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@seleneauger SELENE. I will always scream your name because you will always be my number one writing soulmate of forever and always. How do I even put into words how much I appreciate you as a person, friend, or writer? Correct---I can’t because I suck with words and there are no words in any dictionary worthy enough to show my gratitude in being able to read what you write. We don’t talk every day but you’re always so supportive whenever I need that one reply or response to uplift my spirit. You have a natural gift of being so personable, so lovely, so wonderfully wonderful and I really admire your strength and perseverance. The way you push through and keep looking forward is a quality I aspire to have. I tend to give up quite easily muahaha but you, on the other hand, are one of the most hardworking people I know. I’m truly happy to call you my writing soulmate and I’m sending you all the good vibes for your life and writing in 2018.

@jaebesoindetoi I never know whether to hug you or run from you whenever we talk (and half the time you scare me because you are the definition of unexpected (in the best way possible)). You really have made this year bearable and kept me sane. When things get rough, your words have helped me and allowed me to keep going. But I gotta say, the best moments are when we’re in each other’s google docs and the conversations that transpires always bring me into a fit of laughs and smiles. I will never let the ass talk die and it will come with me into 2018. Don’t fight it (There’s an ass under his pants and he just needs to firm it up in 2018). Whether you write for KDN, ONG, Myung, Dowoon, or Jaehyun, I will read and read because your writing style is a gift to this world. Thank you for being such a unique and talented person. You have become one of my closest friends and I’m so grateful to have you in my life. 

@paperchemical To the person I KKT the most in the entire universe (ayeeeeeee universe). I give you the biggest hug! The screams, yells, and laughter from our conversation throughout the year has been some of my favorite moments. I love our talks, our weird snaps, our phone and video calls and I dearly hope these will continue into 2018. I don’t think I can survive without our daily screams about Sehun and how he tortures our soul. haha But on a more serious note---you are also one of the few I’ve unburdened my hardships upon and helped me through tough times. I can’t ever thank you enough for your kindness and the way you’re able to sympathize with my struggles. Thank you always for being there when I need it and for being one of the best friends I’ve ever had.

@pebble-xo I love you and your writing and I’m forever envious of how you post so many quality stories. I still can’t fathom how you do it---like where did you get this skill and how do I get it??? Do I need to sell my soul? I’d really like to know hahaha but Really---you are such a talented writer and I’m so proud of the work you’ve done this year. I still have major catch up to do but I hope in 2018, I can continue sending you inspo pics of Agent Hun muahaha

@suavesehun I silently lurk your tumblr. Hope you don’t mind haha. I find that you’re such a supportive person and with a genuine heart and I just wanted to send out my gratitude on the light you shed upon this platform. Sehun is so lucky to have you as his fan :)

@thesammtimes @causekpop @soobadnoonecanstopher @fantasies-from-nami @kbeatzscenarios @wynterstory I silently lurk all your blogs too and I’m so sorry we haven’t communicated more this year. I had many struggles and my friendships really suffered for it. I hope you all can forgive me and I will definitely do better in 2018 and scream and spazz over all of your writing.

To all my readers and anons. Thank you to all of the love and support you have given me this year. I can’t thank each of you personally but for those who have sent me a message of encouragement, I can’t thank you enough for your kindness in loving this fictional story. 

HULLO it’s me @taemins-dolphin, 

i would just like to thank all fanfic writers for creating such wonderful stories! i stared reading fics back in 2012. i was having a hard time back then and everything was just so hard. that’s when i found comfort in them and honestly its the best thing that’s ever happened to me mentally. if i wanted to be happy, i would read some fluff.if i  i was sad and wanted to feel even sadder, i would just read angst. it was just so comforting to read the stories. 

so in commemoration of this day, here are some of the writers thati love and respect a lot!! (i migh forget some...  im sorry!)

I was tagged by the oh so fab jinny @causekpop tis a pleasure doing this for u 😊 [A word of caution to this tale, i rarely update my phone for music, so this might end up with just my all time faves]

INSTRUCTIONS : You can tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people. No skipping!

1. Buttons - Pussycat Dolls 2. Let’s Not - Super Junior KRY 3. You’ve Made Me Stronger (by breaking my heart) - Regine Velasquez 4. XOXO - EXO 5. Liberi Fatali - Final Fantasy VIII 6. Risk My Life - 2PM 7. Black Magic - Little Mix 8. Hate U, Love U - Super Junior 9. No Other - Super Junior 10. Miracles in December - EXO

Goodbye 2016! To show my appreciation for writer friends I’ve met on tumblr, I created a small page for these lovely people (more to be added when I learn how to be better at befriending tumblr writers haha) 

http://enaasteria.tumblr.com/selcouth please be on browser or comp for viewing purposes

The ones listed are so talented, so incredibly skilled in the written word and I love them all to bits. We may not talk every day but I value the small conversations and friendships I’ve made with each and every one of you. You all are so great with your stories and scenarios and most of the time I just scream at you with ‘how could you make me feel this way’ or ‘whyyyyyyyy?????’ or other incoherent thoughts that amount to what a child would yell but thank you. Thank you for writing. Thank you for being so friendly with me. Thank you for showing me there are wonderful people still left in this world and I hope you all know you inspire me to write better; to be better; to just simply do better. Thank you for all that you are and what you do for your readers. Happy 2017!

The first day (as some of you know) was not the best. I have really bad luck with EXO Concerts especially with the first days. They’re always the worst for me. Since I got the global single package, I didn’t really have friends around me. I can usually befriend people at concerts but not sure why it didn’t work or feel right with the people I was seated with this time around. Nevertheless---I enjoyed what I could. Day two was much better! I was sitting with @causekpop and she is just a riot. I love youuuu~~~~

The cinematography is so much better than tour #2. I was just in awe over the production (minus some of the photoshopping jobs---like SM. Can you please hire me? I have a degree in this and can totally help you photoshop better. Please contact me.)

They started off with MAMA and I was kind of sad it wasn’t the intro with the robes and what not? I thought they would do it for Day 2 but nope. They didn’t. Like I said, they have great energy. Everything they do, they do with immense feeling and strength and you can see it through their performances. I’m sad that Monster was the second song in the line-up. Since it’s one of my favorites, I was hoping it would be in the latter end. 

BUT BYUN BAEKHYUN MAN. His little dance cut. 

I hate him so much. 

And by hate I mean he’s part of my little trifecta. Ever since Monster was released, I’ve had these small bursts of feelings for him that don’t relent as time progresses. (Also doesn’t help that every EXO item I receive by random is BAEK. I’m just so skldjf;klsfja;lfd I love it and hate it all the same) But this man. On second day, The whole dome was cheering his name and it was so humbling to watch him dance. I loved it. You haven’t lived til you’ve seen this boy dance. He’s wonderful. 

ALSO. When you go to EXO’RDIUM. What you need to know is that you will think you’re in a strip dance club. Because that is what I felt when I watched them perform Artificial Love with those damn canes. LIKE WHY ARE YOU GRINDING ON A CANE AND WHY DO I WANT TO BE THAT CANE?! AND DO YOU KNOW WHO WAS IN FRONT OF ME WHILE GRINDING ON SAID CANE?

OH SEHUN.

I mean---I can’t even put into words because my mouth was just hanging ajar the whole entire time. THIS WHOLE ENTIRE CONCERT IS JUST BODY ROLLS, WATER, AND THEM TEASING YOU. It’s honestly the best kind of sexual torture????

BUT OKAY. BREATHE. That’s not even the worst part. See---I’m pretty much an emotionless type of person. I don’t cry when I see performances or feel anything deeply. I might feel happy like watching them but rarely do they ever touch my soul or anything like that. How wrong I was.

One and Only. 

This segment. THIS DANCE PERFORMANCE. 

I teared up so bad watching this. It’s a contemporary dance piece and I just---I nearly cried. I almost cried. It physically, emotionally, hurt to watch this dance portion because it was so beautiful. So moving. So incredibly gorgeous that if it went on longer than it should, I would’ve been a mess of tears. It’s my favorite. To watch Sehun dance to this was a pure gift and it made everything so worth it. Cams don’t do it justice. You have to see it with your own eyes and you will know why it made me tear up so bad. His movements, extensions, everything about it was so ardently beautiful. When I say he’s a water god, this performance personifies that exact thought. He is a water god. He most certainly is.

I think somewhere around the VCR when they change into the cone hats and what not was when the jfan tackled me on the first day. Basically, EXO was on these moving carts throwing out frisbees and toy balls. Chanyeol came around and threw a ball. The girl was seated in the row behind me. The ball flew in her direction but she couldn’t catch it so it went into my row and rolled to my feet (Chanyeol---why did you try to kill me with your stupid ball throwing aim. please. stop. i love you but i refuse to die for you). I bent down to retrieve it and somehow felt a body crash into my own and I was hurled to the floor. I’ve never been attacked before in my life and no less over a stupid toy ball. The jfan literally climbed over a row, tackled me to the ground just to get a ball. I’m the type of girl if u ask, I will give it to you. It’s just a damn ball and definitely not something to hurt another person over. When I say a fan is ugly---I mean their personality is ugly and she is that kind of fan. I’ve said time and time again, EXO will not love you if you hurt others for your own selfish greed. She didn’t have the decency to apologize to me and pretended like it was nothing. And once that happened, she basically ruined my whole entire day one experience. I left early that day because my back and ankle hurt so bad that I couldn’t keep standing. I have her face forever ingrained into my head. But I hope she knows how poorly she acted and reflects on how she behaved and how Chen (she’s a CHEN FAN. AND IT WAS CHANYEOL WHO THREW THE BALL---LIKE C’MON MANNNN) would never approve of her if he saw what she did to me.

Other performances I enjoyed---Transformer. I screamed so loud over this. I’ve always enjoyed this song and to see a choreography for it was a dream come true. I haven’t watched the mama perf yet (but i heard they performed this??? am i wrong? LOL) but it’s so epic. I loved the sequences of when they were “TRANSFORMING” LOL 같이해. THE RAPPERS. UNNNNFFFF. I LOVEDDDDD THISSSS. I can’t wait for its release. it’s a new song and I am just so //hearts eyes// over it. And of course Angel as the last song. I like Angel (although I prefer the mandarin version over the korean version) but my dream is to hear Promise live. I hope one of these days I can see them perform Promise T___T. 

Other key items that killed me on day 2:

I hated it when Baekhyun came around because his smile equates to death. Like I don’t need to see that happiness. Please leave my heart alone.

PCY waved to me and I wanted to hurl my life away

I gave Yixing a finger heart and HE RETURNED THE HEART AND I WANTED TO DIE.

I basically got ignored by Sehun because he’s honestly so aloof with his fans. LOL. he’s the worstttttt. 

People who I got to meet:

@odultoy Thank you so much for taking me around Shibuya to find everything exo-related. I dearly miss you already and hope you enjoy Kyocera Dome. I had so much fun the two days in Tokyo with you and hopefully we can do it again soon. (Also that udon. I still dream of it) Also, thank you thank thank tthannakanaka youuuu for helping me trade that Baekhyun hat key chain for the Sehun one. You have completed my trifecta and I can’t thank you enough <3 (also HUGE thanks for SILVER HUN. I haven’t put it up yet because I need to subtly put them up in inconspicuous places so my husband doesn’t notice haha and ALSO FOR THE NANA NYLON MAGGGG) 

@causekpop YOU. LADY. ARE THE BEST. Thank you so much for protecting me the second day of concert. I had so much fun meeting you and cheering you and PCY ON. AND YESSSS. HE RETURNED YOUR LOVE AND IT WAS AMAZING. You truly made second day of concert so much fun and I’m so glad I got to sit next to you and see you melt over PCY. Wish we could’ve hung out more but there’s always next time! 

@thesammtimes SAMM! I loved meeting you and your son. I hope he enjoyed all the Kai merch I kept getting hahaha. Thank you so much for a great experience in japan and for helping me and jinny get out of con the second day. wish i could’ve went out drinking with you if it wasn’t for the shinkansen i had to get on at 6AM the next morning. let me know when you’re back in the dc area and we can go to kogiya!!! <3

@exo-one-shots ADMIN T.POT I couldn’t say goodbye to you but OMG. You made such an impression and I can honestly say you are such a lovely person. I can’t believe the global package was made up of so many tumblr writers. I love your personality and energy and I couldn’t help but look at you every time Baekhyun was around. Your love for him is so amusing and you just made me love him even more. If they have an encore concert in Korea next year---I hope I get to see you again and scream for Baek some more. I can honestly say---you have made me a bigger Byun (tae) fan <3

@pearlsandamber MARIKO! I wish I could’ve spent more time talking with you! You are such a lovely person and I’m so happy to have met you. I’m so sorry if I was terribly awkward to converse with T___T Please let me know if there’s anything I can do to help with writing? I hope some of my advice helped and I’m sorry if it didn’t. Ty ty ty for all the lovely gifts you gave me! I can’t wait to use them but I’m afraid I won’t because I hate messing up cute stationary. LIKE NOOOOO T___T

Rules: Tag 10 people you want to get to know better.

Rule #1 always post the rules. Rule #2 answer the questions the person who asked, then write 11 new ones.
Rule #3 tag 11 people then link them in the post.
 Rule #4 tell the person that tagged you that you’ve answered the questions

I’ve been tagged by causekpop! Thank you tagging me ;ω; and sorry I’m answering them a little late m(_ _)m

What’s your favourite band? the GazettE and EXO :D

If you could learn a whole new language what would it be? Korean is the next language to learn on my list >_<

Favourite song so far? Every Night by EXID Dream holiday destination? Uuuuummmmmm... travelling through East Asia! Starting from Hong Kong all the way through China and then through South Korea and then ferry to Fukuoka, Japan and travel through Kyushu upwards to Honshu and Hokkaido~ 

If you could spend a week with anyone, who would you be with and why? Probably my cousin, bowlsenpai, because we get along reaaaallyyyyyy well and we have the same interests and stuff... We’d probably spend the week road tripping and singing along to songs that are blasting out of the speakers of the car XD (srsly tho, bowlsenpai, this needs to happen!) Ideal wedding location? I’ve never really thought that far ahead... Somewhere warm and sunny...? An hour alone with your bias or a week with the whole band? A week with the whole band! Cat or dog person? I’m actually allergic to both XD But dog, because I’m more allergic to cats than dogs XD

Ice cream on a cold day or hot chocolate on a hot day? Ice cream on a cold day! Always. Ice cream.  If you could tell your bias one thing, what would it be? You are amazing! Thank you for existing! Don’t doubt yourself and your capabilities! No matter what, your fans will be behind you every second of the way♡ Make sure to eat well, drink water regularly and get ample amounts of sleep! Take care of yourself, yo! Scrunch or fold? Fold! XD

New questions~

What languages do you speak? What language would you like to learn? Do you play any musical instruments? If so, what? If not, is there an instrument you’d like to learn how to play? What super power would you want? You can only choose one! Favourite ice cream flavour? Staple clothing item? Have you ever dyed your hair?  Would you consider yourself introverted or extroverted? Favourite movie? One place you’d really like to visit? If you could eat only one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?

Sorry my questions are boring m(_ _)m