#capris frog

A couple things I read and watched yesterday helped me become more aware just how much my plushes have become an emotional support throughout trauma over my lifetime. It's not like I didn't know it was a coping mechanism, but I don't think I comprehended how much I've emotionally retreated or how some things have effected me since childhood.

However, despite what some people might think, I believe it's a healthy way to cope, as long as it doesn't result in hoarding, debt, or interfering with my life in some other way. I'm proud of myself for making the conscious choice to help myself and have intentional emotional outlets like plushes, art, and music.

After experiencing not great stuff being out in the world after becoming visibly disabled, going out has become a great source of anxiety, even on the rare days I feel well enough. Having a plush with me gives me a buffer, an emotional sink.

heating pad, compression, no heating pad, less compression, heating pad, meds, no compression, compression, ice pack, less compression... everyday it's mostly the same song with the measures in different orders. Da capo al coda, senza la coda, senza il fine.

I'm no longer as bothered by the pain--it's everything else. The pain is a symptom to the larger scope of the disease that few want to treat. Having to constantly dig myself out of quicksand a doctor should treat is getting old. As long as I can avoid the ER, though, I'm grateful.

As always, the staff was very kind and helpful. This was my first time adopting an unstuffed BaB online. I didn't learn until recently they will stuff or re-stuff BaBs you already own. That's so neat! Buying them unstuffed didn't particularly appeal to me previously, but I can see how it's useful when doing so used for cleanliness purposes, especially if one is a bit older.

I didn't have a vision for who Capris would be before I found their outfit. I hadn't noticed this amazing two piece set online, and it was a fantastic surprise in store. It feels a little late 80s/early 90s, kind of a Vaporwave, sitting by a pool vibe, right? It immediately made me think of Capris Sun and also for some reason that men's cologne that was unnaturally blue?

Capris is definitely a chill, summer frög who listens to a lot of City Pop and drinks fruity beverages. That's my read so far.

I also totally forgot to post about Quilt, my Hoppy Colors/"Color Block," when I got them the other week! I adore both Quilt and Capris equally. Bubbles, the Spring Pink was the first, maybe a couple years ago or less(?), and Esther followed not long after. That reminds me--I need to figure out their birthdays!

I keep track of my all my plushies' names in a note app, and then I slowly transfer their info into a database I created a while back. I'm super behind on it, but it's so helpful! I input where they are from, what type of plush they are, etc, and I save a photo of them in it for reference. I highly recommend it!