#brekin

I know I've been sending a lot today but I'm rewatching my source and... Well, you know. Anyway. Honestly just being noncanon in general kinda sucks. Like, on one hand the writers can't "mess up" your character, but on the other hand, it sucks to see everyone having fun with each other when I know I was right there with them. I miss my husband and wife. I miss my daughter and her friends. I just... I miss my family. I miss just existing with them. I hope they're doing well in this life. ~ Bre

I didn't talk about it much with them, bc it was obvious, but honestly sometimes it kinda sucked being a third. I would've been fine with them misgendering me if it meant I could've spent more time around the (v traditional) extended family, but even when Bex's mom knew who I was & what I meant to Bex and Bowie I still knew I couldn't be around them. At least until we got married. Then Ham and Celia wouldn't care what they thought. Still, I wish I could've been there for Chinese New Year. ~ Bre

I remember encouraging Bowie to propose to Bex. I suggested it to him first, actually. He thought it was strange, since wouldn't that leave me out? And I said that he would be proposing for the both of us. Bex knew it, too. Celia was still wary of me (not that I blame her), so he had the better chance of getting her blessing. Eventually it did work out, though, and all 3 of us were wed. What a relief it was to no longer have to sideline myself sometimes. I miss all the fun we'd get up to. ~ Bre

Bex, Bowie, Andi my strawberry girl... I miss you guys, I hope you're doing well in whatever lives you find yourselves in. I know you're out there somewhere, and I can only hope you remember me on your own since I wasn't in the show. I miss my husband and wife and my daughter who always made me feel like just as much her parent as she did for Bex and Bowie. Do you remember the angry kid in black on the motorcycle you met so long ago? Do you remember giving me my name? I sure remember you. ~ Bre.

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