snowinabottle asked: Bloody (đđ)
( @snowinabottleâ / one word prompt )
BLOODY :  my  muse  coming  to  your  muse  with  blood  stains  on  their  clothes  and  hands,  shaking.
  Heâs covered in blood.Â
  When he cuts sin free, when he feels the skin give way, to the release of that final tear -- of the explosive scream that sometimes dies on removal -- John feels can feel his heart pumping, a welling excitement. It feeds his more twisted nature, while simultaneously letting Godâs will work through him. His relationship with pain isnât avoidance, not his own, not in those who he delivers it to.
  ( pain is clarity, pain is necessary )
  Itâs over now. But heâs yet to clean up, practically vibrating. As he returns to the house, he looks at her, pupils dilated, bloodied hands reaching to grab hers. Maybe it was the session itself, maybe the residual effects from the bliss that had been in the air.
  â Amelia, itâs okay -- Iâm okay, â he flashes her a smile, but thereâs a nervousness behind his eyes, seeping into how up heâd felt.Â
  â Weâre saving them. I need you to understand that. They donât regret it, not when itâs over. â it could be beautiful, courageous -- and John knows, despite the high heâs riding that she wonât agree, that his convincing, however much he believes it wonât fly for her. But he pushes it back and denies it desperately.Â
