part 2 of the biker!simon x learnerdriver!reader
3989 words (not really edited, sorry for any mistakes)
cw: slight NSFW, mdni, mentions of death, if thereâs anything else I should mention, pls lemme know.
As soon as he stepped into the familiar house, Simon immediately kicked his boots off, bending over with a groan, his stiff muscles practically screaming at the sudden pull when he placed the boots on the shoe rack. His mask almost instantly got pulled off his face and thrown into the pocket of his hoodie, discarded and unnecessary.Â
He knew his mother hated it.Â
Slowly and silently he headed over to the kitchen, opening one of the windows to let some fresh, crisp spring air in as he proceeded to boil the water in the kettle, grabbing his mug, gifted to him by Joseph one Christmas. It was hand painted, chipped at the handle and a bit ugly. But to Simon it was one of his most prized possessions. Thatâs why when he was away, it lived right at the back of one of the higher cupboards, so that his mum wouldnât accidentally knock it down and smash it.
Whenever he held something close to his heart, he would cherish it. Protect it. Do anything and everything not to break it. And for a man whoâs job was to break stuff, he had to put quite a lot of effort into it.Â
He was made to break and he knew it. Everyone who looked at him knew it. Strong, heavy muscles rippled under the inked skin, with every single movement. Hands that should be permanently stained with blood, were clean, only because he spent over an hour under a hot stream of a shower, meticulously scrubbing them, and the rest of his body, after returning to the base. The scars on his skin just reminded him that although he bore many, he probably caused hundreds if not thousands more through the years of being in the army.Â
So now he was blankly staring at the teabag that currently sat in the hot water, as he oh so gently stroked his large finger over the little crack (that wasnât his fault, Joseph dropped it himself whilst he was sat in Simonâs lap, explaining what each of the painted monstrosities was), eyes narrowed, cogs turning in is brain.Â
His beautiful, sweet, stranger with eyes that he was willing to do anything for and driving skills of a grandad with myasthenia, unable to press the gas pedal hard enough.
There was no point crying over spilled milk. Simon knew that. He had his chance and he fucked it. But maybe that was for good? Maybe he would have spooked you if he suddenly decided to beg you to marry him with a bolt nut instead of a ring? Maybe youâd have hated that? A woman as beautiful as you deserved only the best.Â
He was a fucking twat, of course you wouldnât want a fucking steel nut instead of an engagement ring.
In all fairness, you already looked like you were a split second from a breakdown, he was sure that even if he asked for your name, for your number, for anything at all, youâd have just deteriorated.
His poor, little driver.Â
If only you knew how much he wanted to soothe all the stress that so clearly held you in its tight grip.Â
To take it away. Calm you down.
Fuck knows well, he knew how.Â
He struggled himself. He was running on fumes. The past months being away took their toll on him, they always did, no matter how much he tried to keep all of that inside. Maybe thatâs why, when he saw those vulnerable, teared up eyes in the reflection of your rear view mirror, Simon was instantly and utterly gone?Â
Donât worry sweetheart, from now on he would make sure that the only tears that would be guesting under your eyelids and sliding down your cheeks were those of happiness. Or overstimulation, from when he would fuck you breathless in the back seat of his car. Legs shaking, hands weakly holding onto his scratched up shoulders. Donât worry, sweet thing, it wont scar, and even if it does, these will be some of his proudest scars that he acquired yet. Just trust him. Dig in deeper. Harder. Make it stick. Heâll kiss all those tears off as he drives his fat cock into your crying cunt again and again and-
Simon took a sip of the hot tea, his calloused hand sliding over the tightness by the zipper of his cargos, humming quietly, grinding his teeth together. He rolled his neck, closing his eyes for a moment, taking in a deep, deep fucking breath, knowing he needed to calm down. Desperately.Â
His mother could wake up and come downstairs at any minute and he didnât really want her to see him sporting a raging hard on, or at worst explain to her that it was because he could not get his future wife out of his head. That wouldnât be fair to you, sweetheart. But then again, it would probably never get mentioned.Â
Fast forward a few hours, Simon was comfortably and rather peacefully asleep on the soft sofa in the lounge, covered up with one of the knitted blankets his mother started making after her retirement. He was warm, his stomach was full, his mind was (somewhat) at ease after being pampered and waited on as soon as Anne found him sitting at her dining table.Â
He knew she would do it, she always did. At first it annoyed him. The learned independence and self sufficiency from the years of growing up under his fatherâs iron fist and later the military made him struggle to adjust to her suddenly overbearing care. It took some time for both of them to adjust. A long time in fact. Before she stopped letting her paranoid thoughts take over every single time Simon would be sent away. And before he let her mother him whenever he was back without a grumble of complaint.Â
He knew how hard she was trying to take care of him and Tommy whilst they lived with his father. How difficult it was whenever sheâd try to help them after yet another beating, which would result in her getting one too. Anne was so fucking full of love and care that Simon began denying her that for years, afraid that it will end critically for her. He knew that one day he would have to stand up to his father and when it finally happened, he needed his mother by his side. Because fuck knows that Tommy wasnât in the state to do anything.
Losing people made him both desensitized to death and yet so incredibly, overly aware of it.Â
He knew heâd lose Anne one day.Â
So if she fucking wanted to treat him like a kid whilst he visited her between the missions, heâd let her.
And although the sleep was truly a blessing, it was disrupted when he heard the quiet sound of the door opening, the metal squeaking against the hinges, wood brushing over the doormat and quiet rustling of something being passed between hands. Simonâs eyes staying closed but body instinctively tensed up, so that he was ready to throw himself off the sofa and straight at the potential danger.Â
âOh, ta lovey, you sure spoil me wiâ all these! Do you wanna come in? Iâll make us a brew. Me ladâs come to see me, but heâs fast asleep inât living room, it wonât bother âim, pet.âÂ
âNo, no, Anne, thank you, Iâve got a tonne of work to do at home, got a new commission so Iâve got to work on it, but Iâll pop in for a brew at some point in the week, yeah?âÂ
Simonâs shoulders relaxed and he breathed in deeply, hearing an unfamiliar feminine voice decline his mumâs invitation, grateful that he wouldnât have to deal with one of her gossiping friends. In moments like this he was jealous of Tommy being all hitched with Beth and their lil shitling attached to his hip. He was officially off the table when it came to the matchmaking.Â
Simon wasnât ever interested, of course. But that didnât mean that his mum and her pain in the ass friends didnât try.
But now you have so serendipitously appeared in his life.Â
He just had to secure you permanently somehow.Â
As the front door shut, he got up from the couch with a groan, his knees and shoulders cracking as he stretched. He met his mother half way to the kitchen, where she gently patted his upper arm (struggling to reach the shoulder with the arthritis slowly settling in her joints, bless her heart) and nodded at the kitchen.
âJust me neighbourâs made us some biccies, sheâs a good hen like that. Come on, Iâll stick the kettle on, make you a coffee, anâ you can âave some. Youâve proper lost weight fightinâ out there. They wanna feed you lads better inât army if they expect you tâscrap proper.â
And to his satisfaction, the biscuits were truly great. Crunchy, but not overly dry. Not too sweet to cause heartburn either. They were a buttery goodness that melted on his tongue as he chewed one by one, unable to stop.Â
Anne and her feeding habits were a welcome change. The hunger that he suppressed for such a long time was demanding to be felt too.
But with every single bite he couldnât help but think about biting into you.Â
Sinking his teeth into your soft looking skin, anywhere and everywhere you would let him leave a mark. Heâd be gentle of course, he could not risk hurting you (too much). A sensitive thing like you, who clearly was struggling to drive faster than 30 miles per hour must have been delicate.Â
He wondered how the rest of your lesson went.Â
He really should have followed that stupid white car just to make sure no driver who was stuck behind you would stress you out more than you already were.Â
If anyone as much as tried to use their horn, he would deal with them. Donât you worry your sweet, little head. He saw how you reacted almost crashing into the hedge when he revved the engine. The sound of a car horn would likely send you spiraling and he could not let that happen to his brave little driver. Itâs okay sweetheart, youâd never have to encounter that dumb fuck again. Why? Well, silly goose, you canât really use the horn or even drive for that matter, if you donât have arms, no? Oh wait, you can? Well, heâd make sure to discourage them from getting behind the wheel ever again. Heâs good at threatening people into submission. Thatâs kind of a part his job.
Heâd happily cuddle you afterwards. Wrap his big arms around you tenderly, stroke your soft hair and tell you how well you did and that one day youâll own the roads. Even if he had to somehow close off the whole city so that you could drive stress free. Bomb threat perhaps? Terrorist threat? Murder every single driver registered as living in Manchester and close off all the entry roads into the city? Slash the tires of every single car? Johnny would surely help with that. Especially if he was doing it for his lieutenantâs bird.
Before Simon knew it, he was standing in front of the neighbourâs door, helmet in one hand, empty and washed out tupperware box in the other, knocking against the hard wood with the tip of his shoe. âSeeinâ as yer not stayinâ over tonight, pet, can yer take that tupperware box next door? If yer donât, Iâll only forget, yer know what Iâm like, Si.â He once again couldnât say no. He ate majority of the biscuits anyway, the least he could do was return the bloody plastic box to the owner.Â
He heard snapping of the lock bolts as the key turned from inside and then the door opened, revealing you.
The air got knocked out of his fucking lungs, eyes opened wider, the grip of his hands tightened, afraid that he was going to drop everything he was holding as he stared into those beautiful eyes which haunted him every single time he closed his own, even to blink, since this morning.Â
Looks like he didnât have to spend his evening planning on how to find you at all.Â
You were right here, under his fucking nose this whole time and he had no idea. Now staring up at him, chin darted up, head tilted back a little to accommodate for the height difference between the two of you.Â
Future Mrs Riley was so much prettier when there wasnât a car window in the way.Â
You stood there, one hand on the doorframe, ready to shut it closed (good girl, look at you, staying so careful, heâs so proud of you), eyes narrowed a little as you studied his features, clearly not recognising him, but sizing him up. He was a stranger after all.Â
Strangely handsome, but still, a stranger who was for some reason stood at your door, staring at you silently, making it impossible to tear away from his intense, dark gaze (was it dark or were his pupils just abnormally blown? Was he on fucking drugs? Nah, Simon was in fucking love, and when someone is in love, their pupils dilate. But how could you know sweetheart? Just stay oblivious for now.). You werenât entirely sure why. Maybe because it felt like a challenge? First person to look away loses. As if you were both taking part in some dumb staring contest, but from the way he was looking at you, you could tell it wasnât a fight for dominance.Â
Because as much as you always read in your silly books, the author describing that someoneâs gaze softened, you didnât really understand what that meant. Until now. Because a couple moments after your eyes met his, you could see it happening.Â
The whole demeanor shifting. His furrowed eyebrows relaxed, deep set wrinkles disappearing from between them, although still leaving delicate lines in their place. The eyes seemed to have lost their sharp edge, that intensity remaining, but now having taken on a gentle way to it. They werenât indifferent, cold, even scrutinising anymore. No.Â
Simon cleared his throat, looking away first, down at the tupperware box in his hand.Â
Something he rarely did. He was a manmade predator. He knew how to intimidate, scare, make someone feel like a little roach about to be squashed under his boot. But in this moment, standing at your door, he couldnât help but want to drop to his knees and beg for you to walk all over him. Just to confirm this was not a fucking daydream and that for once, life has fucking smiled at him and said âhey, there you go, have it the easy way mateâ. Walk over him like a fucking marching band, please, pet. Run him over with a car for all he cares. At the speed that you drive at, the worst heâd get was a couple broken ribs and a sprained wrist and that is nothing, lovey. Heâs been through worse.
Fuck, you turning in the opposite direction on that junction this morning seemed to hurt worse.Â
You still stared at him, curiosity flashing through your eyes as he dropped his, but you let yourself study his face for that quick moment. The slightly crooked nose, messy blonde hair that he clearly put no effort into styling, sharp jaw with a freshly trimmed beard, a few scars, a particularly nasty looking one that ran down the length of his cheek, a split bottom lip that was almost healed and a yellow bruise painted on the temple.Â
Manâs been through shit.
âHi?â You said quietly, a little hesitantly as you attempted to catch his eyes again, tilting your head to the side.
Simonâs eyes snapped back up to yours as if your sweet voice gave him the permission to indulge in the beauty that you oh so kindly provided and blessed him with.
He couldnât believe his luck. Maybe he choked on one of the biscuits that turns out you made and now he was dead and somehow he made his way to heaven. Somehow. If he clawed his way into there, he didnât remember that, but surely he wasnât just invited. Not with all the fucked up things heâd done in his life. But if this was the promise of heaven, heâd happily do anything to experience even the snippet of it.
He needed to say something, anything that would make you stay, indulge you, keep you from shutting the door in his face, something that would portray all the fucking intensity of scrambled up emotions he was feeling right now. Fuck, would it be weird if he ran to his bike now and undid one of those nuts and came back asking for your hand? He couldnât ask without a ring. He didnât have anything on him that could imitate one. âThâ biscuits were mint, pet.âÂ
You raised your eyebrows as he extended the tupperware box to you, realizing that he must have been the son Anne mentioned earlier when you dropped the sweet treat off. You assumed she was talking about Tommy, Tommy was often over.
Not this absolute behemoth of a man who, for a brief moment after opening the door, you expected to pull out an axe and just kill you on the spot.Â
She spoke to you about him over a cuppa one day. Samuel was it? Youâd never seen him, only heard about him, which made sense since he was a soldier who apparently spend majority of his life away on deployment or out at the base.Â
Well, now he was here and he complimented the biscuits you stress baked after yet another unsuccessful driving lesson. You were surprised he enjoyed them. Thought the tears that streamed out of your eyes as you mixed the batter would have made them a tad too salty.
âOh, Iâm glad. Thanks, Samuel.â Big, well deserved pat on the back for you, showing off that you listen, that you know who he is, without him having to introduce himself. Youâd known his ma for a few months now after moving next door to her. She almost immediately decided to kind of adopt you, after learning that âyâ were just a teeny thing, livinâ all on âer own.â.
He appreciated the try. Really. No, honestly. If you wanted to call him Samuel, heâd let you. Hell, heâd change the name in all his documents if it made you happy. ââTs Simon, love.â
And he fucking immediately wished he never said that and actually went with the idea of a name change, because the way your eyes instantly saddened broke him. There was that worry in them again that he saw in the morning. The expectation of punishment almost. Guilt. Upset. You looked as if you just admitted to killing his childhood pet, not accidentally calling him the wrong name.Â
No, no, no, sweetheart donât be upset with yourself. In his head he already promised himself to only make you cry for two specific reasons. This wasnât one of them. Please donât beat yourself up for it. He should have taken it back, the nervous stuttering of all the half words and sorries filled his ears and he wanted nothing more than to cup your flushed cheeks and kiss those words off your lips.Â
Donât be sorry, sweetheart, donât apologize, not to him, not to anyone, ever. You tried. Thatâs all that matters. He can be Samuel from now on, really. Promise.
Just like when you mouthed the âIâm sorryâ through the closed window of the car.Â
But your name that you introduced yourself with in the midst of all that babble did indeed suit you. He chewed on it for a moment as he repeated it in his head, memorizing it, tasting it, almost choking on it as he finally said it out loud.
He watched your eyes wonder to his motorbike helmet as you tapped your thumb quickly on the lid of the plastic box that you held in your little, slender hands.Â
Were you realizing who he was? Were you remembering the intimate (intimidating), heartfelt (angry) looks he was giving you as he stared at your reflection in the rearview mirror of your car?Â
He would recognize you just by your eyes anywhere. How could you not do the same?
Were you truly this fucking oblivious?Â
Or were you just pretending?
âLet me get you some more of those biscuits. As a sorry for getting your name wrong. I think Iâve got some leftâŠâÂ
He stared at the open door as you rushed back into the depths of your house.Â
Stranger danger, did your parents not teach you about it?Â
But he wasnât really a stranger was he? You shared someone in common. Anne told you about Simon. He was her fucking son. And she lived next door, itâs not like he would do anything to you, at least in your head. In his head he wanted to do everything to you. But youâd enjoy it, obviously.Â
So at least both of you were sure that no hurt was on the cards.
He would never do anything to hurt his missus.
Now standing in the doorway, was he supposed to follow you? Was that an invitation?
He fucking hoped it wasnât, because if he walked in right now, his claws would settle deep into the floorboards and heâd refuse to leave. Would you even want him to leave? Would you ask him to stay? He never stayed. He never accepted any food offered to him just like he never opted for the post fuck cuddles. That wasnât something he ever wanted really.Â
Nah, he had shit to do. Reports to write. Places to be. People to train. Guns to clean.
He was full, he didnât need more biscuits. His mother fed him more calories today than his usual weekly allowance was during deployment.Â
But then again, if his future Mrs Riley insisted, heâd gladly stuff those biscuits down his throat, even if it meant his stomach was going to suffer. Heâd do it with a damn big smile. Just to show you how much he fucking appreciated you feeding him. Hoping that youâd feed him forever. Was your pussy a meal youâd consider giving him too? Because fuck, heâd devour it as a pallet cleanser between all the biscuits he was willing to eat. Just let him have a taste. Please. Heâd make it worth your while. His face stuffed between your legs, hands tightly wrapped around your thighs, keeping you nice and spread open for him as he munched on you like a man starved, singing praises into your pretty cunt about how nice she tastes. Drinking up all the juices. Staying hydrated was important after all.
Thatâs when you could cry, lovey. Heâd lick those tears right off too. Canât let your sweetness (or saltiness in this case) go to waste.
âCome in, Simon, shut the door behind you, the draftâs chilly!â
Without thinking twice, Simon stepped into the house, shutting the door quietly behind him. Hearing his name in that sweet voice of yours was like a call to prayer. Like a call from the goddess who he swore to worship until the day he died. You were cold? Oh you poor, pretty eyed thing⊠Donât worry, angel, heâd happily set himself on fire if his body heat itself was not enough to keep you warm.
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