🎀I am struggling with recovery.🎀Back surgery seems like no big deal. I had hyped myself up Thought I knew what to expect, asked all of the right questions, I even watched the surgery on YouTube, and watched recovery stories from people on youtube, but nothing could have really prepared me for the recovery process or the immediate immeasurable pain upon waking up from surgery. 🎀I want to get better, but full recovery weather I like it or not is 3 months, and I am already antsy. I can drive, but not comfortably, and I can't BLT (bend, lift or twist). It's really hard to be patient with the process even though I know that something could get messed up if I push myself too much. I kind of just pretend I'm okay with just chilling because I get anxiety if I don't. 🎀 Nobody really understands that your spine is your core. It controls everything in your body. I have left leg nerve damage from the surgery so it's constant pins and needles. It could take months to go away, My arms are weak, and I can't stand completely upright. I wear a brace all waking hours to keep everything together, and I am off all major pain meds taking just Tylenol when I was only a week post-op. 🎀I feel a lot of pressure internally to recover quickly, but I know I don't have to. I am keeping myself immersed in the planner community, to keep myself busy, and lessen my anxiety around the pressure to recover. I'm not sure if this is helpful, or just a rant, but it made me feel better. Of you made it this far. Thanks for reading! 💎 #backsurgery #backsurgeryrecovery #backsurgerysucks #recovery #inspiration #rant #anxiety #Createyou86 #new #plan #plans #planning #planners #planner #planner community. (at Pennsylvania)
