Before you get to read this, if you haven't yet heard the song, please do so. you'd get a good view of what i try to convey with this poem turned song.

https://musics.link/BlackBeachesTheElegy

Back in 2018 sometime around January, I was dealing with a serious relationship not working out and me being heartbroken about it.

The pain that I felt was so bad almost as if the person had died from my life.

I decided to move on and carry on with life, also not forgetting the pain and sorrow that I had to endure due to it, being in love was a dream and heartbreak; my reality.

And so i decided to write my feelings away and make it into a poem rather than a song. It never occurred to me for it to be used as a song, but i merely wanted to write out this pain.

so this was the meaning behind 'Black Beaches (The Elegy)'

Black beaches, Water white

Feet in the sand

I dream away

Water gushing up my feet

A new person, with every tide I feel

The sand of the beaches where I stand are black

And the water washing up to shore are of white

Setting up a scene of a dream in a contrast

Though being in the dream, I feel the water hit my feet

As it washes me new and cools my feet makes brand new

Wash me away

I cry to the sea

Take all the memory I wish to keep

You were a good thing I know,

Coz good things never seem to last

Answering my prayers to wash me clean after I’ve cried out loud

The water cleans me by taking all my memories away

Every piece of the person I was before

Every part of the person I was with before

Realizing slowly that what I had was good

But also realizing that nothing good in my life stays for a long time

Blue sky, clear clean

Sun so bright to make me lean

Eyes hurt staring up

Heart-ache and faded love

Looking up to the sky there are no clouds to cover the sun

It is blue and beautiful but painful to glare up to the sun at the same time

The bright sun makes me lean behind covering my eyes

As this contradicts to the pain in my heart, the pain in my chest, the pain in my soul and all over my mind.

And just as the sun goes down everyday, being calm enough to be looked at, so shall my pain fade away.

Tide after tide I created

Wished not to be alone in it

But it washed you away

And somehow that was everything

With the water still hitting my feet I realize that

Every reason I used to keep the person from leaving

Was the very reason the person went away

And somehow making room for my life to exist on it s very own

Realizing that I could make it on my own, was somewhat a comfort I found being alone.

Writing this out as first as a poem to the person I was involved with was my kind of therapy to let go of all the toxicity I may carry within myself, as a matter of fact I was still in love with the person, as they once said to me “You can never un-love a person” and that was right.

So this poem was written about that specific feeling of being crushed, yet waking up with pain to find yourself, knowing that you alone can FIX YOU.

This poem was then shoved deep into my folders on my phone and was lost somewhere, I had eventually decided to make use of it by making it into a song and possibly publishing it for my next album.

Months went by and somewhere in June I woke up finding these chords for no apparent reason stuck in my, I pulled open my laptop and used these chords and basically gave a melody to the poem.

Giving melody was not the hardest part, but working on the song for a finished product was… but it all came together in an amazing way.

Realizing that I would be holding onto a lot of the past I decided to give the song away to be used for my band, rather than keep it in my discography.

The song is now used as an official track by my band S!lent Screams.

https://musics.link/BlackBeachesTheElegy