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Something cults do, is create language to reinforce their ideology and the validity of their faith. Often, these words are constructed in a way that assumes their faith as fact.

For example “birth sex” implies that one can become a different sex at some point after birth; the term only exists to solidify the Gender Ideology belief that someone can be born one sex and become the other sex. So by using a term like “birth sex” you’re conseding to a part of their ideology.

Everyone already knows the problems with the assumptions of “cis”. It assumes that those who aren’t trans 1) identify wirh the gender roles they were born into and 2) are comfortable in their bodies. By using it, you are conseding to these assumptions.

“Gender reassignment surgery” perpetuates the concept that biological sex is the same as gender; that by changing that anatomy of their sex, you’ve changed the “gender” of their body to match their Gender Idenrity. This sex denialism is why it’s so hard to talk to Gender Ideologues about actual sex and sexual orientation.

The list of words like this is very long. If someone could find me a “Gender Ideology Lexicon” I’d be happy to go through a bunch more terms. (I’m not joking)

My whole point is: be critical of the words you use, and what the word assumes. This was especially useful to me when I was trying to deprogram myself from the Gender Cult mindset.

This isn’t always a practical way to live your life. If I’m talking to someone whose in the Gender Cult I might say something like “dont you think ppl with the same birth sex share unique experiences that no one outsider that birth sex can understand?” but it’s reasonable bc I’m trying to communicate with them in language they can process.

This is why I really love labels. Labels protect me. Labels unite me with those who support and love me. 

How dare the post modern cult steal my labels and change them so they don’t shield me anymore? How dare they disregard my shelter, denying it’s very existence? How dare they strip me of my safeguards in the name of “inclusivity”? 

My labels protect me from their crushing questions  “are you sure you’re not trans?” “maybe you just have a lot of internalized transphobia?” “why do you dress like a man if you don’t want to be a man?”  “how can you know you’re a lesbian if you’ve never tried it with a man?” “why can’t you just hearts not parts with us?”  “why don’t you shave your legs?” “what are your pronouns?” “how do you identify?”  “why don’t you support us?”  “can’t I can be that too if I want?” “who are you to define these labels?”

I refuse to be a product of your expectations. I refuse to fulfill your fantasies with my pain and confusion. I refuse to let you pick me apart, eating away my confidence and understanding and peace and community. 

My sisters are my home, my rock; my family. My loved ones deserve security, my family has a right to their own home, my people have a right to peacefulness.

How dare the sexually fluid beings infect our home?  How dare they ravage our peace with their ignorance?  How dare they erase us? How dare they steal our names?

They are trying to erase us, trying to dilute and dissolve us from existence. Our love for each other tethers us, we are a powerful sisterhood, your disgusting attempts to counterfeit our love and infect us will not succeed. 

I am a radical feminist; I love all women and want liberation for us. Not a TERF, not a SWERF, not ignorant of 3rd Wave Feminism, not trans hating, not ugly, not a witch, not a bigot, not someone with a victim complex. 

I am gender non conforming; I am not feminine. Not a man, not male identified, not on the masc end of the gender spectrum, not a wanna be man, not just too lazy to shave, not masc privielged, not a he-she. 

I am detransitioned and dysphoric. Not a self hating trans man, not a trans man with internalized transphobia, not mistaken, not a fake, not here to convert you, not here to shame you for your transition, not cisgender. 

I am a lesbian. Not queer, not Women Loving Women, not gynosexual, not a homo, not allosexual, not predatory, not sinful, not disgusting, not not a vagina fetishist. 

I am a woman; an adult human female. Not a bleeder, a uterus haver, not a female identified or women identified person, not cisgender, not AFAB, not a bitch. 

So these two things happened in the last week and they got me thinking: 1) i was in some class and i saw this guy and I was like “wow he has nice lips” and then i was like “wait, it doesn’t matter bc i would never do anything with a guy”  2) i was at a piano recital and i was thinking the gay piano prof’s grace and energy around the piano was super attractive and then when the visiting french woman prof went up i was like... not pulled in right away? and at one point i was like “yeah but is she hot?” and then i was like “WOAH wtf she’s so hot. why am i only seeing this now?” 

So i realized a few things 1) i like habitually ask myself if a guy is good looking or not even if i don’t care and never act on it and it like never effects my life at all?  2) when i do this, i like find things i do like about him and focus on those, ignoring the things i don’t like. which is like... you know female socialization. but i guess i do this, bc just a whole man as a person could almost never be considered good looking to me?  3) i almost never sexualize women??? is this a good thing bc i’m like seeing them as full ppl and then once in a while being like “wow she’s a magnificent person, so beautiful, i wanna kiss her” OR is it bad bc if i saw women as more sexual more often it would me reinforce my sexuality? I feel like either way i’ll constantly question my sexuality, either bc i don’t see women as sexual that much or bc if i do i feel guilty. blarg.

Since school has started I’ve realized I’ve been spending way more time with male friends than female friends? Like these two guys are straight but one of them is really good at handling his feelings and doesn’t need a female to process them for him and then other one is really great and respectful to his now ex (they’re room mates now) who is honestly kind of annoying lol. Like I feel like I’m looking for the good in them a lot? is it bc they’re men or is it bc they’re my friends and I want to like them? idk blarg. The violinist guy is a really amazing musician and is always positive and constructive and willing to play music with me. The pianist guy is really into TV and movies like me, also an amazing pianist who is my accompanist most of the time and always happy to jam chamber music or whatever. But yeah we get along really well. 

I’m kinda confused that now my closest friend is the piano guy? I didn’t make conscious choice to do this, we just click. I think I’m a little intimidated by the girls I like in the music program? Also there aren’t many in the music program and the ones I like are SO BUSY like idk how they’re alive and two others i find annoying almost always. ugh. All my close friends in HS were girls, I think it’s more a thing of access here? just why life? 

Also dating.... so I’ve casually mentioned that I’m gay to all these people I’m talking about and they’re all chill with it. Last night I went to the movies with the pianist guy which was cool. and when we were walking home, the words “next time you take me to the movies...” slipped out and I was like “wtf that makes it sound like a date?!?” the way I see dating/relationships is like, you have friends, close friends and then one of them eventually become close enough that you eventually fall in love and sex things happen lol. But yeah, after hanging out last night I feel like it’s kinda... inevitable? or unavoidable? that we’ll end up together and obviously i really don’t want that, OBVIOUSLY. like I like him as a friend and next year he’s gonna be one of my few friends that isn’t graduating or moving away.

After talking to a good lesbian friend of mine about compulsory sexuality, I think I just need to like re-affirm my lesbian-ness when I have this awkward, uncomfortable and hetero thoughts. “do you really want this?” nooooo “think about how much you like women” omg 😍  “realize this is your choice and het relationships are not not inevitable” thank fuck 

helps a lot. I think most of this is just habitual. Thank the goddess I have lovely friends to help me navigate comp het. Love you all 💜

Transwomen are transwomen NOT WOMEN.

Transmen are transmen NOT MEN.

Females are females.

Male are males.

There’s a difference between being a transwomen and a womyn. There’s a difference between being a transman and a man. These differences are important and deserve to be recognized for both trans and non trans people. To ignore these differences it to ignore the struggle of being trans. To ignore these differences is to ignore the sex based oppression both transmen and females face.

TW: ugh the evil fascist cistem forcing me to be feminine simply bc I identify as a woman