Axton Headcanons Because I Feel Like It
he tried to be a good husband for sarah he really did, but they probably werent really compatible no matter how hard he tried
hes a rule breaker with creative solutions and a crippling inability to do nothing even when its necessary
now given that he cant just sit by and do nothing pandora is PERFECT for him
always something to do, always people to save, always corporations to fight
and with the space he gets with the crimson raiders that he could never get in the dahl military he can finally process all the shit hes been through and done
he has the space to grow and he knows he should, so he CHOOSES to, he CHOOSES to better himself
and not in the way of following more rules, but maybe he learns to paint, maybe he learns different forms of mathematics, maybe he asks maya or zer0 or gaige what their lives were like on other worlds so he can have more compassion for people he meets
he is almost definitely in love with his turret thats not a question
he talks to her when hes cleaning her or fixing her
he talks about what they did together that day and what theyll do the next
its very domestic and kind of sweet but its also deeply uncomfortable to the other vault hunters because they cant tell how deep that runs
zer0 and lilith have money on him fucking his turret
everyone else put in money against that because its a disturbing thought to most, even on pandora
zer0 walked in on him crying over her once, it wasnt even really about anything, he was just struck with grief
they sat next to him with his head in his hands and gave him an awkwardly positioned side hug
they got much closer to each other after that
eventually he opened up to them enough that when they inevitably asked questions about his scars he answered honestly
he talked about his history of finding himself in the wrong place at the wrong time, of his habit of getting himself caught in tight spaces, the way he takes bullets for other people when he can, his occasional relapses of self harm
sometimes he visits tina when he doesnt trust himself because he knows he would never do anything that could hurt her and she cares about him enough that his death would cut her deep
he visits more after roland dies than he did before, because he doesnt want her to be alone and feel alone
sometimes hell bring zer0 and gaige and a board game and theyll play for hours
he catches himself staring at zer0 a lot, he finds he hardly ever flirts with them anymore, he thinks about all the gifts hes given them at random, and realizes he might be in love again
he never says anything, he doesnt want to ruin it, and hes not sure hes ready
zer0 notices and doesnt say anything about it, but they grab his hand one day, out of the blue, flash a heart across their visor, and hand him the smoothest rock theyve ever seen on pandora
he doesnt know what it really means but he knows enough about zer0 to know it means SOMETHING
they unofficially court for a good long time before anyone else really even notices somethings changed
the first one to notice is gaige since she and axton are ✨besties✨ and she fakes offense at not being told and then just teases him endlessly about how disgustingly cute it is
he tells her to shut up but he smiles the whole time
sometimes hell come up behind her and put his chin on the top of her head, particularly in a situation where it would embarrass her
he sort of sees her as a very close friend and sort of sees her as a little sister and hes very soft about it
when he realized krieg was always nervous around her he started watching real close
he had never seen such dad like behavior from any pandoran before but he immediately recognized it for what it was
he saw it with tina too, and anyone young they came across
he came to the conclusion on his own that whoever krieg was before was a very good and kind and loving dad, and one day he took that conclusion and went to give his psycho friend a hug
it wasnt well received because he forgot to make himself known and forgot to ask if he could and he earned himself a broken arm but he wasnt mad about it
he definitely learned his lesson though and only ever approached from the side krieg could see on
he never really had to forge a connection with salvador like he did with the others, salvador just liked him immediately
their jokes bounced off each other and their serious moments worked in harmony
they werent really best friends but they were close, and then they started working closer together and talking to each other more and sharing experiences and practically became brothers
he writes intentionally shitty poetry on his downtime
sometimes zer0 joins him on the rooftops of sanctuary and they make bad poems together
he likes to study zer0s hands, hes always been a "hands-on" guy, haha
he likes the way their fingers flex and how thick they are and how long their hands are and the way their wrist bends
it was at first very alarming to them that he wanted to look so closely but he never pressured them into removing their suit just so he could see their hands
he always asked if he could play around with their hands before doing it, too
they like watching the sunset together, and sometimes the sunrise, and its the quiet moments like those that help him remember what hes got and how much he loves what he has
hes finally got friends and family that love him and like him and work with him willingly and spend their time off with him by choice
he learns, here on pandora, in the dingy flying city of sanctuary, what it really means to be loved