#bitterwaters

honestly? this week has been a lot. in the good way, mostly, but also in the "why is everything happening at once" way.

artfight started and i'm genuinely excited but also terrified — i'm a chronic lurker at heart. like, my natural state is to observe, reblog, appreciate from afar, and never actually interact. so actively participating in something where the whole point is to engage with other people's work is... a stretch for me. a good stretch, but a stretch.

i posted the first chapter of bitter waters this week too. that one sat with me for a while before i hit publish. it's vulnerable in a way i didn't expect — putting writing out there feels different from posting art somehow. more exposed. anyway. it's out there now. and chapter 2 is almost done. 🌙

commissions are open and i'm not going to pretend that part isn't hard. i also joined a new platform this week to try and reach more people — because that's the thing nobody tells you about independent art: it's not just about being good. it's about being visible. and visibility, when you don't have connections or an existing audience, is really, really hard to build from scratch. you can have the work, the prices, everything in order — and still just... wait.

the views are quiet. the clients aren't rushing in. and somehow i'm okay with that — not because it doesn't sting a little, but because i'm not doing this to go viral. i'm doing this because these characters and this story deserve to exist. so i'm not giving up. 🌊

but i'm here. posting. which for a lurker is basically an olympic sport.

My favorite thing about your blog: You. And everything you post. Your icon is so precious btw. (I suck at this crown thing omg)

What fandom I associate you with the most: The fandom of awesomeness! And Merlin because I'm pretty sure it's how I found your blog/why I followed you.

What I think of your URL: Sounds cool but I'm not sure what it means.