#binge-free

Food isn’t the enemy

So, something interesting from yesterday. I have a FitBit, which tells me roughly how many calories I burn in a day. Yesterday was a very active day so in total I burned around 3000 calories. Now, on my good days (i.e. non-binge days), I tend to eat somewhere between 1800-2400. I started to get urges to binge last night (Spoiler alert: I didn’t give in to them, yay!) but in thinking of writing…

I have been binge-free since November and really want a place to brag and bitch about my success and agony. So doing this.. thing. Hi 👋 This isn’t the first time I’ve attempted extreme weight loss. With a HRW of around 450 and CW of 257, I’ve lost nearly 200lbs since 2009. My first drop was -60 lbs the summer before college, and then -40, -30, and other small increments here and there. My LRW was 235, but I regained after health and personal issues messed up my life plan. I have been off track for a couple of years but I’m not ready to accept my current weight and state of health.

Although I came down from 285 since last year, I’ve been stuck around 270 since then. So 270 is where I will be starting from. I’ll be eating 1200 per day and more when I exercise. I’m satisfied with the pace I’m losing weight so my main goal is to retrain my habits to resist binge eating. And I.. will do it.

Whilst Xmas and New Years were absolutely fantastic, since then I’ve been left a little bit in the dark with nothing to do. I have a full month before university starts again, and with no job, coursework or studying, I’m feeling a little lost and useless. All this free time (made worse by the fact that all my friends are back in uni far away) has made me a little bored, a little lonely and well,…

3rd time, still lucky

I’m onto day 3 of my binge-free challenge!! I’m aware that this is often how the cycle goes: 3-4 days with no urges, lower appetite 1-2 days with growing urges. This is when it starts to feel like more of a battle 2-3 days of giving up and restricting all day in order to binge at night. HOWEVER… Just because this is what happened in the past, there is NOTHING to say that this is how I should act…

Day one complete!! After a bad weekend, I’m one day binge-free, yaaayyyy! And it has a serious effect on my mindset. It gives me power, encouragement and motivation…it makes me want to get up early in the morning and do things with my day. So, today, I’m feeling positive, I’m going o start the day with my positive affirmations and today, I’m going to put myself first. I’m actually excite for the…

Well, I woke up with optimism. Feeling fluffy, feeling fat, feeling a little disappointed I’ve reached this stage again. But choosing to let my excitement about the week ahead outweigh my worries of the weekend past. Looking forward, or even better, just focussing on right now, is certainly the best way to be. My past is not who i am right now. Right now, I’m fighting to be better, fighting for…