Angel - Episode 5.11 â Damage
Precursor - I wrote about the fifth season of Angel many years ago - probably around the time that the season 8 comics were first being published. I originally published these meta essays over on LiveJournal and I've decided to re-post them (as written), mostly for archival reasons. I love season 5 of Angel. It's such a shame it got axed before it could get the envisioned 6th and 7th series
Once upon a time there was a little girl called Dana. She was a nice, normal little girl with a nice, normal life. But when she was ten years old her family was brutally murdered. Dana was abducted, imprisoned for months on end during which time she was abused and tortured by the killer. Somehow, she managed to escape but she was never the same again. She was damaged beyond repair. The kindest thing that could be done for Dana was to put her in an institution and keep her sedated to give her poor, tormented soul some peace. Somewhere, deep in her numbed brain, she dreamed. She dreamed dreams of girls and monsters and heroics and death. Those dreams stayed locked inside. She was safe in her tranquilised refuge; safe from monsters and murderers and molesters andâŠdreams. She was safe for fifteen years. And then, suddenly, things changed. . . Damage is an episode about consequences, seen and unseen. Itâs about the past, present and future colliding, intersecting, converging, reminding us of the influence each one exerts over the other, of choices made, of roads taken, of regrets, of mistakes and how we are complex products of these interactions. As Darla once said with great effect:
âWhat we once were informs all that we have become.â
Damage opens with a minor crisis at a psychiatric ward. There has been a mix-up with the medication; Phillip has been given Thorazine, a sedative, instead of his usual Lithium. The doctor on call wants to know who got the Lithium by mistake. His question is answered by the sound of crashing and banging coming from one of the rooms. The banging stops. With the silence the doctor and nurses breathe a sigh of relief. It's short lived. At the far end of the corridor a door is thrown violently off its hinges to reveal a crazed young woman, breathing heavily and looking menacing. She walks from her cell towards the doctor and his assistants. They back off; keen to get away from the dangerous patient. The girl sees a hypodermic syringe in the doctorâs hand, senses danger and attacks. She punches and orderlies as the doctor retreats. A guard tries to retaliate but makes no impact on the girl. She sees a surgical implement, a saw, on a nearby trolley; she grabs it and cuts purposefully into the neck of one of the men. The clearly audible cracking and crunching of the bone and cartilage leaves no doubt, she has decapitated him. With bloodied fingers she ritualistically draws five lines down her face. Itâs primitive and brutal.
Gunn walks the corridor of Wolfram and Hart like he owns the place, cell phone glued to his ear, legalistic jargon rolling off his tongue. Heâs confident, Ăber confident; so confident that heâll take on the District Attorney to win his case. Fred wonders if this is wise, but hey, whatâs a D.A. compared to the power of Wolfram and Hart? Gunn was given the power of knowledge by the firm and heâs proving himself the most adept of the former Angel Investigations team at embracing, not only the gift but the opportunity that the move to Wolfram and Hart afforded. He tells Fred that half the cases that cross their desks are settled on the golf course and never see the inside of a courtroom:
Fred: Nine holes instead of a jury of your peers. Just what the founding fathers had in mind. Gunn: Well, sometimes you gotta work the system before it works you
And Gunnâs certainly working the system. Not for him are trivial ideals such as the constitutional right to legal voice and the principles of democracy. Heâs got power; he made a choice to use it. But still he feels the need to defend his belief, his faith in what they are doing:
>Gunn:Â Look, I know our move to Wolfram & Hart hasn't been all flowers and candy, but we've been able to do some serious good while we're here. Lives saved, disasters averted, with all our fingers and souls still attached. End of the day, I'm thinking we made the right choice.
Some serious good, even if the rules have to be bent to achieve it. For Gunn, the end justifies the means. But Angelâs not so sure. Heâs back to thinking they made a mistake in coming here. The events of Soul Purpose have got him wondering, thinking, got him looking inward and not liking what he sees. Got him questioning why they are there â yet again. And yet again he canât enlighten his team. That would necessitate a rather awkward explanation. Leading to all kinds of âyou did what to our memories?!â But the truth is safe for the moment. They are all too preoccupied with Eve and her suspected betrayal to question Angel about his concerns with their tenancy at Wolfram and Hart. The rest of the team wants her fired, canât believe that Angel hasnât done it already. Gunn warns against such rash action using lawyer-talk words like âallegedâ and âevidenceâ and the promise of a long bloody fight with her if they make a premature move. And that hits home. Sheâs not the ideal person to let loose with a burning grudge. She knows a thing or two about Angel and his awkward secret that he really doesnât want to become public knowledge, ever. He concedes that Gunnâs safely-safely approach is their only option. Harmony breaks into the deliberations with news of an escapee from a psychiatric hospital. Itâs of concern to Wolfram and Hart because of the suspicion that the patient in question is demonically possessed. Theyâve had a few of these cases before, it requires finesse, so Angel will handle it. He goes to the hospital alone to assess the situation.Â
At the hospital two lifts open in perfect unison to reveal not only Angel in one, but Spike in the other. It is a great analogy for the rest of the episode and indeed Spike and Angel themselves, arriving at the same destination from very different routes⊠but more on that later. The coincidence makes Spike laugh and wonder if Angel is checking himself in after the little parasite messed with his brain. Angel finds no humour in the situation:
Angel: What are you doing here Spike? Spike: Didn't get the memo? Hero of the people now. Angel: Oh, then go and annoy them. Spike: When I'm done. Heard one of the simples went for a stroll. Angel: And I'll get her back without your help. Spike: Goody for you, 'cause, uh, not offering it. Angel: Look, shouldn't you be out in the streets, you know, protecting the city from people like you? Spike: Go where I'm needed. Angel: Well, which isn't here.
In just five lines of dialogue Angel manages to speak five phrases of dismissal to Spike. He makes it patently clear that he doesnât want his wayward âgrandchildâ anywhere in the vicinity of his person, has no faith in his ability to do the job and expresses his doubt that Spike has changed at all. Despite his best-efforts Angel fails in his objective. Spike stubbornly stays though now with a freshly fueled desire to prove the old bastard wrong. Again. They both get shown the escapeeâs room. The walls are covered with child-like drawings of monsters and beasts, many of whom are being confronted by a lone girl. The doctor explains the circumstances of the case:
Doctor: She was a special case. Her family was murdered in their home when she was 10. Whoever did it took Dana... and tortured her for months. She was found one day naked and bleeding, wandering the streets. Barely functional, nearly catatonic ever sinceâŠ. Several months ago her condition changed. Increasing levels of agitation accompanied by explosive outbursts of inhuman strength.
Spike decides on demon possession as the likely explanation (although why he doesn't hit on the obvious answer is a bit frustrating, character-wise). The doctor ridicules the suggestion, and Angel agrees that heâs not helping, consequently Spike rushes off with no forethought as to what heâs actually going to do, just determination to find the girl, to show Angel what heâs made of, the impetuousness of youth in action. Angel is not so easily satisfied. Experience tells him thereâs more to know and he wants the full story and he needs to help her, because sheâs a little girl robbed from her family, taken into hell, deranged by the experience. To Angel, at this moment, sheâs not Dana, sheâs Connor, lost and needing to be rescued. It cuts too close to home.Â
One of the nurses turns out to be a fount of information. It seems that the doctor has videotaped all his sessions with Dana and sheâs only too happy to show him if it means she can get her foot in the door at Wolfram and Hart, thatâs why she tipped them off in the first place.Â
As Angel watches videos, Dana stands in a grocery store eating cakes straight from the packet. The clerk tells her, quite nicely, that sheâll have to pay for them, but Dana has no patience for the interference. She grabs his arm and twists it obscenely until it breaks, sending the unsuspecting boy to his knees in pain. Completely immune to the fact that sheâs just maimed the store clerk, Dana walks over to the clothes section. She selects jeans and a black t-shirt. Looking at the t-shirt triggers a flashback, a memory of a man also wearing a black t-shirt, walking past a cringing little girl, walking to a tool bench, looking at various, bloodied implements, choosing a saw, standing over the little girl with the promise of threat and menace. An armed security guard corners Dana, points his gun at her nervously. He doesnât want to hurt her. Dana has no such compunction. As soon as she feels threatened, she reacts. Itâs instinctive. Trouble is she hasnât the capacity to distinguish between help and harm. And as she leaves the supermarket wearing her freshly appropriated clothing, we see that her saw, the one she took from the hospital, is covered in fresh blood. We donât think the security guard survived his encounter with Dana.Â
On the doctorâs videotapes are recordings of Dana during her therapy sessions. Sheâs wild and uncontrollable, so much so that sheâs straight jacketed. She spews forth frenzied, unintelligible rants in a multitude of languages. Sheâs like a caged animal. She does seem possessed. Then they come to a segment that Angel understands; itâs Romani. He understands it all too well and it brings enlightenment, helps him understand what they are dealing with. So, Dana morphs again, metaphorically speaking. No longer his relinquished son, suddenly sheâs taking him further back, right back to a Gypsy girl, to a curse and the very beginnings of âAngelâ as opposed to âAngelusâ and sheâs why he has to do what he does. Make amends, balance the scales. Sheâs the embodiment of victims' past â every single one of them.Â
The police have swarmed to the supermarket. Ambulances are in attendance too. But there is no sign of Dana, just the bloody mess she left behind. Spike arrives, assesses the scene quickly, surreptitiously drops to the pavement, touches the blood, inhales the scent and walks away. Heâs got vampire senses and heâs not afraid to use them. Angel takes a much more detached approach. He calls Wesley, orders back-up; a âtechnical assault teamâ with a ânon-lethal ordinanceâ. Angel has Wolfram and Hart resources and heâs not afraid to use them. Was there ever any other way?
But Spike finds her faster - wants to fight the demon out of the poor, mistreated little girl. He slips into game face, which as it turns out was not the best move to make. Angel reveals to Wesley that Dana is not possessed, sheâs not a demon, in the videos she was yelling about being chosen. Sheâs a vampire slayer.Â
Dana looks at Spike and smiles; itâs a little maniacal sure, but it exudes confidence. Heâs toast. She has no fear. She was born to kill these fiends. Sheâs a slayer. Spike and Dana fight. He still thinks heâs trying to get a demon to appear. But she knows the rules. She grabs a splinter of wood and tries to plunge it into his chest. He grabs her hand and prevents the piercing. She speaks to him in Chinese, words heâs heard before. He even replies with the exact same words he used over one hundred years ago, âSorry love, I donât speak Chineseâ, but still he doesnât realise, doesnât make the connection with what has gone before. He doesnât realise that heâs been thrust back in time and is fighting his slayer from the Boxer Rebellion all over again. This one has a different outcome. Spike ends up being thrown out a window, landing with a thud and a shower of glass on the concrete below as Angel finally arrives on the scene.
Somewhere between that alley and the Wolfram and Hart office Angel tells Spike exactly what the problem is; a psychotic slayer:
Angel: And you let her get away. Spike: At least I was trying to stop her. Angel: Oh, how'd that work out? Spike: At least I know the game, now, don't I? I killed two slayers with my own hands. Think I can handle one that's gone daft in the melon.Â
Those slayers are still his claim to fame, even with the soul. They are something that even the great Angelus canât boast. Once it was about killing them, chasing the most challenging fights, fights with no certainty of victory, for the sheer thrill. Now heâs saying he can find Dana because he knows slayers; knows them better than Angel. But Angel doesnât want his help:
Angel: You're not handling anything, Spike. OK? Wes contacted Rupert Giles. He's sending his top guy to retrieve her
Notice that word âretrieveâ - âHe's sending his top guy to retrieve herâ, weâll come back to that later too. They enter the conference room. Wesley, Gunn, Fred and Lorne are already assembled. Oh, and Rupert Gilesâ âtop guyâ is none other than Andrew, one time third of the evil trio who was reluctantly adopted into Buffyâs gang after he expressed willingness to alter his wicked ways. Andrew spins around in his swivel chair and is stunned to see Spike. Heâs happy to see Spike . . . okay ecstatic might be more accurate:
Andrew: Spike? It's you. It's really you! My therapist thought I was holding onto false hope, but... I knew you'd come back. You're like... you're like Gandalf the White, resurrected from the pit of the Balrog, more beautiful than ever. Ohh... he's alive, Frodo. He's alive.Â
Andrew holds Spike in an emotional embrace, touches his face in awe and wonder then hugs him again and Spike ⊠lets him. No words of rejection, no words designed to humiliate. Oh sure, Spikeâs a little discomfited by this public display of affection but he doesnât tell Andrew to stop. He endures it with good grace. Angel watches all this closely, with a guarded expression on his face. Here he is forced to see another perspective of Spike via someone who loves and values him, who is happy that he has managed to defy the ultimate death. And it has to be said, the comparison to Gandalf from the Lord of the Rings trilogy is priceless. Gandalf, a hobbit loving wizard, prone to bad habits that prevented his ascension to higher status until the sacrifice of his life to save his companions allows him to finally move from âgreyâ to âwhiteâ. That someone, (including by implication Buffy) might view Spike as this glorious is strange and disturbing to Angel. Itâs yet another contradiction to his staunchly held belief that Spike is incapable of change and that the whole âgoodâ Spike is nothing but a charade. Additionally, itâs also a little bit more confirmation of all those subconscious fears he's been feeling - fears of irrelevancy, failure, fears heâs been battling since he made the deal with Wolfram and Hart, that were exacerbated by Spikeâs big comeback. Andrew, of course, wants to know how this is possible, but Angel, not wanting to be reminded of Spikeâs other claim to fame, tells them to save the trip down memory lane for later.Â
Andrew, ever the storyteller, gives the group the low down on slayer mythology. Nothing they didnât already know, except for a deeper explanation of the phenomenon of slayer dreams (as shown in the original film of Buffy the Vampire Slayer)Â and how potential slayers experience vivid dreams of the heroics of slayers past as preparation for the possibility of becoming the one and only Chosen One. Dana is therefore at the mercy of her dreams. She has no capacity to separate fantasy from reality, dream slayers from herself, past from present.Â
Andrewâs approach to Angel and his people does him no favours. He adopts his storytelling persona, imparts information that is known, cheekily denigrates Wesley and his ex-watcher status. It is quite clear that he is not Gilesâ âtop guyâ and Team Angel must suspect that they have been fobbed off with a substitute. Angel is openly sarcastic while the others snicker and roll their eyes at his antics. Lorne gets the discussion back on track by asking:
Lorne: Uh, wait. So if there's only one slayer, what is little miss whack-your-head-off doing scampering around?Â
But hang on, didnât Lorne spend a good portion of the season four episode âOrpheusâ (A4.15) nursing Faith, a second vampire slayer, as she fought the effects of a powerful demon drug? Is this forgetfulness a consequence of the memory wipe or an inelegantly phrased inquiry as to Faithâs possible demise? (Or, the short memory of the script writer?) To answer the question, âLittle Sunnydale surpriseâ Spike supplies with a nod of his head towards Andrew, encouraging him to continue with his tale:
Andrew: Six months ago, Buffy, Vampyr Slayer extraordinaire, had her lesbian witch make with the beaucoup de magie. One light show later... Angel: All the potentials become slayers.Â
It is open to interpretation as to whether Angel knew about the âSunnydale surpriseâ beforehand. If his words are read as completing Andrewâs explanation then, he does indeed already know about it but has failed to share this information with anybody in his team, not even Wesley, who as a former Watcher would naturally be interested in such a huge development. If his words are translated as anticipating the rest of Andrewâs sentence, then this means that he didnât know and that heâs only learning about it now along with everybody else. This would also mean that Buffy hadnât told him - Told him about Spikeâs demise, but not about the expansion of the sisterhood. Either way, kinda big details are being left out by somebody. Wesley is full of admiration for the strategy describing it as âbrilliantâ. But then by wondering how hundreds of slayers could possibly receive their proper training without the aid of the Watcherâs Council betrays his stance on how the Watcher-Slayer dynamic should work. Once a WatcherâŠ
But Wes need not worry; Mr. Giles and a few key Sunnydale alumni have been busy rounding up the recently chosen. Andrew claims Dana is an anomaly that no one could have foreseen but thatâs not strictly true. Surely the possibility that not every potential was equipped for a life of Slayerdom should have occurred to them? During season seven of Buffy the potentials that arrived at Revello Drive came from very different spheres of life, different circumstances. Transfer this to a world scale, post-empowerment and it is not only possible, but indeed likely that some chosen ones would have problems or issues that make them unsuitable for the duty. And, hey, does anyone remember an âanomalyâ called Faith? Surely her history alone made the possibility of a âDanaâ or others like her a realistic consideration.Â
What we are really seeing here is the consequences of the Sunnydale spell. In season seven, Buffy came up with the idea of empowering the potentials as a last resort. She had a mission and thatâs all that mattered. Her need was immediate. Magically activating the Potentials allowed her to wage war on behalf of the world. She gave a stirring speech, offered them a choice, and gave them power. That was fine for the girls who were there, in the living room with Buffy but the spell was far more far reaching, affecting girls all over the world and therefore so are the consequences. Dana is one exploration of this, âThe Chain'' written by Joss Whedon (Dark Horse Comics, Season 8, #5) is another in which the unnamed Slayer specifically says she didnât get a choice, she got chosen. The empowerment spell was not all cake and ice-cream because, as Spike once warned, there are always consequences with magic. Unfortunately for Dana, the result of the empowerment is that sheâs no longer an innocent victim, kept quiet and safe in her hospital ward, now she is a murderer, a super strong killer with no moral boundaries. Her power has allowed her to choose (with her impaired capabilities) not to be weak, but in doing so she chooses to use that strength to kill.Â
So, when they put all the information together, Danaâs sudden awakening, the super strength, the dreams, the languages, the instinctual ability, it all makes perfect sense:
Spike: Explains why that skirt was yapping at me in Chinese. Must've thought she was the slayer I took out back in the Boxer Rebellion.
Causing Angel to take a pot shot from his vantage point way, way up on the high moral ground:Â
Angel: You mean the slayer you murdered.Â
Like heâs innocent of heinous crimes just because he hasnât killed a slayer! Itâs like the proverbial pot calling the kettle black. And one might argue that in the case of slayers, at least Spike went for targets that knew the score, could fight back, defend themselves, and had a better than average chance of actually winning. And for Spike, with the risk came the thrill. Not like Angelus who chose his victims for entirely different purposes. Different routes, same objective, even when they were evil. Spike excuses his past actions by virtue of the fact that he didnât have a soul then to which Angel replies:
Angel: Right, 'cause having one now is making such a difference
Itâs the ultimate insult. The denigration of his hard-won soul is too much for Spike to take and once again, Angelâs slur drives him from the room. He leaves the corporates to it, determined to get the job done himself. To his credit, Angel seems to realise that heâs gone too far. He follows Spike into the foyer to stop his rash departure, arguing that they are the last two people who should be confronting Dana because she is a slayer who doesnât understand the existence of good Vampyrs, and that she exists solely to kill their kind:
Spike:Â Dance of death. Eternal struggle. Right. Got it.
Heâs danced this dance before; itâs all heâs ever done.Â
Angel: You will...when she's staking you in the heart.Â
And if we suspected it before, thought we sensed the echo, now weâre certain. A conversation had in a mineshaft over a hundred years before still resonates with meaning and significance all the way here in the twenty-first century:
Spike: Yeah, you know what I prefer to being hunted? Getting caught. Angelus: That's a brilliant strategy really... pure cunning. Spike: Sod off! Come on. When was the last time you unleashed it? All out fight in a mob, back against the wall, nothing but fists and fangs? Don't you ever get tired of fights you know you're going to win? Angelus: No. A real kill. A good kill. It takes pure artistry. Without that, we're just animals.
The threat of a stake doesnât deter the impetuous Spike. He quickly corrects Angelâs misconception that he doesnât know what heâs dealing with:Â
Spike: What do you want me to do? Go all boo-hoo 'cause she got tortured and driven out of her gourd? Not like we haven't done worse back in the day. Angel: Yeah, and it's something I'm still paying for. Spike: And you should let it go, mate. It's starting to make you look old
One canât get his eyes off the victims, only with the soul they afford no pleasure; it translates into infinite remorse, it drives his quest for redemption. The other canât spare a backward glance. The thrill was in the chase, the fight and besides, that guy, the one who did that bit-o-bad, he simply doesnât exist anymore, wonât return, no need to look back is there, canât change it anyway. Again, we have a situation in which Spike and Angel could learn a lesson from the other. Angel is too fixated with what he was, what he still could be. While for Spike the occasional look behind him would subdue that well practiced arrogance and increase his compassion for the helpless heâs trying to help.
Dana is down at the docks. Sheâs alone and sheâs scared and remembering the past; a dark room, a metal box, herself as a child, screaming. The memories upset her. A dock worker sees her, asks her if she needs some help. Heâs trying to help but Dana doesnât understand. At Wolfram and Hart Angel has the team on deck but its slow going:
Angel: M-maybe Spike was right. Maybe we should just get out there and find her.Â
Okay, so when Spikeâs not around Angel can admit heâs not a complete moron and also, maybe, heâs just a little bit envious, that Spikeâs out there working the streets while heâs constrained by his gilded cage. But Fred asks a pertinent question. Then what? What do they do with her once theyâve found her? It does raise the question of what Spike will do with her once he finds her; suspect he didnât think that far ahead. Heâs too determined to prove a point to think about minor details like how to restrain a psychotic vampire slayer. Even with Wolfram and Harts copious resources there is no quick fix, no way to find the girl with any precision. Lorne suggests talking to the house where it all began, Danaâs childhood home. Angel wants to get Andrew in on the plan, but he is nowhere to be found. Andrew, of course, has followed his hero.
Spike: What are you doing out here, Andrew? Andrew: This is where the action is, bro, on the mean streets. Can you dig it?Â
Spike makes one attempt to get Andrew to go away because there is no time for games, this is a serious situation, but Andrew argues that heâs changed too. Heâs stronger, faster, 82% more manly but ruins the effect by tripping over Danaâs latest victim (the unfortunate dock worker) and going to jelly.
At Danaâs house Angel and Lorne have enlisted the services of a psychic to communicate with the house. He touches the walls and feels fear, pain and anguish, sees flashes of Danaâs parents and a baby sibling being tormented and killed. He needed them to suffer. And for a fleeting moment we feel the presence of Angelus, another killer who needed his victims to suffer. They share a modus operandi. The psychic continues. He sees a flash of a little girl, trying to be invisible, silent as she hides under the bed, but the predator senses her all the same. Suddenly thereâs the shadow of a little girl in a coal bin trying to be quiet (Crush, B5.14) and do you have any idea of what heâs done to girls Dawnâs age (Never Leave Me, B7.09). Itâs not difficult to realise that Dana could be the product of Angel or Spike. That Dana is a prime example of the handy-work they used to undertake, that they were experts in the art of killing. Itâs easy to forget what they were, back in the day, but Dana reminds us. It can be uncomfortable having a couple of vampires as the central heroes of the text. But the psychic is able to provide one last pair of clues â molasses and a basement.
Dana descends some stairs to a dingy, dirty basement. Itâs a place she knows. She has returned to the scene of the crime, to where her pain lives. She goes to an old vent, removes the grill and retrieves a metal box. In the box is a collection of vials and hypodermic syringes. As she looks at the contents of the box she has a flash of memory, of a man taking a needle, preparing it for use. âLetâs try the blue one this timeâ, says her captor as he kneels before a trembling little Dana. And then we see what weâve been half expecting. Her tormentor is Spike.Â
Andrew and Spike walk along the docks and finally we get some news on the Scoobies, even if it is just a smidgen. Xander is in Africa, Willow is in Brazil. Giles is most likely in London, judging by the Union Jack on Andrewâs sandwich bag. Andrew asks what blood smells like; Spike tells him it is metallic, like sucking on a penny. But itâs not the topic of conversation thatâs interesting here, itâs the communication. Andrew asks a question, Spike answers. No sarcasm, no annoyance, just honest answers. It allows Spike to ask about the one person he really wants to know about:
Spike: So, uh...you heard from Buffy lately? Andrew: Yeah. Of course, uh...she's in Rome. Dawn's in school there. Italian school.Â
Apparently she was rounding up slayers in Italy and decided she liked it. She needed a break from California. And the other Scoobies, judging by the far-flung locations of the globe they are all residing. Then Andrew realises:
Andrew: âŠWait a minute. She doesn't know you're alive, does she? Spike: I don't think so. I mean... I don't know. Does she? Andrew: No. N-no. She can't. I mean... IâI would've heard about it. We would've had a conference call. Why haven't you told her? Spike: "Hello, Buffy. It's Spike. I didn't burn up like you thought. How are things?" Andrew: Uh...do you want me to tell her? 'Cause IâI'm really good with those...uh, delicate personalâ Spike: No. Don't tell her. I'll take care of it.
But he doesnât. Spike doesnât tell Buffy that heâs alive and other things get in the way, and weâre left with the assumption that Andrew does in fact spill the beans because by the time Spike and Buffy do come face to face once more, she knows and has known for some time (Season 8 #36/37). So, they continue to walk the mean streets together. Dana watches them from a rooftop very much as Spike did to Angel in `In the Darkâ (A1.03). The hunted has become the hunter.
So, what we really have here is a study of two relationships. Two sets of metaphorical brothers if you will. The first Angel and Spike have a long and checkered history. Itâs a relationship that has been founded on a hierarchy, a dominance-subservience dynamic that has tainted the whole connection. Itâs competitive, itâs untrusting, itâs sometimes violent. It brings out the worst in both Angel and Spike. Angel is always at his petty best, his most arrogant, his most dictatorial when Spike is in the room. And Spike, well he is just painfully obnoxious, annoying and snarky whenever Angel is in the vicinity. We know itâs just Angel that brings out these traits so profoundly. The writers have been at pains to show us this. His dealings with other people, with Fred, with Pavaynne, with Eve, with Lindsey and with Andrew demonstrate this. When heâs interacting with others, good, bad or indifferent, then we get to see the real Spike, Buffy season seven Spike. The really affecting aspect of Spike and Angelâs relationship is that, beneath the surface, beneath the cycle of rejection, vicious words and taunting there is real longing. While this is particularly obvious on Spikeâs side itâs not completely absent from Angel either. Spike longs for recognition and acceptance from Angel, wants it more than just about anything. Angelus was always a source of inspiration to the younger vampire and the addition of a soul, and a change of team hasnât changed that. But for Angel, Spike has the potential to be an ally, someone who understands what it means to be a vampire with a soul in this world of evil. He is a source of hope that the demon inside can be defeated, he is a son to be proud of, heâs a legacy⊠and yet, Angel cannot bring himself to see anything but what was. Angel has his blinkers on and refuses to take them off, so the relationship is prevented from moving forward because of Angelâs steadfast refusal to accept that Spike has changed and acknowledge him as an equal. So instead, it stays mired in the same repetitive, unproductive pattern of butting heads, mocking and denial.Â
In complete contrast to this is the Spike and Andrew dynamic. Spike and Andrewâs relationship is of a shorter duration and is certainly not as intense as Spike and Angelâs is, but it can still teach a lesson or two. Spike first encountered Andrew when he asked Warren Mears to examine his chip in âSmashedâ (B6.09). Unbeknownst to Spike, Andrew, Jonathan and Warren had recently decided to team up to become super villains and take over Sunnydale. Andrew made no impact on Spike whatsoever, but the vampire left a strong impression on Andy. In âEntropyâ (B6.18) when the trio see a video feed of Spike and Anya engaged in sexual intercourse, Andrewâs first observation is that Spike is âso coolâ. Later when heâs doing the First Evilâs bidding in âSleeperâ (B7.08) he dresses like Spike to build confidence, long leather duster and all. In âNever Leave Meâ (B7.09), Spike, himself under the influence of the First, takes a great hulking chunk out of Andrewâs neck. For the remainder of the season, they are two of the many house guests at Revello Drive, Andrew as a âguestageâ and Spike as the basement dwelling vampire in residence. In Empty Places (B7.19) they are sent on a covert mission together to find out more about the evil Caleb. Where others at the house lose patience with Andrew easily, Spike displays tolerance and fortitude (except when it is finally exhausted by a not very inspiring game of 'I Spy'). There is a lot of sub-textual empathy there too. Both know what it is like to be rejected, outsiders on the periphery of the Scoobies. Andrew lives vicariously through popular culture and Spike, the television addict, gets all those references, understands why he does it â he just keeps his inner geek on a much tighter leash than Andrew does. You see, in Andrew, Spike sees his human-self reflected. Andrew is what William would have been had he been born 150 years later. Where William expressed himself through bad poetry, so Andrew expresses himself through analogy with comics and films; each is a geek, but one that is a product of their time. This connection, this similarity is particularly strong in this episode. The physical resemblance between Andrew and Spike, (in the flashbacks to 1880 in Destiny) the hair, the colouring, are too obvious to ignore. Andrew here is Spikeâs metaphorical little brother and Spike could give Angel a lesson on how this brother thing is done. Patience, kindness, acceptance, honesty; these are the things that productive relationships are based on and Spike and Andrew show it.
Angel is back at the office and believes the key to finding Dana is to know more about her abductor, his name, his past, his whereabouts. Meanwhile Andrew and Spike have followed the trail of Dana into a dead end. Dana appears, knocks Spike aside and as Andrew is about to shoot her with a tranquiliser dart, knocks him out cold with a swift kick. Dana turns tail and runs out of the alley. Spike gets to his feet and chases after her. Dana lures him into her basement. She stands on the far side of the room looking nervous, scared. Spike tells her that heâs got her scent locked in, could track her for miles. âNo escapingâ Dana observes. âNo escapingâ Spike concurs. But exactly whoâs not escaping is not so clear. No escaping for little Dana chained in the basement, no escaping for Spike who has been deliberately lured there, no escaping for slayer Dana who is a danger to herself and anyone unlucky enough to cross her path. This basement is the point of convergence for so many past events, itâs no wonder the roles get a bit confused.
In his approach to Dana Spike is surprisingly calm and gentle. He doesnât want to hurt her, he even tells Dana he used to date a girl who wasnât all there to try and gain her confidence, put her at ease. He also tries to explain why she has the visions, why sheâs confused about who she is. But Dana is beyond comprehending any of this, she has too many personas fighting for control, confusing her:
Dana: Heart...and head. Have to get home. Doesn't hurt if you hold still
She talks as the slayer she is; a slayer past; as victim; as predator. And for Spike itâs not that much better. For him Dana represents mad Drusilla, the Chinese slayer, Niki Woods and Buffy all rolled into one. All these women whoâve in some way shaped and defined who he was, challenging him to redefine who he is now. Dana recognises him as what he was:
Dana: William the Bloody. Spike: No. No. No. That's not gonna lead anywhere good. You want to focus on what's real.
You want to focus on whatâs real. Sure, itâs real enough that he killed the slayers once upon a time, but that Spike, that William the Bloody, simply doesnât exist anymore, is not real anymore. This Spike, the real Spike is trying to help her; will help her if sheâll let him. But Dana is beyond help. She repeats the actions of her abductor. She drugs Spike, chains him up and tortures him, takes him apart bit by bit all the while repeating her tormentor's words â âdonât cry, they canât hear you. Daddyâs gone. He canât hear you. Piece by piece, yellow makes you weak, brown makes you sleepy.â But then she says âCanât hurt me anymoreâ and thatâs the real Dana speaking. Sheâs trying to rewrite history, change it; make everything better.
At Wolfram and Hart they are still looking. Tactical are following the body trail but so far havenât found her so Angel orders aerial surveillance, thermal imaging in to help to find her. The team decides to look at old city maps, for a distillery that might account for the smell of molasses. But none of it is necessary. Andrew appears:
Andrew: We were attacked. I think she got him. I think she got Spike.
Spike wakes. He is groggy but not confused. He knows that Dana has done something to him, though heâs not sure what. Dana still parrots her abuser telling Spike that if he stays quiet sheâll let him go. Sheâs holding her trusty saw again, looking a bit confused:
Dana: Losing all your pieces. Not weakâŠ.Can't touch me anymore.
Spike lifts his arms to reveal that his lower arms and hands have been sawn off. This is vengeance pure and simple. Dana has been wronged and, by sheer luck she was granted the power to fight back, to get revenge on the man who destroyed her. Now sheâs able to fight back against her childhood weakness, against the fact that she was powerless:
Dana:Â No more daddy... no more mommy... no more hands. Can't touch me ever again.
But Spike doesnât know what sheâs talking about. He never touched her and he tells her so. Dana punches him for his insolence:
Spike: Stop. Stop. You got it wrong. Your brain's all jumbled. I never hurt you. It wasn't me. I've done my share of bad, but you're not one of 'em. It's someone else. You've got me confused with another man.
Spike admits heâs done wrong but he wonât wear the blame for Danaâs abuse. He doesnât extend to her the right of judgement, that distinction he already gave that to another slayer, while he was chained in another basement, but that slayer offered mercy and faith whereas this one can only show malice. Spike tries to explain, that her memories and dreams are mixing, confusing her. Dana seems to comprehend. She listens, has some flashes of memory of Spike carrying her across the room but that memory is replaced by another, another man carrying her exactly the same way, another man, not Spike. But she still has memories of Spike. She speaks in Chinese again.Â
Spike: Yeah. That's what you're rememberingâother slayers. Dana: You killed her. Spike: yes, but⊠Dana: You killed them both. Spike: That and worse. But I was never here.
In that moment, Dana understands, has a moment of clarity. She understands that she is not the other girls she sees in her dreams. They are separate and distinct. Now she is just a slayer and Spike is a vampire who has just made a very dangerous admission. She is a slayer and she intends to punish him for killing those girls, her sister slayers:
Dana:Â Doesn't matter! Head and heart. Keep cutting till you see dust.
Before Dana can finish him off Angel arrives and forcibly thrusts her across the room. Angel tries to reason with her:
Angel:Â Dana...look, I'm here to help you. The man who tried to hurt you? His name is Walter Kindel. He tried to rob a liquor store 5 years ago, and the police shot him. Heâhe's dead, Dana.
For Angel the all-important scales are balanced. The man who hurt Dana has received his just rewards. Heâs dead. He canât hurt her anymore. It should be simple, but itâs not. Dana is angry, sheâs not weak anymore. Sheâs strong; slayer. A slayer with no rationale for what she does or why except for personal pain and an intuitive urge to kill the monsters, kill them all... and so she attacks. She lunges at Angel and they fight. At an opportune moment Angel holds Dana tightly and signals to Wesley to pump her full of tranquilisers. Only when Dana is under control, only then does Angel look at Spike, see his predicament and instantly orders medical aid. Fred sees Spike into the ambulance. Heâs lucky; Wolfram and Hart have access to all kinds of medical procedures that will make re-attaching his hands a snap. Wesley and Angel emerge next with Dana, sedated and restrained on a gurney. Where they are taking her, what they are going to do with her is not made clear. It doesnât matter. Andrew arrives on the scene saying heâll take it from here:
Angel: What? Andrew: Totally appreciate your help on this one, big guy. Never could've found her without you, but you got enough problems of your own to worry about. Angel: Get outta the way, Andrew.Â
But, that was the deal wasnât it? Rupert Giles sent his top man to retrieve Dana, not Rupert Giles sent his top man to help catch Dana. Retrieve: to get back, regain, recover, reclaim. Angel knew this was the plan, so when did he change his mind? When he saw that Andrew was obviously not the âtop manâ promised? When he saw that Andrew loved Spike?
âSheâs one of ours, sheâs a slayerâ, Andrew says. He draws a line, divides them but Angelâs not buying it. Thatâs not how it works, Angel rescues, Angel helps the helpless. He doesnât just do the retrieval work for others, and he certainly doesnât hand them over to the likes of Andrew! But Andy has more balls than Angel gave him credit for. He wonât step down; he faces off with Angel:
Andrew: No. I don't think you... heard me, Angel. Think we're just gonna let you take her back to your evil stronghold? Well, as they say in Mexico... No. We're not...gonna... let you.Â
Angel is equally as stubborn. He refuses to turn her over voluntarily. He doesnât consider Andrew worthy or capable. But Andrew has backup. A dozen young women, slayers all, emerge from the darkness to stand behind him. Angel is still dismissive, Andyâs out of his league, doesnât know the score. Heâll just clear this with Buffy. To which Andrew delivers his knockout argument, the fatal truth:
Andrew:Â Where do you think my orders came from? News flashânobody in our camp trusts you anymore. Nobody. You work for Wolfram & Hart. Don't fool yourself... we're not on the same side. Thank you for your help... but, uh...we got it.
Now thatâs a kick in the guts he wasnât expecting. The girl, the slayer, who set him on his path, gave him direction after countless years of aimless wandering in the wilderness; Buffy doesnât trust him anymore because he works for Wolfram and Hart. Thatâs his problem. Thatâs the big problem he has to worry about. That his tenure at Wolfram and Hart has compromised him, made him untrustworthy even to those who had seemingly unshakable faith. Thatâs how far heâs come, or been taken, so far now that heâs facing in the opposite direction to Buffy and her people; theyâre on opposite sides of the line. Big problem indeed. Angel is crushed to realise it, he canât even argue. Andrew takes Dana into the care of the Chosen sisterhood.
Buffy has a very strong sub-textual presence in this episode. Andrew brings her with him when he arrives at Wolfram and Hart. Sheâs walking on the docks with Andrew and Spike too. Sheâs all Spike wants to know about, yet he wonât allow himself to reconnect. But sheâs with Spike in the basement as heâs chained up, maimed, damaged and judged. She provides a positive image to Danaâs negative. And sheâs there, bold as brass, almost tangible as she withdraws her trust from Angel. This last act caused much discussion within fan communities. Many wondered why Buffy would not help Angel when he was obviously in trouble, some even speculated that Andrew was lying, spurred on by his loyalty to Spike, and that Buffy and Angelâs relationship was business as usual. In reality, the loss of Buffyâs allegiance is not so surprising. Angel has told no one the real reason that he is at Wolfram and Hart. Heâs had memories wiped to ensure that it stays a secret. This would include anyone in Buffyâs camp who knew about Connor (Faith and Willow certainly, the others, no definitive confirmation is ever given). So as far as Buffy is concerned the fact that he is working for Wolfram and Hart, evil incorporated, makes him untrustworthy. They may suspect an ulterior motive, or a reason behind the move, but because Angel hasnât shared any information, they canât afford to take the risk. The season eight comics have revealed that Buffy is viewed as a wanted terrorist and that they are experiencing some problems with a few of the newly chosen. At this stage Buffy has to be especially careful of whom she trusts, and Wolfram and Hart are not a first-choice ally, even with Angel in charge of one division. Wouldnât the senior partners love to co-opt a few of those slayers for themselves? Very dangerous indeed. Buffy is right to be cautious and once again, we are shown the dangers, the consequences of poor communication.Â
Angel goes to the hospital and finds Spike, hands freshly reattached, in a reflective mood. He says the pain heâs experiencing is just what he deserves:
Spike: The lass thought I killed her family. And I'm supposed to what, complain 'cause hers wasn't one of the hundreds of families I did kill? ...... For a demon... I never did think that much about the nature of evil. No. Just threw myself in. Thought it was a party. I liked the rush. I liked the crunch. Never did look back at the victims.
Fist and fangs, back against the wallâŠ
And finally, Angel gives a little in return, completes the connection, tells Spike some truth about himself:
Angel:Â I couldn't take my eyes off them. I was only in it for the evil. It was everything to me. It was art. The destruction of a human being; I would've considered Dana a masterpiece.
A good kill, it takes pure artistryâŠ
What we once were informs all that we have become, yup, Darla really was onto something there. Spike asks after Dana to which Angel admits:
Angel: I don't know. Um, Andrew and the slayers took her. Didn't trust us to help her
Us? Doesnât trust us? Thatâs not strictly true, is it? It wasnât Andrew that didnât trust, it was Buffy and itâs not âusâ, itâs you. Just you Angel. She doesnât even know Spike is alive, though one suspects it wouldnât make a difference. Spike doesnât work for Wolfram and Hart. Angel does.Â
Spike:Â Andrew double-crossed us? That's a good move. Hope for the little ponce yet
Spike is just happy to be included in the âusâ with Angel so he can overlook the untruth, though he is genuinely proud of Andrewâs move. Well, thatâs what big brothers do; they take pride in the actions of the younger one. Trusts Andrew to get her some help:Â Â
Spike: Though the tingling in my forearms tells me she's too far gone to help. She's...one of us now. She's a monster.Â
Angel is indignant on Danaâs behalf. Sheâs an innocent victim in all this. Sheâs helpless â itâs not her fault. To which Spike replies:
So were we... once upon a time.
Donât misunderstand this statement. Spikeâs not arguing that he and Angel are blameless for their actions because they were once the innocent victims of Darla and Drusilla. Heâs saying that itâs possible to be both. That just because Dana started out as an innocent it doesnât mean sheâs not capable of monstrous deeds too. He doesnât idealise his helpless the way that Angel does.Â
So as Damage closes, we leave Angel at very low ebb. Hope has receded completely, he is alone, isolated and mistrusted by his symbolic saviour. He knows heâs got a big problem but has no direction to get himself out of the labyrinth. His compass needle is spinning too fast. He needs . . . someone to get him back on track . . .Â
He needs . . .Â
Cordelia.Â
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