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I have to use voice to text make this post because I’m having a day so when we moved into the apartment the dorm whatever the fuck, I ran the dishwasher as you do and it leaked, so I put in a maintenance request and they came and looked at it they replace the seals and they leave. So I run the dishwasher again next time I it’s full of dishes, and it leaks again this cycle continues five times.  so fucking finally, they decide to replace the dishwasher and then they run the dishwasher to make sure it doesn’t leak and so I run the dishwasher with dishes in it and it does not drain, there is about a centimeter of water in the bottom of the fucking dishwasher and my little pod thing the soap, does not dissolve like it’s still sitting half dissolved in the little thing that you put it in, but I have faith, so I do not file another maintenance report and so today I run the dishwasher and I just throw that little soap pod into the bottom of the dishwasher instead of putting it in the thing. The dishwasher… has leaked.  am I allowed to say fuck in a maintenance report

the case is strong for my eddie kaspbrak IS carrie white au but also outside of my own purposes and the fact i think reading into their storylines implies eddie is gay & trans and carrie is a lesbian, but that’s another post. most of all i think their surface level parallels are very interesting. i’ve made posts about this before but. both have terrible, abusive mothers who enforce beliefs on their children: eddie’s mother that he is weak and sick, and carrie’s mother that she is doomed and sinful. both isolate them from their peers and enforce cruel and unusual punishment, and both have little to no regard for their child’s physical safety/wellbeing (sonia giving eddie placebos doesn’t mean she gave a fuck about him, can’t change my mind), and don’t care if they’re emotionally happy or mentally well. both believe mother knows best, above all else. both are tormented by their peers (eddie for being small & effeminate & a mama’s boy, carrie for being plain & religious & her mother’s child) both have special psychic abilities (eddie has true sight, carrie is telekinetic). both have their fears used against them, eddie by pennywise and carrie by her peers & mother, and are symbolically haunted by physical relatives to these things (eddie with the leper’s vomit & carrie with the pig’s blood). both are severely sexually repressed, both are rebellious towards their mothers and seek out activities and friends that would purposefully upset their mothers. what’s crazy is how they differ in the end - eddie helps his friends do the right thing, and he continues to do the right thing, and he dies protecting his friends from a thing that hurt him so much it forever altered his life. carrie is unable to stand the torment any longer, and kills all of her classmates with the help of her psychic abilities. carrie lashed out and eddie totally regressed - he goes back to his mother and carrie kills her mother. the difference between them, I think, is that eddie had friends. the love he had in his life is the only staggering difference between him and carrie, because nobody loved carrie, and she was unable to believe anybody ever had or would, but eddie knew he was loved. i can’t speak to his total regression - emotional abuse & manipulation seems to be the cause of that, which is another difference from carrie’s matricide as a solution to the abuse she also faced. really makes you think. anyway I think It would’ve been a different book if someone had killed sonia kaspbrak and carrie would’ve been a different book if someone, anyone, had been genuinely kind to carrie white.