#caughtinthewaves

"I don't need to be saved!" "No, you don't... you don't need anyone... but you do deserve one.

I've never felt safe. I've always been on guard, alert, because I've always been the only one watching my back.

I just love those moments in life where the light bulb goes on over your head, where you finally connect all your problems from the present with your past . You see, subconsciously I’m much smarter than I ever realized, because I discovered early in life that my past was going to lead me to a future I didn’t want, a future where I didn’t like myself. So, instead, I did everything in my power to change my path, my future. But here’s the kicker, I did it too well, and all my fears of those negative qualities were so strong that I went too far the opposite way, and I created all new problems.

Which monsters are worse, those that hide in the dark or bask in the light. I’ve learned to fear the light more than the dark, because those that hide in the dark admit to being monsters, while those in the light pretend they are not.

Its difficult to see what society wants from you, the path it’s laid out for everyone, its difficult to turn away and recognize that the only path that matters is your own and you can build it anyway you want.

I don’t know how to be vulnerable, I’ve never had the chance, never given myself that option. I have an armour and its how I’ve managed to exist, it's kept me strong, I’ve made it through everything… this is how I’ve survived, I know no other way

Independent to a Fault