#calledout

me:

“Thus says The Lord God: Beloved children, I am calling you out. From the midst of your countrymen, from the midst of your peers and kindred, even from the midst of all these churches of men, I am calling you out, that you may be separate, that you may be set apart in truth, a lowly people who wait upon The Lord with joy and trembling. Yet My people will not come out, nor will they stay separate. For they do not hate the company of evildoers, and at the table of the wicked they sit at ease. Yet The Lord your God has shown you the Way. Even I have provided this lamp for your feet, lest you should stumble and fall into a pit. For thick clouds gather, darkness descends and covers the earth, yet you will not believe.” Excerpt from: https://www.thevolumesoftruth.com/I_Am_Calling_You_Out!_(Part_1)

Also see ANSWERS ONLY GOD CAN GIVE: - Come Out of the Churches of Men: https://answersonlygodcangive.com/I_Am_Calling_You_Out#Come_Out_of_the_Churches_of_Men_-_Section_One

Video/Playlist:

other people i know were like "my top song was streamed 50 times"

But…

I may be identifying with the main character a bit too much. I read some quotes to my therapist today and we both were laughing so hard because, yikes, this book called me out and its hilarious. And I’m only on page 79.

Here are some quotes so far that hit a little too close to home, or directly threw a rock into the window of the home:

“I felt my existence was tainted, in some subtle but essential way.” (Did’t share THAT w/ my therapist)

“I am nothing in my soul if not obsessive.” (Hahaha! Um, I’m autistic Richard so it’s called a Special Interest… Does anyone else think that RIchard Papen would be on the spectrum???)

And this abbreviated quote that sums up this last half of the year:

“I suppose I was only a little depressed, now the novelty of it had worn off… I thought I was sick, though I don’t believe I really was; I was just cold all the time and unable to sleep, sometimes no more than an hour or two a night.” (Though, I ended up actually being sick and having reactions to the meds i was on, but still. If you have depression, the novelty does wear off some days and its just more annoying than anything.)

And then I read this, and never felt more called out by a book in my life. Richard decided to read his favorite novel, The Great Gatsby, to make himself feel better but:

“…of course, it only made me feel worse, since in my own humorless state I failed to see anything except what i construed as certain tragic similarities between Gatsby and myself.” (… That’s what I was doing with Richard Papen, and I was starting to get concerned. But it is making me feel better now because it was so on point that it has to be hilarious. Luckily, Richard and I aren’t totally alike.)

But still

Me at the Passport Office: I wasn't 1000% positive what to bring even though I read the requirements like 50 times so I brought everything. And copies in color and b&w. In triplicate...

Passport Lady: ... Do you work in the government?

Me: ... Yes. Yes I do.