#captaindextersimmons

One Song: That Man -- Caro Emerald

Two Movies: The Princess Bride, Guardians of the Galaxy

Three Shows: Agent Carter, Firefly, Avatar: The Last Airender

Four People: Hayley Atwell, James D’Arcy, Clark Gregg, Chloe Bennett (viva dumbsmash2k15)

Five Foods: pasta, cookies, carrots, pie, peaches

absolutely

3. List your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.

Wheel of Time: I always felt like I’d be a pretty good Perrin. I don’t like change or responsibility and oh lordy don’t be looking for me to make the first move.

Red Vs Blue: Probably Tucker because I’m a shitbag but I’m becoming less of one also dirty jokes

All my other fandoms are so minor but I’ll chuck another one or two out there

Old Kingdom series: I’ve always been Lirael. She’s an introvert, extremely bookish, but a gosh darn amazing hero person who I’d like to be like

yea idk what else to do that people would recognize I like a lot of things

4. Do you like your name? Is there another name you think would fit you better?

Yea I’m very happy with my name, don’t really think I’d ask for another one.

15.Five most influential books over your lifetime.

Fuck now this is a hard question because there’s so many different angles. Like I have books that have just been really meaningful to me, others that have been fun and just seen me through bad times, and still more that legitimately changed my outlook on life.

The Old Kingdom series by Garth Nix has to be on here. It’s been something I’ve loved at so many stages of my life and still love to this day. Sabriel and Lireal are my idols. I’ve probably read it or listened to it a dozen times. His other stuff is great as well and saw me through bad times, but this series in particular is probably why I love fantasy to this day. It’s hard to distinguish ‘favourite’ from ‘influential’

The Belgariad/Mallorean by David Eddings were so very important to me in highschool of all times. They’re tropey and cheesy and generic as it can get, but one line from the final book really changed me in a way I couldn’t have expected. “Isn’t better to forgive than to hate.” See, such a cheesy line. But I saw so cynical and hateful at the time that it was like a blow to the head where I realized being toxic like that, the only thing it did was make ME feel terrible and make me become unapproachable.

The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula Le Guin. This is like a go-to assumption when considering feminist sci-fi, but that doesn’t make it any less important. It wasn’t so much life-changing as inspiring, showing me a different world with different assumptions all the while telling a meaningful story without preaching a sermon to me.

I’m having a hard time deciding my self two because they’re probably ones from my childhood that were great them, but may not hold up now (like Edding’s stuff). The Noble Warrior trilogy was definitely one, I’d say, as it was an ending that really left me thinking. Ugh. I just want to say Epic Fantasy in general for the final book. This has a strong leaning to Branderson and Wheel of Time because epic fantasy has completely changed how I think about other people. Seeing through so many points of views, it makes me (I hope) be so much more mindful of other people and why they act the way they do, and how I’m affecting that.

16. If you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?

Nope nope nope nope nope. Everything about who I am in my current state is a direct result of my interactions with others around me. There is something underlying that affects what clicks with me, but the exposure to those things that click would not be the same. 

The most obvious example, I think, would be my introduction to Runescape. Almost a decade ago I first played the game casually with school friends, but its real importance doesn’t come for another four or five years. I meet online friends, and become really close with them so when I was finally hit my depression and had pushed away every real life friend I had, I still found a support net in that game. Even further, it’s why I like Symphonic Rock, it’s why I like Hardstyle, it’s why I like Indie it’s why I like anime, it’s even when I quit the game, I was never alone when it matter. Of course, real life circumstances have changed for the better, but that doesn’t change how that single inciting incident of playing that online game might even be why I’m still alive.

And where would I be without my books that my mom picked up for me?

Everything about who I am has come in the form of another’s action.

Like how Kaitlyn you keep getting me into these god damn hellholes of fandoms god why WHYYYY

17. Would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?

Without You - Rent (i don’t know what’s up with the musicals today; I listen to other music i swear)

The stars gleamThe poets dream

The crowds roarThe days soar

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“I’m just gonna go read a book until my exam I think and probably order...”

Sounds like a perf night tbh-- good luck!!!!!! We should celebrate when you're done!!!!!!

captaindextersimmons said: But at what cost man at what cost. Mostly being relaxed is gunna help dude– do you have anything you can do that eases your tension??