“Do you know when practice starts?” Danielle asks. “No.” “Alright, I will call Claudia.” Claudia and Isabelle are the two other background dancers. Danielle sits down on my bed and grabs my hand. “Cute” she says with a smile. I smile back as Danielle starts her conversation with Claudia.
She hangs up 5 minutes later. “In 15 minutes. We’ll practice at the gym in here.” “Alright. Hey, do you mind if Zayn sleeps over here tonight?” Danielle gives me a warm smile “of course not.” “Thank you” I reply. I really couldn’t ask for a better girlfriend.
Crazy that I haven’t had a best (girl)friend before Danielle, huh? Well, that’s life I guess. One Direction weren’t just a band to me, they were my best friends too. I actually am living the dream of every Directioner.
“What do you think?” Danielle asks me as she stands in front of me, wearing one of her pants she always wears for practicing and one of Liam shirts. I chuckle. “Adorable Dani.” I get up from the bed and get dressed too. I couldn’t wait to dance. I haven’t felt that good in the last past days but today I did - and I could forget about my pregnancy for a while. “The boys are planning on watching Saw today. The first two, just by the way.” “Well, I guess we are in. Are we?” “For sure!” I haven’t been afraid of Horror movies. Furthermore I have seen Saw 1 more than any other movie I guess.
We finally make our way downstairs to the gym to practice.
Dear Diary
Today has been amazing. Or should I say amazayn?
I love being with Zayn so much. I just love whenever we can spend a minute together.
Remember the rose? Well, he wrote ‘taken’ on my hand later the day, just so every boy knows I am not to have anymore. This is more than just cute!
Practicing has been amazing too. I love dancing so much and it has been really great. And it’s even more fun with Danielle.
Zayn is sleeping over tonight so I should stop writing now. He’s probably coming every minute.
Can I just say I love him?
I write his name very big at the end of my diary-entry and draw some hearts under it. Then I close and lock it and put it away.
**
I wake up sometime in the morning. Zayn lies next to me, still sleeping. I feel as I throw up any second so I safely get out of the bed so I won’t wake Zayn up and hurry into the bathroom. And just as I reach the toilet I throw up badly. I sigh as I finally down. This would go on for months now. Abortion wasn’t an option. I would never kill a life that’s inside me. I wouldn’t kill a life at all. Things would not be easy in the upcoming time, not mentioning I still need to tell Zayn someday.
I slowly get up and wash my face. I walk out of the bathroom and crawl back into the bed where still a sleeping Zayn is. I watch him for a while with a slight smile on his face. Boys look so adorable when they’re sleeping.
I drift back off to sleep soon.
