#bygrove

Right now I'm only really looking to do the following fandoms with m/m ships

These first three are my MOST WANTED ships. I have sooooo many Jonathan prompts I've been dying to do, the next two are rare ships. I will kiss you on the mouth and cry if you want to do them with me lmao.

Stranger things

{Jonathan Byers}/Steve Harrington

{Jonathan Byers}/Billy Hargvrove

{Jonathan Byers}/ any queer ship really

Person of Interest

{Harold Finch}/John Reese

Warcraft (yes, the live action world of Warcraft movie, it's just goofy and I love it)

{Khadgar}/Anduin Lothar

White Collar

{Neal}/Peter

The Old Guard

{Nicky}/ Joe

Merlin(BBC)

{Merlin}/Arthur

{Merlin}/Gwaine

{Merlin}/Lance

{Merlin}/Any of the knights, really

Agents of Shield

{Fitz}/Ward

{Fitz}/Mack

So, I’m not actually sure how it happened, but these either never posted or poofed into the void of space. So here they are again! 

My Ex’s best friend

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Will is seventeen when he starts to realize he's a little... different. Not that he's gay, he's known that since he was fourteen and caught Mike kissing El and realized he wanted it to be him.

No, he's different like...

Like he's tried grindr and it's... fine? Like he's done the whole drive-three-towns-over-go-on-a-date-have-sex-go-home thing and it's... fine? 

But also like it leaves him cold. Not like he's bothered, exactly, more like sex always feels like a let down, like he's so excited by the lead up to it every time - the kissing, the touching, the skin-to-skin contact - then it all rolls over into sex and he's kind of… bored? Like he can't help but think, "Sure, this is fine, but can we go back to the other stuff? The other stuff was better." 

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He's eighteen when he finds out that there's a word for this: asexual. More specifically for him, gray asexual, which means halfway between asexual and sexual, which… can mean a lot of different things to a lot of different people… but again, specifically for him what it means is that what he's always thought made him odd, like that he likes making out and touching and not sex, is actually totally normal. There's a name for it and other people who feel the same way and... 

And he likes making out and touching and not sex and that's okay because he's not the only one who feels this way.

It's actually okay. 

He's actually okay. 

The day he finds this out he actually cries in relief so loudly his mom comes rushing in to hug him, doesn't ask him questions, just hugs him and mumbles reassurances that he's okay and this makes him cry harder and she just hugs him until he tells her he's asexual. 

Like he tells her he's asexual before he tells her that he's gay. Not that he ever really needed to tell her (or Jonathan) that he's gay, he's just sort of always been one of those kids everyone just knew was gay. 

And he's got the scars to prove it. 

This, though. This throws his mom off big-time. Like the first thing she says after he tells her is, "But I thought you were gay?" and he isn't sure if his mom just doesn't get what asexual means or if she thinks that gay guys only ever want to have sex so she doesn't get how you could be both at once, which.

Yeah. 

That's a problem Will has been struggling with for his whole life. 

Or it feels like his whole life, at least. 

Anyway, he says, "You can be both, Mom," because you can, because he is, so that has to mean that there are others, the internet is telling him that there are others out there like him, so he's going to take that information and grab onto it with both hands and believe in it with all he's got because it just has to be true, it has to.

And his mom says, "Okay," like she doesn't quite get it, but also like she supports him, because she always does, always has, always will, no matter what and he's always known that and will always know that and he is so, so grateful to have her because he's read things, bad things and he knows not everyone (read: almost no one) has a mom like he does.

Then they wind up talking about it for an hour and there are a lot of tears and a lot of hugs and it's just… it's just really great, honestly.