#bae510

Never did I see myself catching feelings for anyone again. I really want to get to know her and show her what it feels like to be by a guy who truly values her from head to toe. To understand how I not only see a future with her by my side, but someone whose never replaceable. And as I fall harder each day I hope she sees all I ask is for her to continue loving me unconditionally through any obstacles we may face. Love every piece of me knowing I’m proud to call her my soul mate.

And another thing if you are getting to know someone and have a “friend” which you’ve sexually had an encounter with, you need to come to realization that you are no longer friends. The second you two decided to cross that friendship boundary you forever changed whatever it was that existed prior. And just out of respect to anyone you may be growing with it’s probably more respectful if you kept those people as far as possible. You may have talked to them before your partner, but need to realize it’s not about sacrifices yet more of respect for your relationship. I understand people should have trust, but let’s be real. No one wants to deal with someone who still has the past involved. It’s okay to think about the past and talk about it so your partner understands you, but literally having someone of the past still relevant will simply destroy everything you’ve worked so hard towards. And I’m simply sharing this right now because I have so many mixed feelings I’ve been dealing with. Like dead ass I just want someone I can love limitless and they don’t give me any outside bullshit whatsoever. I get it things won’t always be perfect, but a relationship shouldn’t even be complicated to begin with. Shit should be simple and flowing smoothly because both people want it more than anything...

Everyone stay positive no matter how bad life may seem you gotta remember things won’t always be the same. Life keeps on moving...

I remember sitting in that cell thinking to myself how jail was no different from the neighborhood I lived in. Jail and the outside had so much in common. In fact your house is basically a jail the way I see life now. Everyone’s in their own space at a certain cost and people are always at competition with one another, yet fail to realize that all the materialistic things will remain here when you stop breathing. We feel life is endless, yet someday we’ll all be FREE..

To be fine on my own again, and this is my reminder that I’m going to be more than okay. I forgot that I’m a whole person and a world within myself. I don’t need anyone to feel complete in this life. I’m worth so much more than being a prisoner of love. I was meant to be free and conquer the world. I am capable of growing all by myself as a person. Im learning to see the beauty within myself through the eyes of the world. I’m sure some strangers out there have wondered not only who I am, but what I’m capable of offering to the world. And with all that being said I’m still learning everyday that I am reborn...

I know I’ve disappeared a ton, I’m leaving again and am not sure if I’ll be back this time. I won’t message those who’ve talked to me, but I will say thanks to everyone whose ever talked to me in the past. Whether it be a positive or negative experience. I’m not as depressed as I once use to be, but I’m changing everyday and feel the need to get away from social media because I can live without this fake world that never will exist or hold true meaning to who I am as a person. Thanks to everyone who reached out to me and enjoyed my writings. I know you are all capable of finding yourselves and loving limitless. See your true value and potential in life. Stop settling for people just because they are around and surround yourself with quality. Go chase your dreams and stop spending so much time on social media it’s all a distraction from reality and I just want to create new memories rather than new faces I’ll never meet. It’s nice to talk to people from all over the world but it’s just not for me anymore. So with that being said everyone take care!

To think that I was alive during the last moments when the Internet didn’t exist, I still remember how the Internet was when it first started. What is known today as the Internet seems to bore me compared to back then. Before we used the Internet to communicate, now it seems people have mislead the definition of what communication means. Everyone has a cell phone now with Internet so people don’t even talk to one another. It honestly throws me off when someone even tries to talk to me or even says hi due to how rare that seems now. Technology will keep evolving, but why have humans stopped evolving?

I question if someone will miss me when I’m gone. I look at how this system I was born into has enslaved me from the second I took my first breath. How all odds are against me and the fact that human rights are only a privilege now. These chains around my neck only suffocate me more as I age, and I remember telling my mom I was coming home in December. Police didn’t kill me for some reason I’m still here breathing. They placed more chains on me and they locked me away, but I only became more aware that things are never going to change. I learned at a young age that God was only someone who existed in my mind if I allowed his existence to become my belief. I learned the difference from hell and heaven based off my actions. Sometimes things come down so hard and I remember that this life is only for the moment…