bluecollar!simon angst
it’s the fifth night in two weeks that simon has come home late, nothing more than a simple text letting you know and a string of unanswered phone calls left by you following. normally, he tells you to come meet him at the pub and have a couple drinks with him and the lads before you both stumble home tipsy together
fifth night he comes home to you curled up on the sofa, bridgerton on the tv and a blanket draped over you. in the microwave, there’s a wrapped up plate of dinner with a little note saying ‘for you if you’re hungry <3’. the first few nights, it was left on the table with no note. clearly, by now you’re expecting him to not show up on time
he switches the tv off and carries you off to bed, careful not to wake you when he presses a kiss to your head with a sigh. he knows it’s not gonna be long before you start asking questions and he’s not sure he’s got the answers for you
the next day, he’s already at work when you wake up. and you frown when you find the lunch you packed him still in the fridge. you decide to drop it off to him on the site, not wanting him to go hungry during a long shift but when you get there, the only person you’re greeted with is the site supervisor. who tells you that he gave all the boys a day off, since the weather was due to be pretty bad today and they wouldn’t be able to do what they needed to do. he also tells you that they said they were setting off for the pub instead
there’s an itching feeling in your chest, telling you something is wrong because normally simon would pass on information like that to you. so, you decide to surprise him there. it’s a short drive to the local pub, simon’s lunch sat in the passenger seat next to you, slowly ruining out of the fridge
it’s busy when you get there, it takes you a while to spot simon. but you find him, in the smoking area round the back, the only area not packed out with people. he doesn’t see you, but you see him. and her…
you recognise her from a few pictures you found on his phone when you first started seeing each other. the ex who broke his heart before he met you. he told you how he gave her everything, and he came home to find all her stuff packed up and a new relationship soft launched on her social media a couple weeks later. it took him a long time before he felt like dating again, his mates had made a couple off-handed comments about how it destroyed him when it happened
but right now he looks perfectly content, sat with her on the bench, not talking much but she’s got his jacket round her shoulders to protect her from the subtle chill in the air. to you it feels ice cold. they’re passing a cigarette between themselves, her eyes batting at him every time he lifts his pint to drink it
you bite down the tears threatening to spill and make your way over to the table. they don’t spot you until you drop the metal lunchbox in front of simon, his eyes widening at the sight of you,
“you left that at home.”
you turn on your heel, ignoring him calling after you as the tears spill down your cheeks the second your back is to him. you hear his boots stomping after you, but he loses you the second you disappear into the crowded pub. you know the house is going to be extra cold and lonely tonight, but you’ve gotten used to it recently…












