#because!!!

Mostly because there's something about the way he roleplays that I became very aware with, especially after OPQ

He is extremely conscious and deliberate when it comes to his roleplay of his characters.

Every choice, every act, everything he says and doesn't say? That's all him playing to his character, and oh boy is his character is so subtle and nuanced beneath the silly goofy side that most people know him by on the server

He's amazing at roleplay! It kind of blew me away when he played in OPQ!

He did things that he as a person would probably likely not do, but his character definitely would! And he stuck to them! That's not easy! I mean I personally had trouble doing that when I was first starting out playing ttrpgs. It's hard to stick to a character choice when you know it's not the smart thing to do as the player. It’s hard to detach yourself from your personal motivations and fully immerse yourself in your character's, but he does it so well! He's absolutely underrated!

Ever since I realised that, I've been keeping a closer eye to Foolish recently and what he's saying, not saying, and subtly hinting...and maybe not so subtly hinting

Like the exchange between him and Cellbit yesterday

Like!!! I don’t know how every Foolish mains feel, but THIS MANS IS TRYING SO HARD TO CLUE CELLBIT IN THAT THEY’RE ON THE SAME TEAM, BUT!!! CELLBIT JUST DOESN'T GET IT!!! I'M SO!!!! RHRHEGRH

Like I get it from Cellbit perspective, because there was always the intention of taking down the Federation completely, there's that rage and anger and vengeance to destroy an establishment that's hurt you and countless others, but from the conversations Bad and Foolish were having before with aquariums and fish, Foolish seeks to reform the Federation from the inside and become the head of it even if he knows it's unlikely, but I find his steady climb to the top absolutely fascinating, and I'm excited!!! Because this ties in so well with what we've been getting about how federation workers ARE PEOPLE. They have feelings and families and friends and hopes and dreams and desires!!! Not that I'm saying that he's doing it for them, but! I just find his approach extremely interesting and just plays to those themes we've been getting really well.

His character motivations are so subtle because unless you let go of your perception of him being a silly goofy chaotic guy, and pull back what says and pick on what he doesn't say, or here where he's absolutely directly telling someone his deal, then you won't catch it what he's trying to tell you. He hides it so well that not even the Feds or Resistance or everyone else besides Bad and Jaiden know what to make of him.

5k, Sebastian Vettel/Charles Leclerc; Read on AO3

A remix of @badboy-george’s incredible fic, quantum entanglement

Between the space of one blink and the next, the showerhead fades from view and is replaced by a door of massive proportions. It’s painted white, the kind of white that hurts your eyes, and nothing else. Just a white door, standing in front of him as the rest of the world ceases to exist.  

Instinctively, Sebastian knows he has to walk through this door.  

Rationally, it feels too much like his death door. Hah. Death door.

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I majored in psychology for undergrad because I thought that I wanted to be a counselor of some sort. I had the opportunity to take these two amazing classes with some of the most brilliant and passionate professors I've ever met that dealt with multiculturalism, cultural sensitivity, and antiracism. As a person of color, it was the most amazing and healing experience for me because it put a lot of the things that I felt but didn't know into words and made them into reality that showed me I wasn't just too sensitive or going crazy. Those classes not only fostered my passion for antiracism and multiculrual work, it also revealed the white supremacist values embedded into the psychology field.

And then I had the opportunity to take a graduate-level therapy course during undergrad (literally during my last semester so I was definitely freaking out about not knowing what to do after graduation, especially since I decided that the field that I spent 4 years getting my degree for wasn't quite what I wanted), and it was the first time that I really got a glimpse into what doing therapy meant. I realized that the psychology field didn't really align with my values because it was so narrow. I wanted to help people with a more holistic perspective that took in the entire person and help them with all parts of their lives, not just from a strictly psychological perspective. If people are homeless, treating their depression is only going to do so much, you know? They need to find a place to live first.

That's when I stumbled into social work. The values of the social work profession really aligned with me. There seemed (keyword: seemed) to be a lot of antiracism, social justice and activism, looking at a person holistically to help them, really appealed to me. I also learned that it was possible to be a therapist as a social worker, so I'd be able to pursue my interest in doing therapy as well.

So I graduated with a bachelor's in psych, did some soul-searching and working during a gap year, and decided to apply to an MSW program because it felt right. And I got in, right on the onset of the pandemic, which was super exciting.

Is it everything that I hoped it'd be? Nah, of course not. I do however, enjoy my classes, feel good about the work I'm doing and the people I'm learning from/with. I'm passionate about being a queer social worker of color in a predominantly white field, and an MSW has a lot of flexibility which is really good for someone like me who doesn't know what the heck they actually want to do yet.