I woke up to gifs of Jimin hugging Tae and knew my heart was going to get a severe pulverizing this episode. I have been purposefully avoiding other spoilers because sometimes you just want to experience something for yourself directly. I will try to put my thoughts here.
I feel like too many people have simply forgotten or chosen to gloss over the fact that Tae was forced to cut his mourning time short to be able to join the boys for BV. Obviously I’m happy that he is there, and I do think being around the other members is a good distraction, but loss and sadness don’t magically disappear when cameras are turned on. When the members were thanking him for coming during dinner I think they could all sense that he needed to hear that from them directly. The support system in Bangtan is amazing and I think he is in great hands. The Vmin moment this episode hammered that home for me.
When I initially heard that in this episode of BV Jimin comforted Tae I never imagined that it would play out the way it did. Seeing Tae walk away during the moon viewing was very realistic because in social situations if you’re feeling down people tend to try and remove themselves from others so as not to upset the mood. The fact that a staff member went directly to Jimin before stating, “Taehyung is crying” made me have to physically pause and breath for a moment. Literally everyone around Vmin can just see how damn comfortable and trusting they are together, and the fact that the staff themselves approached Jimin (he could have easily said something to Hobi first) is something special. The fact that Jimin didn’t hesitate to break into a light jog is also so damn sweet, we have seen him run to others when they are hurting in the past and it still hits me right in the damn feels. You can hear in the video that Jimin didn’t hesitate to hug his “baby”. Often times being held by someone you trust during hard times is therapeutic. Vmin in particular has always hit me as two people who communicate well through touch (heck it is even a love language). Comfort and physical affection is huge, and as someone who is very touch deficient something about the whole situation made my heart ache.
Even just seeing a small video of Jimin rocking Tae back and forth while resting his head on him broke me. Like obviously it’s uncomfortable to film someone going through an emotional state like that but with Bangtan they are always trying their best to show us their true selves and holy fuck it makes me adore them so much more every time. Jimin has undoubtedly comforted Tae many times through their years growing up together and it just hits me so damn hard to get to see such a real snippet of their lives. Tae has admitted in the past that he feels like he doesn’t support Jimin as much as Jimin supports him but I think that for some people the feeling of being needed and trusted in that capacity is therapeutic in its own way. Being able to be there for others and make their lives better is in itself rewarding, especially if the other person is someone who makes your life brighter. I’m crying because they make me feel so damn much.
