#batimfictive

I WAS NOT MINDLESS BEFORE I WAS LOCKED UP. I do not care what official stuff/the wiki says, I was very much sentient. I was wandering around staring at random shit and being creepy because I was still a kid that had no idea what social cues are. I was locked in that closet a few weeks after being created at MOST.

I also started attacking people afterwards NOT because I was inherently evil or because being locked up made me evil, but because of the horrible trust issues and trauma I got from someone I blindly trusted throwing me in there. I still have those trust issues now, even though I’m outside of the studio.

~Ink Bendy (#♠️🖋️, tag as fictive)

the prophet was a weird parasite thing that possessed my body and kicked me out. i was basically stuck floating around.

the same thing happened to most other people as well, obviously susie and alice shared their body, and norman was the projectionist, but everyone else was basically stuck outside of their body.

when henry freed us, it led to a lot of.. falls.

- sammy lawrence, batim fictive.

~Ink Bendy (tag as fictive) #♠️🖋️

the ending of the post went: "it's in my blood it's in my blood it's in my blood", and that triggered a paranoia response in me. and almost made me start crying in public because i was terrified that "it" (in my case, my brain interpreted the "it" as ink) was in my blood, that i wasn't safe. that i would be stuck in that hellish inky void all over again.

i ended up distracting myself before my reaction got out of hand, which i am glad about.

it would be hard to explain the reason why i was crying was because of trauma that happened outside of this body. and more importantly, i would've felt weak and pathetic if i did end up crying.

- sammy lawrence (tag as fictive)

Kind of.

They said "I thought you were making fun of [Friend who is a system]" and they thought we were pretending. I'm so uncomfortable.

But, why would I openly talk about it on Twitter and Tumblr, even before I knew [Friend] was a system may I add, if I was doing it to make fun of them? Why would I even make fun of that? Why would I set up entire Plural Kit profiles for all of us if it wasn't real?

Maybe I am faking it. Maybe I just want attention.

I don't know how I'm going to face them in school tomorrow.

I'm sorry.