hi everyone!
sorry for disappearing so suddenly. as you may have heard, an anti account made a callout post about me recently, criticizing the depiction of mental illness in a selfship post I made a while back. I have spoken with the person responsible for this callout post, who turned out to be an hsr yume who had sharing issues and disliked that I was so visible in the hsr selfship space. they have since had the callout post taken down at my request, but as you can see, the damage has been done: @/bai-e has been mass reported and censored, I have been harassed, and my handle has been circulated among anti blogs.
I am not the only blog in the xreader/yume community who has been targeted by mass reporting campaigns recently, nor am I the only blog to receive anon hate from antis. this was not my first time receiving hate nor harassment over the content I write.
as well, this was not the first time I have encountered friction over sharing on this website, nor my first time witnessing it. I have seen both myself and others be on the receiving end of passive aggression and harassment due to jealousy in this space. it is, however, admittedly the first time I have seen sharing issues culminate in a callout post and mass reporting.
I am not saying these things because I want to prolong drama or encourage any attempts at "retribution". (if you know who the instigator is, please leave them alone. we are in the process of settling issues privately, and I wish for them to exist peacefully here.) I am saying these things because this event is not an outlier. it is quite extreme, but it is still part of a trend. we have a documented problem with antis in this niche. we have a recurring issue with sharing conflicts in this niche. time and time again, we encounter individuals who are unable to be honest about their boundaries and allow their jealousy to manifest as petty behavior and harassment. all these things have consistently bothered me over the last year or so, but until now, were tolerable.
I no longer find them tolerable. I have hit my limit.
writing and selfshipping mean so much to me. I am sure you all know how much love I've poured into my writing blog for years now, and how loved I've felt on it return. I also have had so much fun here on bai-e for the past few months as a selfshipper. I have seen so many beautiful connections being formed and so much lovely art being created by sharing and nonsharing yumes alike. people here are sincerely so kind, funny, and supportive.
however, between the targeted harassment of dark content writers and chronic jealousy issues in the selfshipping space, I do not believe it is sustainable for me to stay here. I will be leaving. maybe in the future, I'll return to writing, but my time here as a selfshipper on bai-e is over.
thank you everyone for all for all these years. I love you so, so dearly. you have brought so much joy into my life, and I hope I have sparked some joy in yours. thank you for everything. π
