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It’s been a couple of months since my last entry! Life has been busy, but I survived Beltane this year. I watched two of my realms mates and friends be knighted - congratulations Nea and Khnor! It was an honor to witness both of your elevations - and I even fought Khnor in her trial. Almost made her cry too because I frogged up as well, something I haven’t done in nearly 2 years.

I also fought in my first tourney! I lost, but I had fun! I fought in the single blue tourney, and my knight wasn’t even there to watch me. Thank you Tres for participating and being my first tourney fight. And thank you to Selkie, Dip n’ Dots, Rigamir, and Talon for encouraging me to get outside my comfort zone.

And I totally didn’t almost make someone choke by saying something ridiculous that made them laugh while eating. I would never say anything unhinged at all and am totally innocent. (And I’m totally not a mimic, my belt flag says so)

I’m finishing up finals and graduating college this week ✨

May 3rd, 2025 - Beltane XXIX

The knighting of Sir Cornix the Celerity Knight (photo credit to FLNT/Sawyer Richardson; pictured is Syr Talon proceeding over the knighting as Sir Cornix kneels. Creek is presenting Cornix with a spear as his knighting weapon.)

This was the moment I officially stepped into my squireship! I had retained under Cornix during his squireship for a little over a year, and I was still really nervous to step into squiring - what if I’m not good at being a leader? What if I fail?

But the truth is that I am going to fail - maybe not entirely, but I’ll have moments where I fail at tasks. And I’m not gonna be a great leader right from the start. Being a squire is the start of my dedication to learn though - learn how to better communicate, how to listen to others, how to provide a safe space for people in the community.

So will I mess up? Absolutely. But the goal isn’t to be perfect. My goal is to grow. My goal is to stumble and pick myself back up and keep trying. My goal is to learn about my community and work towards making it even better.