#backmask

Spending your last year of freedom before you’re sent into the adult world in ‘rich kid prison’ isn’t exactly Ideal, but try telling that to my parents. It’s not like they aren’t supportive of me, they’re sending me to a girls school and are happy to pay for my hormones and and all the designer clothes a girl could want but they ‘don’t have the time’ anymore. bullshit. nothing has changed they just don’t want to have to deal with the baggage of having a trans kid. Yes, I Trixie Mattel are transgender. I’m lucky for a trans kid, my parents didnt kick me out, i have access to hormones and can pass pretty easily but that doesn’t stop the dysphoria getting to me. 

 this is probably the part were i thank my amazing friends for helping me through this but that’s not the case, all my friends were snotty rich white boys who disassociated with me as soon as i came out because i would ruin their reputation. I prefer being alone though, or I guess just am used to it, but all i need is an internet connection and my guitar to have a good time. God, I sound like a little indie kid off tumblr who thinks they’re 'different.’

 To say i was nervous would be an understatement. I don’t know how these girls will react, or how their parents would to their little princess living with a tranny. I know people are moving forward and becoming more open minded but some of these snotty rich kids can be awful. I approached the main entrance, weighed down with luggage.the building itself was quite nice, an old estate with large grounds and girls in uniform hanging about and talking. Some of them were staring at me, but im used to it, with my dramatic makeup and my neon pink dress matching my shoes, what can i say I’m a human barbie. I was barely inside when i girl with bright blue hair ran up to me. “Hey, I’m Adore!” she all but yelled. she had perfect tan skin and massive ass lips that looked like she had lip injections but i was sure they were real. She was wearing the school uniform but buttons were undone and her tights had holes in them. she looked like a mess in the best possible way. “You’re the new girl…uh Tracy Martel?” she said, looking down at her hand. “It’s Trixie Mattel actually..” I said confused. “Sorry, my handwriting is a mess, anyways I was told to show you to the dorms and stuff…here let me take your bag!” she snatched my suitcase out of my hands. she was a handful alright

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 the short walk over to the other building was pretty uneventful, Adore explained that about 50 girls boarded and the rest just came for schooldays. She said that were were spit into groups were 6 of us all had a big living room and kitchen lot to share. Fuck, six people is a lot.

 when we got the building, adore explained that since we were all the oldest we were on the top floor. As we walked up the stairs she said “you’re trans, right?” I tensed up. “Y-Yeah..?” I answered, waiting for her to start making fun of me. “Cool, all the girls you’re with are super chill so It’ll be a party.” I smiled, Hopefully It won’t be that bad. we stopped in front of a door. “This is it.” she said. she got some keys out of her pocket and gave them to me. I opened the door and saw were I would be living for the next year. The main room was quite big with a modern looking kitchen and fairly big TV. there was three doors surrounding the room. “in there is Alaska and Sharon.” Adore said pointing to one of the doors. “Sharon looks scary but she’s a sweetheart.” She pointed to the next door. “there’s” pearl and fame. They’re fucking gorgeous and  Fame will probably want to do your makeup, let her it’s stunning.“  she pointed to the last “And that’s yours and Katya’s room over there… SHIT I need to go get ready for dance or Alyssa’s going to kill me, see you around Tracy, oh and once you’re ready tell one of the girls to show you to principal Ru’s office ,they’ll be back from breakfast soon.” She was out the door before I could even say goodbye. She was sweet though. 

I guess I should unpack then, I open the door to my dorm and see a beautiful girl with long blonde hair down to her ass pulling a t-shirt over her head.