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"How long has this been going on?"

"The teeth since last week, the Avatar looks since I woke up!"

Hey. Could the whole "look at how very heartbroken I am because Tommy left me"

...be a deliberate act?

Invites less questions. There is less pressure to start dating again. Buck even himself realises that trying to contact Tommy again would be a relapse. Like he's an alcoholic, prone to dive into a bottle. While also knowing that alcohol cures no ills.

Before the breakup, when Josh asked Buck if he loves Tommy Buck's expression was like "love him?! Yeah let's not turn into Road Just-Took-Some-Shrooms... Calm your tits, Josh."

The whole relationship was such a trip to a La-la-land, really. Buck just didn't want to admit it had flaws. He wanted to stick to the delusion that the realisation of his bisexuality was the magical key that had freed him, solved all his problems, cured all ills. NOW a relationship would work, he'd unlocked his final update.

But it really wasn't working. They never even talked or got to know each other. Why? Because Buck wasn't asking questions. He wasn't really that interested in getting to know Tommy.

Also... The stuff he did learn about Tommy wasn't really selling him over. For example, Bobby's heart stopped for 14 freaking minutes and Tommy's reaction was pretty much "So what? He's not even your real dad, Buck."

Empathy levels off the charts...

Tommy also dated a woman he wasn't even attracted to for TWO fucking YEARRRSsss, and then called her crazy for being heartbroken when Tommy finally ended the relationship. Yeah... She had great hair, though! Wow. Misogyny, what an attractive trait in a partner.

The breakup talk could have gotten Buck thinking about the way someone who is in pain can inflict pain. Tommy, Abby, Buck, Tommy...

Buck hadn't even really realised that Abby was heartbroken, she'd hidden it so well, and then she hurt him. And then Tommy implied he was walking out because Buck was hurting him, now. And Tommy already told Buck he's the jealous type... And they kept hanging out with Eddie.

So maybe Buck realised that Tommy was jealous of the way Buck acted with Eddie. And perhaps Buck realised that Tommy's jealousy wasn't unfounded.

...

"How long has this been going on?"

"...The avatar looks... since I woke up."

in other words; "I just realised something, and I'm stressed to the moon and back, that is why I am turning into a werehamster, look at me hoard!!

Yes fuck my life, I'm in love with my best friend who isn't even into men!!"

Two lovers, forbidden from one another

A war divides their people

And a mountain divides them apart

Built a path to be together

...Yeah, and I forget the next couple of lines, but then it goes...

Secret tunnel!

Secret tunnel!

Through the mountain!

Secret, secret, secret, secret tunnel!

....

Later in the episode:

Oh I remember the last part! 'And die...'

Secret tunnel!

...

So hey, looks like Tommy might be an Avatar: The Last Airbender fan.

"You don't even have to take me. Take Eddie if you want. And die."