ZĂąira nĂȘnud. Longing is upon us.
The words, her words, echoed in Azruphel's mind as the winds bore their ship away. AgannĂąlĂŽ burĂŽda nĂȘnud. ZirĂąn hikallaba. Ăphal ĂȘphalak ĂźdĂŽn hi-AkallabĂȘth! She firmly closed her mouth on them, ears filled with the sobbing murmurs of the NimruzĂźrim about her.Â
Elvellyn, she told herself. Elendili. Never again NimruzĂźrim. Her name, her mother's lullabies, the chatter of her brothers and sisters and cousins, the annotations scribbled into her books, they were all drowned in fire and blood now. She sat silent in their corner of the ship, Uilian's dark hair swinging in front of Azruphel's eyes, obscuring her vision. She grasped and ungrasped Lossebeth's smooth hands, then grasped them again.Â
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It was countless hours later when she spoke again, reaching with her free hand towards the shivering figure on Lossebeth's other side.Â
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"I'm glad you lived," she said in Sindarin, less to Catairë than to all of them. Another set of hands brushed theirs. Raveccë's? Lossebeth's arm slid around her waist.
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"Thank you," she whispered. As if Azruphel had saved her.Â
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Is that a light down there? LĂŽmizĂŽr had demanded, stalking about Azruphel's office like they owned it, or like the two of them were friends. Silly child.
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Azruphel just caught the bright gleam of CatairĂ«'s hair before the lamp was extinguished. Her companion was a shadow, a little taller, a little darker. There was only one person it could be.Â
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A moment later LĂŽmizĂŽr was turning to the window, pressing their face against it.
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I saw nothing, said Azruphel, in her sternest professorial tones. But the moon is bright tonight.
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They'd all done their part.
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She wondered if LĂŽmizĂŽr had drowned with, with NĂșmenor and their lord. It would be suitable enough, and yet she suspected not. They had not attended any sacrifices for months. Perhaps they had left for the colonies like MinalsaphĂźth; perhaps even now LĂŽmizĂŽr wept for Sauron. She rather hoped so.
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Uilian's hair moved; she was resting her head against Azruphel's temple. Now Azruphel could dimly make out Catairë and Raveccë.
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"The storm's gone," Raveccë murmured. "The wind must have blown us a long way from--"
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"Which way?" said Lossebeth, alarm raising her low voice. She'd never had any sense of direction; to her, they could be sailing to the doom that lay west as easily as the lands where their kin dwelt along the shores, eastward.Â
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Azûlada was on her tongue. Azruphel said, "Rhuven."
Aftewards, she heard her mother tongue often enough. There were a few others who had fallen in with the Faithful in the later years. From the moment that they stepped on land again--Lossebeth stumbled and would have fallen if Uilian had not caught her, before Azruphel could--they caught the familiar chatter of the NĂșmenĂłrean language, from mariners, farmers, even some of the colonial lords. Months later, when they stumbled across MinalsaphĂźth, she greeted Azruphel in cheerful AdĂ»naic, and stared when Azruphel replied in Sindarin.
In fact, though AdĂ»naic surrounded them still, and though Uilian and VeccĂ« slipped back and forth easily enough, Azruphel had not breathed a word of her own language since the winds thrust them from NĂșmenor. Not in her waking hours, at any rate. Even hearing it, often as that occurred, seemed to twist her gut; on the few occasions when she allowed her lips to silently shape the words, she had to rush away to throw up her breakfast.Â
Many times, she would find a hand pushing her hair away: sometimes Uilian, most often Lossebeth. She hated the pity in their eyes, but their cool hands soothed her, their soft Sindarin endearments, the strength of their arms helping her up.Â
She rested afterwards, and one day woke to Lossebeth still beside her, reading quietly.
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"Lossebeth?" Azruphel struggled upright, legs swinging down. It was a hard thing, she thought, living on. She must do better than this.
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"Shall I call you Aeriel?" said Lossebeth, gently mocking.
"If you wish."
Once, she would never have dreamed of taking a Sindarin name. But then, she would never have dreamed that she would count Elf-friends as her own, lie for them, spy for them, flee with them and watch as everything her people had built burned and drowned. Build a new land as one of them. Adûnaic was for the mariners, the builders, for Minalsaphßth's relief and LÎmizÎr's lamentations. Not her.
Lossebeth took her hand, face grave. For a moment she looked Professor InzilbĂȘth of ArminalĂȘth once more.
"I think," she said, "that we've had enough of that."