#blargle

so my folks and i just bought a house (well they did, but we're all living in it and i'm contributing to the mortgage payments) which has been a huge thing completely out of our reach for our entire lives, im turning 30 on thursday, and i've been working at my full time job that i spent the last 8 years working my ass off to get a masters (without add meds) and 12 years working up the seniority get to and am finally been doing what i love for almost a year, and bc im officially diagnosed with aspergers and add and medicated finally im functioning better than ever before so whyyyy am i getting a massive wave of "oh fuck it so over for me" bc i havent been doing personal art projects as much