#casterph

If you only had a fucking clue, On how much I'd choose to stay, For everything we felt was true; But we're left with no other way.

Thoughts in the back of our mind, Did really drive us both crazy. But we choose to be blind, Over things; we cared deeply.

If only we chose to fight, On anything that's been through, Everything might have felt right; And nothing would ever be this blue.

If only I could scream and shout, And express how I feel over you, But all I can ever do is write my heart out, Knowing both of us; didn't want to pursue.

I am not the girl you typically fall in love with.

And that's a fact you can't getaway from.

Now that you have came to know me, escape while you still have the chance. Get away. Run as far as you could. Keep the farthest distance as possible. Because I am the type of girl you never would want to put your interest in. You may think that the river is too shallow for your amusement. You may be wrong or right, but I would still push you away, no matter what. I won't ever let you pass any of the gates and bridges I've put my all life with, for it may burn before you can even get out alive, and in by that time, I know that, whether it is your fault or not, you're going to blame me for your hopeless travail. That one thing I told you to be careful for. But now that you still have time to spare, it's not yet too late. Go.

How stupid of me to tell you that. It made you looking for more. It made you listen down to the meekest murmurs of my souls, the ones I've been intending to hide from anyone, everyone. It made you seeking my laughs and smiles. Because you thought it was beautiful. You stirred up my emotions. You disrupted my very peace. My soul. I can't tell your intention, I can't tell what you came for. But you stayed when I wanted you to leave. You cared when I asked you not to. You did things when I asked you not.

I told you to get away, haven't I? I pushed you with all the force I could ever muster, for I know that I never deserved you and neither did you, me. For we are separated like continents, worlds apart, galaxies away. I have never had trouble in hiding, but you knew where I hide, every time. You knew where to find me, every single time. And now you memorized all the details my soul has. My thoughts. My words. My heart. It's too late.

It's now or never.

"Are you in love with me?"

"I guess I'll never know."

Decisions, Not good at them, I follow my heart

I just do, Let my emotions, Run wilder than this

filled with rustling trees and a

sky that splashed auburn — there we were,

making love in your car.

you hugged me as if you never wanted to let go.

i didn’t want to let go.

“can you be mine?”, you whispered out of the blue.

“look me in the eye. ask me that again,” i replied softly.

“can you be mine? can you be my girlfriend?”

jnn.dlp ; J.D. |