someone walks up to her , her gaze shifting to the otherâs features and she could tell straightaway that the woman was concerned - like herself - tasmim , alejandra doesnât want to ask the question , but she does - her voice is rushed - words a mess. â have you heard from anton ?? i texted him last night , he didnât reply - and this morning , and today - i donât know where he is â -  she doesnât want to hear the answer , she already knows what it is , but sheâs going c r a z y. where was he ?? â  tasmim , i need to find him - i canât let anything happen to him - iâm losing my mind i canât  â - she shakes her head , the thought tears through her heart - it tears through her entire being , her sould - it wrecks her - â  i canât fucking lose him. â