#betterthingsinlife

Here's part 2 y'all!!! I left off at kidnapping TJ to the beach at midnight.

To be more specific, we kidnapped him to the beach at midnight to get donuts! We walked around and took pictures on the little pier that was there and took a picture that we called, "selfieception."

This was the night that I knew that whatever was going on between us, wasn't going to end there, it was going to turn into something bigger. Him playing the "Les Miserables," soundtrack on the way home kind of maybe helped a little haha

After that night, I knew I liked him, and that's usually where I screw everything up. We hung out a couple more times after that night but there was one night in particular that was really difficult for both of us. With my past imprinted in my mind, I completely avoided him, distanced myself, totally ignored him. Like always, a big group of us went to Denny's after rehearsal and it was the same, I ignored him. I don't really know why I did, I was scared. Scared of thinking I found something but finding out once I thought it really liked him that I didn't. I was scared that something horrible would happen again. I was scared of letting myself be happy.

That night, my friend Cory and I stayed the night in my car in the parking lot, just talking. He knew that something was up and we ended up talking until 6 am, so we went back to Denny's for some coffee and hot chocolate. Basically that night, he helped me figure out what I was doing. He helped me realize that I didn't have anything to worry about, but if I was scared of something happening, I needed to talk to TJ about it because if he really liked me, he wouldn't just walk away, he'd wait or help me through my problems first I'd he wanted to be with me.

So this little tid bit may not be the most exciting or the most happy floofy ever, but its a key part of my story. There'll be more later I promise, well get to the happy floofy stuff eventually hahaha

Until then, PEACE