Sometimes I wonder what inherent evil in me makes me less worthy, makes me deserving of all that happened, makes me need to turn myself into a complete fucking asshole just to get some sense of love from others, hook up with strangers just to feel worshipped, sell my body, my soul, fucking anything that I have just for attention, love worship. I need it. I need it like I need air. But I have made myself unworthy. It's my fault.










