#bleuebird

MEME     /     ACCEPTING.

❝       (   ...   )    ʷʰᵃᵗ   ?         ❞      her head  snaps  upwards,     lips twisted into a grimace.        it’s nervous in delivery,     fear scaling her spine and banging fists into glass vertebrae.       𝖳𝖧𝖤 𝖧𝖤𝖠𝖱𝖳  begins its acceleration and anxiety pinches her nerves a little too tight.       a laugh echos against her cheeks.      spills into the air as a fast breath.       ❝    sorry,    i   –––   you’re joking,   right  ?     ❞       the air hangs still between them.      the brows furrow and she takes a step backwards,     caution ¹ remaining.         

¹    ❝     when we feel unsafe,   there is often a need to retreat into ourselves.     we find that we are our own safe spaces and it’s up to us to break out of that.    we must learn that this mindset prevents   ––––       ❞      DELANEY  MARLOWE,    WHAT DOESN’T KILL US GIVES US SOCIAL ANXIETY  (2014)

         ❝     abra.     it’s  abra.     ❞     her  voice  is  quiet,     perhaps  some  kind  of  respect  for  the  tranquility  of  the  night  around  them,     the  moon  is  half  -  hidden  ‘hind  an  encompassing  ash  -  cloud  and  douses  the  asphalt  in  an  opulent  of  swaying  shadows.    dusk  has  settled,     and  just  further  down  the  way,     abra’s  parents  sleep  away  their  troubles,     oblivious  to  where  there  daughter  may  find  herself  just  past  midnight.      even  abra  is  startled  to  find  someone  such  as  her  wandering  the  streetway.      disregarded  sprinklers  drench  the  sidewalks,     faintly  catching  the  light  of  nearby  street  -  lamps,     and  abra  falls  into  step  with  fellow  student,      certain  to  keep  prolonged  space  ‘tween  them  all  the  same.    

“   you don’t  seem  like the smokin’ type,    ”

the box is held out towards her.   her steps were heard once she  had opened the door.   heavy metal door?   hard to miss.  he looks over his shoulder at her and gives the box  a slight shake.     “   SHARIN’ IS CARIN AND ALL THAT SHIT,   ”     a chuckle escapes him.  smile  stuck  on his lips.  smoke finds its way out his lungs with an  exhale,   and a cloud forms around his face as he  slowly breathes.

          “    HOW DOES ONE GO  ...  ABOUT ASKING GIRLS OUT ?   ”

childhood crushes and  infatuations.   a disease that gets passed around the school.   one guy thinks a girl is  hot / cute / beautiful  you name it  ...  and suddenly everyone else  is crushing on that same girl  ...   or boy  ...  or teacher for that matter.   hive mentality.   calvins been eyeing some girl in class  but can’t bring himself to just ask.   that’s too basic.   sure it’s more effective than some  confession in the cafeteria  ...  dave tyler was a sad young boy  when naomi said no  in front of everyone.   we not tryna have that happen  ...

WHY NOT ASK A FRIEND WHO’S ALWAYS GRUMPIEST UNTIL GIVING OUT ADVICE   ...   or maybe she just  hates  him but he doesn’t really care.

“  you give out unwarranted slash unwanted advice.    so here’s someone askin’ you  ...  you get asked out don’t you ?  ...   so what are they doing wrong ?   since you know  ...  you’re still single  ...  not that it’s a bad thing  ...  but like what’s going on vero.   ”

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other .

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other .

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other .

tiptoed sneakers drag across pebbles below, arms link around chains that held the swing you sat on; gently rocking body with lazy movements.  no intent at the moment to push off in high speed, to attempt to reach heights that you’d never reached sober.   filtered end of a cigarette found itself nestled between plump lips, mouth pulled upwards near corner; a smirk.  “ you see veronica, it is fact of matter that you put killing thing between lips. it is up to you if you light it. that is the metaphor, do you let the killing thing win? ”   slender hand digs into side pocket to retrieve zippo. thumb brushing over trigger and spark comes to life, flame meets end of cigarette as lungs inhale toxins that soon exhale in a flurry of smoke above your heads.