#bluetxt

he's such a sensitive boy. i feel like he's seen as the group crybaby a lot of the time, and like... i see this but i hate that he's just called "pathetic and depressed" cause he's so much more than that!

i think stan struggles with depression but never once have i considered him to be pathetic, and it honestly really rubs me the wrong way that his struggles with depression and alcoholism means hes.... pathetic. cause he's really not!!! i think he can have his moments, just like all the other boys can, but i've always felt like stan has proven to be a pretty strong leader. he's strong in his beliefs and what he thinks is right, and he goes through defending them even when no one else has his back. i find him pretty head strong, even if he can be quick to fold in other areas LOL

also i think stan is really bad with communication until it really matters... like hes sooo bad at communicating with wendy in the show but i don't think its from a place of "idgaf about her" but more of a "idk how to do this communication thing and its kinda scary" because he IS sensitive. i think it carries over with his relationship with kyle, but i think he's more open with him because they're besties. through my style tinted glasses, once he starts to really notice his feelings for kyle, i think he'd become a little more shy about his communication. he doesn't know how to address his deeper feelings like that. i kinda push this on him a lot when i write for him, i think. everything with kyle comes so naturally, but the second they're in a relationship (in the beginning, at least) or when he's cognizant of it and thinking about it, he starts to crumble a little... he's so scared of fucking shit up, but i don't think he's necessarily aware of that. it's like he's watching himself fuck up but he isn't sure what he's doing wrong or how to fix it.

also can we all agree that he really can be a dick head sometimes LOLOL like all the kids have a mean streak in them but stan can be a real dick. he puts his loyalty in the people that matter the most to him and then its like no one else really matters, he'll tell them to kill themselves, he doesn't gaf!!!!

i think stan is really good at DMing ttrpg games and he loves to do it. i think through his adolescene and as a young adult, he felt really out of control in his life. i think his dad has a big influence on him for the worse, but he tries to hold onto the values his mom taught him (hes a huge mamas boy) but he tends to hear randy's voice in the back of his head that makes him think he's not good enough :( so while i think hes naturally a great leader, *he* doesn't believe in it himself.... until it's dnd. he loves story telling... just the right amount of control over the world... i think he'd be really good at it.

i've also talked about this before so im gonna qoute an old answer, but when it comes to cooking: "stan can only make premade food, i think. i think whatever he COOKS is kinda akin to slop. like crockpot dumps that he finds comforting/nostalgic, but kyle thinks its disgusting. for kenny and eric it hits."

and then, at the end of the day, he is an excellent lover... i think communication is something he'll always struggle with, but i think he's very attentive to kyle's needs and wants, sometimes to a point that he really overdoes it and annoys kyle LOL idk... i just think he's very sweet and sensitive. he's got a heart of gold, even when he can be an asshole LOL.