#cagedindarkness

..I’ve put my mind through absolute constant chaos battling all the negativity that came from all the others that surrounded me daily, that I never gave myself a moment to recuperate. In fear that if I took a second to let my mind rest, that the negativity would be able to seep inside my mind and poison everything that makes me who I am.

Not realizing that never allowing my mind to rest has drove it past the point of exhaustion. Which has made me fall weak enough mentally and emotionally that now I believe every bad thing that happens or has happened to me was deserved. All the things that I’ve been fighting to just ignore or forget, all the things I thought I knew I was not, All the things that has been tugging at my emotions and ripping at my heart strings, every bad, hurtful memory that replays over and over in my mind, all of it has made its way to taking over my mind..

Entrapping every bit of fight & whatever was left of my hope & faith. My light is fading and my sanity is caged with whatever else remains inside me. My beliefs about who I am and what I am and what my worth is, all of that plus more has been ultimately twisted by the the amount of pain I’ve endured & not allowed myself to deal with properly. How could I do that do myself?”

I have let the cold, empty, bitterness of the world and the people in this world, Touch the major parts of my soul. Thinking I would never allow such things damage me so deeply that I am forever dramatically changed. In the aspects of - I’ve lost those parts & pieces of who I am & loved so much… forever.

My mind and who I used to be is lost in this chaos, & I’m unsure if this is a war I will get to speak about one day with the result of it all being that I had won. All the long years of tears and betrayal and being on my own, teaching myself the Do’s and Dont’s & how to survive in a world full of leaches and purana… all those years was worth fighting through because I defeated everything that was made to destroy me…

I’m unsure of where I should go from here… My mind is caged and It longs for the day it is able to claim victory & Escape..”

I know a certain Dark Slayer...

“I know her too. Dark, dirty and delicious. Luci likey.”

Why she was locked down in the dark dingey basement of some second-grade hunter’s base or whatever it was, was beyond Lucifer’s understanding. And yet, he didn’t much more. All that mattered to him was that he and no one else had found her.

He’d managed to get her hands and legs free with a simple wave of his hand and a pinch of his angelic power. But there seemed to be a collar around her neck that was magic resistant or something because it didn’t want to budge. “What’s this? Brows furrowed, he carefully wrapped his fingers up and under the collar to further examine. There was some kind of magical trace on it, but it didn’t want to reveal all its secrets just yet. Not even to a being as old and ancient and powerful as Lucifer. “I mean, I would ask your buddy upstairs, but he’s kinda redecorating the walls with his innards, so...” He gave a casual shrug. “Guess it’s just me and you to figure this one out, Red.”

          WHETHER SHE SHOULD HAVE BEEN RELIEVED OR TERRIFIED WAS THE QUESTION OF THE CENTURY. One could only be so glad, when their former murderer found them, after all, rescued them. Lucifer, the source of countless of her nightmares. Of billions of her terrors. There would he be lurking in every shadow, in every chamber of her brain waiting for the perfect chance to make his appearance. And now, in the condition she was currently in -restrained, incapable of defending herself, attacking him-, Lucifer was the frosting on the cake -the last straw-.

cell transfers happened, they were occasional happenstances as to when others could not be locked up together without the staff running wild in their attempt to soothe the inhabitants of this place. but it was only fate’s very cruel way to put crowley - the self proclaimed new King of this place in the same cell as its former monarch. at first he would’ve claimed this match-up had been a mistake - bureaucracy gone wild, but extensive complaints had only merely rattled the guards.