#btsmama2018

Fml I haven’t watched their MMA performance yet but I’ve seen clips on ig and 😧😧😧

Bts twitter update

I've never posted anything here but after today's emotional roller coaster I decided to write down my thoughts.

During BTS' speech for receiving Artist of The Year Seokjin mentioned disbandment, a word I thought didn't exist in BTS' equation, and said that earlier this year they were mentally exhausted and thought about quitting. Hearing it directly from him made me realize that I had taken them for granted but also how thankful I should feel that they continued just for us ARMY's. I think we were more aware of their struggles before they succeeded but not many of us actually believed that they'd still face difficulties now that they are famous. At least that's what I thought. Sometimes I forget that they are humans with flaws who feel pressured and stressed as well, an outcome that often occurs when living under a microscope. I'm just grateful that they continued to walk the flower path with us although I know they must be tired yet always put on a smile for us. They always mention us first when getting an award even if it's about them and their talents but they give it us.

It made me think that BTS should acknowledge their own skills and not turn to us at all times because without their music, ARMY's wouldn't exist. But I realized after today as well that there are so many things that happen behind the camera that we aren't aware of and therefore shouldn't jump into conclusions. It's just the thought of BTS disbanding was nearly unimaginable for me. They've taught me to embrace my flaws and to be proud of myself, to follow my dreams and with all that they helped mold the person I am today so what would I be without them?

Therefore the word 'disbandment' opened my eyes that no matter how many times they'll renew their contract with Big Hit, they won't always stay together. And Taehyung emphasized that when he posted on fancafé, making me teary. So I came to the conclusion that I'll cherish every single moment I have with them and will always be thankful for what they do for us. Be mindful to what they feel and pray for them to stay away from harm and to find a balance in their hectic lives.