkin' a lot of shit tonight." he sat down, taking off his goggles and wiggling out if his fur coat.

"like what?" you faced him sitting down with him as you pulled your bra up. "is everything okay, kidd?"

he didn't answer, instead he patted his lap for you to sit on. and you complied, facing him as you settled on his thighs.

"i wanna make you laugh more," he tucked strands of hair behind your ear as he looked up at you. "make you smile more." he placed a kiss on your nose. "so much that we're left breathless." he alternated gazes between your eyes, taking in how truly mesmerizing he finds you. "you up for it?"

you bit your lip trying to prevent yourself from smiling, covering your face. "what's gotten into you, kidd?" you peeked behind your fingers, peering at how he gave you a weak smile.

as a response, he pulled you closer and started peppering your neck with playful, sloppy kisses. and he knew that it tickled you the most when he does that, he was grinning as he did so.

"nothin'," he giggled on you skin, light kisses on your shoulder. "somethin' so wrong showin' my bonnie a lil' love?"

while you two were noisily giggling to yourselves, he got busy with slipping your panties off. he loved squeezing the flesh of your thighs, kneading the curve of your ass as you wrap your arms around his neck.

lots of it continued until your clothes were completely off and you lied atop his frame, feeling up the hardness of his cock on your stomach and the sensitivity of your nipples on his chest.

his palms roamed around the surface of your skin, he felt the goosebumps he inflicted and grinned on your lips.

"doin' alright?" he teased, biting on your lip before letting you go completely and looking into your eyes with that nasty gaze as he got satisfied with what he's doing to you. satisfied at how he left your lips swollen and your cheeks a blushing mess.

"mhm. you're one to talk when you're embarrassingly hard." you sat up, pumping his cock softly.

"that's where you miscalculated, bonnie. i ain't embarrassed. matter of fact, i'm ecstatic." he playfully rubbed your chin. "so go ahead."

he sat up, holding you in place as he looked up at you and you looked down on him.

"hmm, nah. i don't wanna make it easy for you." you placed kisses on his jaw down to his neck, sucking on the pale surface. right to his adam's apple where he's most ticklish.

his body recoiled a little as a reaction, but he was laughing for the most part. he wasn't trying to latch off of you like a normal reaction from being tickled, he let you reach down to his collarbones where it made more blood rush to his cock.

"ahh, bonnie you're too much into this, aye? a little too excited to please me, hm? seems you won't get off easy with just a few rounds later." he subtly grinded his lap to induce friction on your cunt, fighting off the giggles you're eliciting from him.

at the split moment where you decided to pull away and voluntarily get lost in his eyes to see his expression, he maneuvered your frame so you he can be on top of you. and once again, laughter tickled your throats and it was like the first time you two are making love again.

"still got it in you, huh?"

"bonnie, i always gotta be the one on top, hm? you know that." he gave your nose a peck, parting with a smile before straightening himself up. he gave his length a few pumps before teasing your folds with it.

after spitting on it, he pressed foreheads with you before pushing himself completely in. you arched your back, grazing your nails on his sinewy back. he chuckled in your ear, feeling you tighten around him.

"what's so funny?" you broke out and before he could move himself in you, he angled his head so he could kiss you.

"no, not funny, mm-mm. i just find it amusing." he propped himself up with his arm, hands beside you head.

"what is?"

"that you got me gigglin' and smilin' over the littlest shit." he nuzzled his face deeper on the crook of your neck, smiling as he grabbed your sides while he started moving in and out of you.

you two exchanged breaths from the impact, grinning afterward for no fucking reason. just drunk and crazy of the thought of one another, filling each other up. kidd collided lips with you, smiling as he fucked you when you giggled from the fuzziness on your stomach.