#bitchspirited

                                 he’d never admit     ,       not even to his   girlfriend      ,     what he sincerely felt for his family     .     how   awfully   he mourned    skip     ,    how    terribly   he missed    brandi      ,      how   deeply   he adored    beau    .    it was embarrassing to him to express how he felt----   how he wept for his father’s death and ached for his mother’s attention    ,     and while he loved beau     ,    how jealous the toddler made him at times     .    so   ,   instead     ,     he sits there    ,      sulking       ,      all doom and gloom       . ‘    you think lilith got smokes    ?     i could use one      .     ‘               /         @bitchspirited

                                            gentle  grin     ,      ginger smile     ,       she’s bashful at the thought      .      ‘    nina    .     .     .     don’t be silly     .    no one would want an old lady like me     !     ‘     she was only thirty     ,     she fails to realize     ,    young on the spectrum of parenting      ;    especially when one son is in his late teens      .      ‘   i just----     i don’t know     .    i don’t think i’m ready      .     i don’t know if i’ll ever be ready      .     it feels disrespectful to skip    .   ‘            /      @bitchspirited

❝    i didn’t say it back.   ❞    she told you she loved you,   that everything was okay,   but you couldn’t say it back.   maybe out of shock,   or fear that if you said it back then it would be real,   then she’d be really dying.   and she was.   she was bleeding out in your arms and you couldn’t even manage to tell her that you loved her.   you wish you could change it,   but there’s a lot of things that you wish you could change.    ❝    that night,  i  ———  i didn’t say that i loved you too.   i’m sorry.   i did.   i do.   ❞      i always will.

[text]: hey i saw this pizza place and idk we should go or something. the beer is really cheap. idk. lemme know when ur free. 

                            ‘   nina   ,    when you were a     girl   .    .    .   did you ever think about    other girls    ?    ‘    she hopes she knows what she means    ,    because she’s too    embarrassed    to thoroughly explain    .    ‘   it probably sounds     silly    ,     but skip’s the only person i’ve ever been with    ,    so i never really------     explored   like most girls do at that age    .    ‘   and she thinks she’s too   old   now   !              /          @bitchspirited

❝ ------ shouldn’t be much further.. c’mon. when we get back, we can patch each other up and maybe get some rest. ❞ he doesn’t know about MEG, but he could sure use it. ❝ sound good to you ? ❞